Emerald Ponds 🌸

Hua Cheng finally came in sept. I was getting so antsy waiting for him lol. And I kept seeing people on twitter already getting him sob. But I'm so happy, I love the design of this figure so much, his foot on the skull all the bling and bangles, his hair, I love his hair so much. And the attitude vibes lmao. Now it looks so complete with the Dianxia figure, like a married couple lmao ❤️

I dusted and filled up my bookshelf. I never thought I'd fill it lmao, but here we are. This year I really want to read all my books or a good majority of them lol. I need to reread D-Gray man I miss it so much, it's been to long. In 2024 I think I only read 2ha book 3 and the beginning of book 4, and it took me the whole year to read book 3 lmao. So much stuff just got in the way sob. I also read all of OPM and SD. But I have so many series on my shelf that I have never touched 😫.

When I was younger I use to read all of gravitation and then reread it all over again. I use to know that series like the back of my hand. I want to go back to that and finish series and read them all over again. recently after dinner I sit on the floor with all my plushies and a cup of tea and read. it keeps me off the internet and clears my mind it's so refreshing. I'm getting a little addicted to it lol.

Reading is gonna be one of my major goals this year, idk if I'll keep record of it but maybe I should lol.

lol I'm falling in love ❤️. I found this toy kitten I had when I was a child. She purrs, she's so cute she looks like a real kitty smol and limp. I jokingly put my colorful bracelet on her n then it went downhill from there lmao. I realized I probably never named her as a child so I decided to give here one. I wanted to name her after chu wanning, but he's a white cat so I choose Chufei ❤️💖🥰🎇✨️. And I'm losing my mind because I'm like that is such a cute name for a cat lmao. I can't have a real cat so this feels like a real one to me.

if you want to create but feel intimidated and overwhelmed, you're forgetting something: good art doesn't exist. all art is terrible. every story and song and movie and picture is worse than the one before it and all artists should be in prisom

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I went out with my cousin. We only went out for coffee and some light walking around. It was fun it’s nice to get out and just walk around the city and not have to run errands. This week was a long one of just me running a around from place to place like a headless bird ugh. My cousin was trying to persuade me to move to New York when she does next year lol. It’s a scary idea for me but I'm not opposed to it. I would have to leave everything behind and start over again, and I'm so scared. But I'm also so tired of my current life it’s so draining and I feel so alone. Plus I have no idea what I would be doing in NYC, career wise. 2024 as a whole has been such a weird year for me. I realized that I had been doing almost everything wrong my whole life and it’s tearing me up inside. Saving money wrong. Making friends wrong. Eating wrong. Doing my hair wrong. Just overall living wrong lol. Sigh I'm trying to not be so hard on myself. Trying to convince myself that 2024 can be the beginning of something good. But it all  just feels painful. Anyway on to less depressing stuff. We saw a lot of fun stuff today, a lot of cute doggies, I should of took pics of them. I went to this interesting thrift shop, at least I think it was, everything was Hella expensive. They had this really cool painting in the back. And these giant amazing lamps, it was so cool. I can only dream of owning it. After  that we shopped for books, I'm trying to get all of dungeon meshi. I wanted to buy them all at once but buying them individually is fun too. I love the covers so much. It still amazes me how much I've come to love dungeon meshi, all thanks to my sister lol. It’s not a series I would usually get into, because I'm so picky sob. It’s probably gonna be a long lasting favorite for me.  Then we went to this house of oddities type of place, I forgot to get the store name. It was really cool but the inside smelt so bad like death lmao. There was a large coffin in the front of the store. I couldn’t stop taking pictures of everything I must of been annoying lmao. They had some really cool bug taxidermy frames, they were so pricey lol. But I would of loved to have some. Maybe in my future home.

flowers for you. x

mb of the day wednesday april 16, 2025