On Harry, Jean And Severing The Ties Of Codependency

to make things clear i just love showing the sentimental, tender aspects of otherwise codependent fucked up relationship of jean and harry. harry is a sap, you see. a week with kim and if you're nice to him you develop this trust that can be reached only if you're together in the line of work. jean and harry were working two or three years together max, but as that snapcube quote says, SOMETHING JUST HAPPENED. you dont just help your partner get into the motorcarriage as if hes a flightless bird when he's been running around for a week straight!!! as argo tuulik said, there is caring and tenderness within jean, beside his absolutely awful behavior. this is curious to say the least.

BE VIGILANT. I LOVE YOU.

Memory Hacks: Neuroscience Behind Efficient Memory Techniques

Memory is an elusive neural process concerning the interaction of various parts of the brain, neural tracts, and neurotransmitters. Considering popular memory hacks, we have learned how such techniques used structures and mechanisms of the brain in their own way to make the information more available. Let's carefully look into eight memory hacks and why they work on a neuroscientific level.

The Memory Palace Technique and the Hippocampus: The so-called Memory Palace, or method of loci, in its overall functioning relies on the brain's spatial memory system, enlisting primarily the hippocampus. The hippocampus is placed within the medial temporal lobe and plays a vital role in producing and retrieving spatial and episodic memories. This particular area was more significant for our ancestors with regard to orientation and mapping of their environment, a skill directly related to survival. When you visualize putting things in places you know well, your hippocampus is associating the spatial memory of that place with more abstract information you want to remember. Such an association results in a strong memory trace, since spatial memory is more robust and resilient. The technique also engages the parahippocampal gyrus, which processes visual-spatial context, thereby facilitating retrieval by mentally "walking" through the familiar place.

The Spacing Effect and Synaptic Plasticity: The spacing effect, otherwise known as spaced repetition, is based upon synaptic plasticity, which means the strengthening of synapses through repeated activity. So, when something is reviewed over a longer period of time, it strengthens the neural pathways related to that memory. This reinforcement happens during consolidation, a process heavily supported by the hippocampus and prefrontal cortex. Each time the information is revisited, it causes long-term potentiation-a process whereby repeated stimulation of neurons strengthens synaptic connections. LTP simply makes it easier for those neurons involved in that memory to fire together simultaneously, therefore creating a stronger memory pathway. Such periodic reinforcement will enable the memory to move from short-term to long-term storage and thus set it firmly in the neocortex for long-term recall.

Visualization and Multi-Sensory Memory Encoding: Visualization techniques capitalize on multi-sensory memory encoding to engage not just the hippocampus but also the occipital lobe for visual processing and the fusiform gyrus involved in object and face recognition. Transposing these more abstract pieces of information into vivid mental images through visualization naturally creates a deeper sensory trace, which the brain favors and finds easier to remember. When we visualize, neurons in the visual and sensory cortex fire in patterns that resemble actual sensory experience; detaied and richly encoded memory representations are thus built. This multisensory approach will include the amygdala if there is an emotional component of the visualization, thus forming emotionally laden memories which are even easier to recall because of their strength in memory consolidation.

Teaching or Explaining and the Role of Elaborative Rehearsal: Teaching others or explaining increases retention due to elaborative rehearsal, where the new information is related to the knowledge that already exists. This strongly engages the prefrontal cortex, an area involved in comprehension and planning, along with association cortices that integrate sensory information from multiple regions. Every time you teach something or explain it, you are retrieving information and reorganizing it in your own words. This practice not only reinstates the neural circuits transporting the information but also allows neuroplasticity to be reinforced through reshaping and strengthening synapses participating in this retrieval process, hence making that memory more accessible later. Teaching arouses the dorsolateral prefrontal cortex and, in turn, enhances both comprehension and memory encoding.

Mnemonics, Rhymes, and the Temporal Lobes: Mnemonics, especially those with a rhyme or rhythm, enlist auditory processing centers in the temporal lobes. The auditory cortex of the brain is highly tuned for patterns in sound; for this reason rhythm and rhyme are memorable. Angular gyrus and superior temporal gyrus, both implicated in language processing, are activated when mnemonics are used to encode information as sequences or patterns. The repetition within mnemonics and rhymes strengthens sequential memory by evoking the ability with which the brain is particularly adept: remembering information in order. This systematic encoding, thus, has the potential to support the linkage of abstract information with identifiable auditory patterns and enhance recall. Moreover, the cingulate gyrus, involved in the distribution of attention, could further enhance this by focusing and encoding these rhythmic patterns as memories of items.

