IT'S DONE

I just wanted to thank you for contributing to society, an amazing few hours spent in binge reading, the feelings stirring in the chest when something in Kim wakes up after all those years. Reading it and seeing all those people, sceneries. Good soup.

Kim feels for the Satellite Officer. It’s clear what he’s been through, what Harry has subjected him to over the last few years - Kim only knows the half of it, of course, but he’s seen it before, hermit-cops pushing everyone away, their partner last man standing at the bombsite. Still, it feels cruel to punish this person for it, this wiped-clean, remade Harry, looking at Kim now like a bottle-fed animal about to be released into the wild. If Kim does go to the 41st, navigating all this will be an extra layer of complexity. He should think very carefully about it - about whether it’s worth getting mixed up in all this. The mess.

A slow-burn, Kim-POV story about going to the 41st, against his better judgement.

Chapter One, Lonesome Long Way Home

Chapter Two, The Man Without a Name 

Chapter Three, The Old Cinema

Chapter Four, Where The Wild Thyme Blows

Chapter Five, Sorry Cop

Chapter Six, Triturus Marmoratus

Chapter Seven, The Needlepoint Poisoner

Chapter Eight, The Remains of Tiphaine Holly

Chapter Nine, Girl Child Revolution

Chapter Ten, Retour à nouveau

Dudes shouldn't have to prove themselves by having spartan greyscale homes with dollar store rubber shower curtains and a mattress on the floor. Do you know what life is like with linen

we need to consider Harry’s epilepsy more it seems like he’s more prone to sub clinical seizures (the ones you don’t lose consciousness, not necessarily triggered by flashing lights) but he is absolutely having a pass the fuck out seizure at the church during that failed shivers check. was he at the discotheque back in the day with shades on, not seeing shit…

ur future nurse is using chapgpt to glide thru school u better take care of urself

Disco Elysium spoilers ahead.

One of the best things about Disco Elysium is the way in which it talks about having community, love, and support—or, perhaps more importantly, about not having it.

But you don't have to be alone. Not forever. Even we learn this, somewhere along the way. Take this interaction with The Pigs.

And then? What do we, a sad, lonely man, say to that?

I find myself thinking of our interaction with Tommy Le Homme…

… or even Idiot Doom Spiral.

What if you don’t have anyone, though? What if, rather than finding your way through your troubles, or making a family out of the people you have, you instead decide to turn away from the world?

That’s what happens with René.

It’s what happens with The Deserter too.

We see how that loneliness affected them. How it killed them, day by day. And how it doesn't have to be that way. How you can change.

This is a game about lonely people. Maybe one for lonely people too. And because of it, because of its community, we don't have to feel alone anymore.

my favourite 7/10 sharpshooter

i finished the game

I think more portal fanfic writers should take advantage of the fact that glados *is* the facility.

She's not just in her chamber, she controls the entire place!!!! She is the entire place!!!!

Need more people to get quirky with it in fanfics. Chell kisses the wall in the middle of a test to distract Glados. or cuddles with her by just like. Sitting in small room.

Instead of holding hands she drags her hand across the wall as she walks through hallways. Takes care of her by cleaning the place sometimes.

Can you tell I'm. So normal about portal.

when it comes to disco elysium, one of my favourite things within the game is the usage of lungs as a motif of love and the representation of this through dolores dei. it’s an incredible way of showing it, as when you love someone or something it almost seems to sustain you, becomes the air that you breathe.

however, another thing i noticed is that an overwhelming majority of the characters smoke. smoking is famously damaging to your health, more specifically to your lungs - almost like smoking is a metaphor for the way these characters show their relationships with others.

some prime examples are:

• harry du bois, who smoked heavily before losing his memory (and after, depending on player choice), a clear instance because of dora and her effect on his life and relationships for years after she left

• the smoker on the balcony, who is never seen without a cigarette, and is in an unloving sexual relationship with someone who can never understand him or truly know him at all

• klaasje amandou, who is also never seen without a cigarette, believes that she is at fault for all of her relationships collapsing and has a skewed view on what it means to love

however, my favourite example is, of course, kim kitsuragi. yes, he smokes as he enjoys the control he has over his addiction and the “cool factor” it gives him is satisfying, but i think there’s a more specific reason there - kim is so repressed that he consistently walls himself off from relationships.

kim himself says that he smokes one a day as he goes over his notes. to me, this says that he is causing minor, daily damage to his interpersonal relationships that builds up more and more over time. the fact that he does it specifically when going over notes says a lot to me too - that his work is what he’s using to push others away.

he does break this one a day rule, however - in the ending where the player chooses not to recruit kim. harry leaves kim behind. they shake hands, and as soon as harry turns away, kim lights a cigarette, a visual representation of the damage caused by another partnership cut short.

kim “cover them up slut” kitsuragi