Diet, Neurotransmitters, and Brain Health: Nutrition can have a variety of impacts on memory and cognition, from neurotransmitters to structure. Some nutrients are precursors to neurotransmitters studied as influencing cognition. Acetylcholine is a neurotransmitter associated with learning and memory and whose synthesis depends on choline intake. Food containing high amounts of choline, such as egg and fish, should provide an adequate supply for the synthesis of acetylcholine in the basal forebrain. Omega-3 fatty acids are considered essential for neuronal membrane health and ensure that signals between neurons are well transmitted. Antioxidants from fruits and vegetables reduce oxidative stress in the brain, which protects against cognitive decline and promotes neuroplasticity. Adequate nutrition maintains neurotransmitter function & structural integrity in memory regions such as the hippocampus and prefrontal cortex, promoting overall cognitive resilience and facilitating higher memory capacity.

Source: Memory Hacks: Neuroscience Behind Efficient Memory Techniques

John and Arthur’s Established Dynamics With Dutch And How This Impacts Redemption: An Analysis

What makes Dutch Van Der Linde such a compelling antagonist is his extreme narcissism, both covert and apparent. Red Dead Redemption 2 is particularly keen on showcasing this, as players get to experience Dutch’s charisma and mental decline through the eyes of Arthur Morgan, who loves Dutch dearly. On the contrary, Red Dead Redemption 1 displays John Marston grappling with the order to eradicate his former gang members, including Dutch. Through John’s perspective, players get to understand the complexities that come with having to confront a path that has both benefited and destroyed you. Yet, both protagonists serve the same purpose: the complex relationship one may have with a narcissistic “parent” figure. While both John and Arthur appear to have conflicting personalities with one another, they find a common understanding with one another through their sibling-like bond that has arisen from both being raised by Dutch.

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Arthur was only fourteen when he was taken in by Dutch. After a childhood filled with death, brutality, abuse, and homelessness, Dutch was able to swoop in, take Arthur off the streets, and give him a sense of security. This meant everything to Arthur, and with Dutch, Arthur was able to finally have a stable, present, and attentive father figure in his life. However, what Arthur consistently struggled to pick up on was Dutch’s true intentions, which were not as loving and fatherly as Dutch wanted them to seem. By recognizing Arthur’s underlying anger and need for validation, Dutch was able to condition Arthur into being the perfect bodyguard: violent, strong, and eager to do the job right.

Arthur is heavily reliant on Dutch to the point that he sacrifices self-autonomy for Dutch’s sake. The storyline with Mary Linton is a prime example of this. In actuality, Arthur could have chosen to protect himself and run away with his former lover, but Arthur’s entire life has been centered around Dutch’s gang. When Mary says that there is a good man inside of him wrestling with a “giant,” there is a reason why she does not claim that this “giant” is evil or inherently bad; it is only larger than Arthur is. This internal struggle centered around remaining loyal to himself or to the people he calls his family is central to Arthur’s redemption arc, especially through the use of the honor system. Both low and high honor result from a series of cations that allow Arthur to redeem himself, but high honor means that Arthur’s time concludes with the acceptance that he was able to fight for what felt true to himself, while low honor is Arthur getting killed fighting against the very thing that caused the gang’s destruction.

Either way, Arthur redeems himself by fully embracing the notion that Dutch is a flawed and selfish individual who has proven his own safety to appear more vital than protecting the gang as a whole. Yet, it takes the duration of Red Dead Redemption 2 for this truth to be fully embraced by Arthur, who continues to base his actions and existence around pleasing Dutch. Getting called “son” or “my boy” by the man Arthur has been conditioned to rely on is what pushes Arthur to continuously combat his own moral code. Additionally, Arthur cannot fathom the idea of being disappointing to Dutch in any sort of way, even if it causes him to abandon his own sense of right or wrong. By beating up Thomas Downes despite feeling wrong about it, Arthur contracts tuberculosis and is forced to run on dwindling time as a result of his vile actions. Yet, this extreme realization that self-betrayal is equally as harmful as rejecting the expectations of somebody you love is what ultimately catalyzes Arthur’s journey of change.

Arthur’s conflict with John also tells a lot about Arthur's life and for other people. When John turns his back on both Abigail and the gang as a whole, Arthur struggles to find the reason for this. Rather than recognizing the deep-rooted fear and self-doubt that John has been facing, especially when it comes to continuing to live for the gang, Arthur berates John because John is doing something Arthur himself has done and regretted: making the wrong choice when it comes to standing by a loved one. While Arthur chose to “love” the gang more than Mary and then had to endure the consequences for such a choice, John, who is both terrified of disappointing Abigail and conflicted about his changing perspective on the gang, is choosing to avoid both entirely and run away for an entire year. Upon John’s return, Arthur is furious that the gang, especially Dutch, is willing to welcome John back with open arms. This makes Arthur resent John for the choices John has made, but at the same time, have a deep-rooted jealousy over the fact that Dutch treated John well for being disloyal, while the expectation from Arthur is that he will never act in such a way, and thus, Arthur feels John is receiving blind loyalty from Dutch. However, Arthur is misunderstanding a much more complicated relationship dynamic.

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Like Arthur, John also has an underlying incapability of living apart from the gang. Despite his issues with Dutch, John will always have a complicated sense of reliance on Dutch whilst resenting the life John believes was given to him. However, while Arthur falls into the role of being Dutch’s “golden child,” being Dutch’s trusted right-hand man and gang enforcer, John gets a much more complicated role. John is Dutch’s scapegoat child who is heavily criticized and berated no matter how hard he may try to prove himself worthy; however, if John tries to reject Dutch following this treatment, Dutch knows how to masterfully reel John back in. For example, even though Dutch welcomed John back into the gang, it is something that gets used against John in his weaker moments for his guilt to corrupt him into obeying Dutch. Additionally, Dutch making John say “yes, Dutch” out loud is a way to force John into a position of submission and lower status in the instances where he dares to challenge Dutch. John tends to be much more direct when it comes to critiquing Dutch as opposed to Arthur’s display, which comes across as concerned rather than combative. Thus, John and Dutch kind of have this established dynamic where John acts as a defiant child whom Dutch must remind to be loyal and obedient, consistently forcing John to align with an outlaw lifestyle that he is contemplating the morality of.

John is more independent than Arthur in the sense that he is deciding who he wishes to be dependent on. Throughout both stories, it is evident that John resents authority figures, and this is where his childishness shines through. While Arthur will respect authority if Dutch tells him to or if Arthur feels that person is worthy of respect, while John is much more weary and combative from the start. This is simply part of his nature, and Dutch understands and fuels this so that John can serve him. However, Abigail offers a stark comparison to Dutch. While Dutch ultimately demands blind obedience, Abigail demands change in John because she wants John to be less afraid of himself. Abigail understands John’s internal struggle with power, loyalty, and abuse cycles, and she directly combats it. She is somebody who challenges John to do better, which is something he has lacked his entire life. In a world where he is expected to serve for the sake of others, Abigail pushes him to serve himself, which will ultimately allow John to serve her, too.

It could be argued that John’s sense of “redemption” is vastly different from Arthur’s. The very fact that John ran away for a year following Jack’s birth is very telling of the internal conflict eating him alive; John knows he cannot exist on his own, and he must now decide who to be loyal to. While in his heart, he wants to dedicate his life to Abigail and Jack, John does not know how to live a life independently from the world he was brought up in. John wants to be a good dad but never had a good father himself, and John wants to leave the gang, but this would isolate him from both Abigail and the only community he knows. This endless feeling of servitude is something John understands he cannot escape. In Red Dead Redemption 1, this sense of being used by others is crushing John, especially because the United States government has kidnapped John’s family and will only release them if John vows to kill former members of the now-disbanded gang. John wants to protect his family more than anything, but he still struggles with obliterating people from his past who once meant everything to him. As a result, John’s avoidance is displayed through his acceptance of impending death. Throughout both games, John acts in reckless, death-seeking manners, putting himself in high-risk situations where death is a possible reality, such as straight up walking to Bill Williamson, essentially setting himself up to be shot. Yet, to John, being rescued from death serves him as a sign that his purpose on this Earth has not yet been completed, and there is more work to be done for those he loves before death can finally greet him. Ultimately, this shapes John’s redemption arc; John has to keep pushing forward so that he does not die at the hands of the gang and, instead, can conclude his life protecting the people at the core of his heart, which is why his death at the hands of the government following John’s completion of taking down his former gang members is both tragic and beautiful.

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One other major element of Dutch’s manipulation is how he treats John and Arthur like they are too dumb to understand nuanced topics. Yet, this is far from the truth. While John and Arthur are not the most well-read or academically savvy, the two display a deep level of thoughtfulness and insight about the world around them. John is hyper-aware of both himself and the world around him, and he is even one of the first people who recognized something deeply troubling about Dutch’s increasingly erratic behavior. This allows John to read people and situations based on intention rather than bias or false judgment. Even in Mexico, when John is being manipulated by multiple people, he understands that the people he is involving himself with are untrustworthy, but since he has no other options, he must wearily follow through with the situations he gets put into. While John often appears highly pessimistic, this is just a portrayal of his awareness of the harsh realities of the world he exists in, and there are just menial means for him to express this. Even if he did, Dutch would likely berate him until John regretted speaking up in the first place. On the contrary, Arthur appears to be more sheltered than John is, likely because Arthur grew up knowing fewer people and crimes. Yet, Arthur has a much more artistic soul than he lets others see, taking a lot of time to analyze and sketch what he encounters in this world that he finds interesting. His journal displays introspective writing that highlights the faults of both himself and the world around him that he prefers to pretend do not exist, and Arthur gets along very well with people who are atypical thinkers or live alternative, authentic lifestyles. Yet, because neither John nor Arthur read philosophy or desire “high-society,” Dutch demeans the two into believing they are unintelligent and incapable of complexity. Thus, if either one questions what Dutch is doing, he knows that he has the power to make John and Arthur believe that they are too stupid to do so. Yet, John is much more combative to this perspective than Arthur is, and John frequently makes comments to Dutch that question his decisions. In these moments, Dutch feels the most challenged and resorts to harsh insults that directly call out a personal struggle either John or Arthur have, reestablishing that they must remain loyal to Dutch because otherwise they are “worthless.”

Red Dead Redemption is beautiful in many ways. The intricate world design, multitude of storylines, and raw portrayal of complex realities make for a story that is compelling, relatable, and thought-provoking. Yet, one aspect that I think sets the Red Dead Redemption franchise apart from other stories is its hopeful and honest representation of the struggle to find a meaningful conclusion for a life filled with violence, abuse, and uncertainty. Neither John nor Arthur displays a sense of dreading their mortality. Instead, death in Red Dead Redemption serves as a reminder that the future is never promised, so it is important to make the most of the present because what is happening now is the only inherent truth of life. For a multitude of years, Dutch prevented the acceptance of such a reality for John and Arthur, and Dutch sold the false truth that he is the only truth in either man’s life, and as their “God” and “father,” both must worship him above all else. Yet, as fate closes in more and more on both John and Arthur, the realization that Dutch is dangerous not only gets embraced, but it allows for the opportunity to spend the time both have left doing what feels right rather than remaining with what is familiar. While the past can never be altered and the reality of death cannot be evaded, there is a sense of power in the realization that life cannot be foreseen or controlled, and thus, one must live each day remaining loyal to oneself. You are the only thing guaranteed to be both born and ended with you, so why betray the very being that allows you to exist at all?

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i finished the game

don't think i ever posted this kim anywhere? i might have on instagram but i can't recall. this is based on his main portrait of course :D

Locust City - An Elysium Story

To those of you who follow this blog, i literally use it to get pictures onto my phone for tiktok videos so they are just my notes but here's where I got everything from, great watch.

ok the notes.

hello!!! your art is gorgeous, could i just ask what brush(es?) you use? sorry if someone's asked this before💔💔

genuinely sorry i didn’t see this, i have few messages in inbox that i didn’t get any notifications for.

I almost only use the procreate brushes from here! The sketches i do i usually use the edge brushes, i also added color jitter for some brushes from the procreate pack

the link is to gumroad, the brushpack is free. If you use photoshop, or interested in the complete brush packs, theyre listed here

This is not like a fully completed thought but yk

So I've done my first aid + CPR a few times. And every single time I try and bring up scenarios for fat folks

Specifically like 'what if someone is too large for me to wrap my arms around then to do the heimleich'

And its incredibly rare I get a decent answer.

How absolutely insane is it that me, as a fat person, is asking how to have MY life saved or to save ANOTHER life, is an impossible feat if someone is fat.

Most of the time they tell me to 'just try anyways uwu'

There has got to be a better option.

Fuck i just realised how much funnier it would be if in swap au it would STILL be harry who loses his memory. A sweet guy and a genius, but clueless, so he has to be lead around by a toal disaster of a man. Fuck. I might have to redraw the idea for the comic from the beginning. B'D