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Here’s my metaphor for systemhood that I tell my singlet friends.

Imagine you’re playing a first person video game. You have the controller, you control your character. It’s a normal first person game. You are an alter, the character is the body. This is fronting.

Other people live with you. Sometimes, they come into the room and sit and watch while you play. They sometimes try to guide you, give you advice on what to do next. They don’t always agree, and they can argue with each other. Other times they scream at you that you’re doing everything wrong and you suck at this game. This is co-consciousness.

Imagine how distracting it would be for people around you to tell you what to do, or to scream at each other or at you, even if they have good intentions. It wouldn’t be easy to focus on your game, would it?

Then sometimes, something happens in the game that prompts you to hand off the controller to someone else so they can play and you get a break. This is (some types of) switching. This can be good.

Other times, someone rips the controller out of your hand or fights you for it. This is (other types of) switching. And sometimes, six other players hook up their controllers, but there’s only one character to play as. So all of you have your controllers, but you’re all trying to play the same character. This is cofronting.

Imagine how difficult that would be. Imagine how hard it would be to try and play a game while someone is trying to take the controller from you, or while six other people are trying to play too.

There are also times that nobody is playing, or you can’t decide who should play. What’s happening to the character in the game? What are they doing if no one is playing? This is dissociation. The character is doing nothing. They’re stuck.

This is the best metaphor I have come up with for being a system. It’s something a lot of people get because they’ve played games before.

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Is there a way to put screenshots underwater when you're in desktop. I don't use the app but I want to feel part of something

People underestimate how much it fucks you up to be subtly excluded as a kid. I would try to talk to my classmates and be met with disinterest or annoyance. The one friend I had, who I clung to and nodded along to his every word, had other friends he liked just as much or more. And his other friends didn’t care for me at all.

I look back at pictures from the time and see how separated I was from them. I remember knowing I was different. I remember posing questions about the world to the girls playing next to me and realizing that they had never asked the same ones to themselves. That the ways we thought couldn’t be more different.

I kept myself amused with my own fanatical stories and musings in my head. I would wander the playground on a circular path, imagining a friend and being sorely disappointed when it didn’t feel as real as I’d hoped.

There was a bubble separating me from everyone else, thin, and nearly invisible, but with a pearly sheen you could catch under the right conditions. I knew it was there, they knew it was there, and it changed me

i think one of the most offensive questions out of ones that i get asked often is "why don't you just leave ukraine"

First controversial post in a while but people need to realize a therapist is not going to challenge you on your reality directly. Because that can be insanely harmful. If you walk in going "I'm a system without trauma" they wont tell you no. Or that you are wrong. Because directly challenging someone's world view is not how you gain a clients trust nor does it help recovery. OF COURSE THE THERAPIST ONLINE ISN'T GOING TO GO "endos aren't real" because that could push people who need help away from help. A therapist is going to say "I'm not going to rebuttal anyone's lived experience" because to you. You are a system without trauma. No matter how factual that is. That is the way you see your brain.

Which is why I want people to get help. If you believe you are a system if you end up being one or not YOU NEED THERAPY. No if ands or buts.

I don't think you are a system without trauma. And I think endo logic is inherently harmful. But you and your struggles are real. Because that's how you perceive the world. And I want you to get help.

Hey, I just want to say that recently we've been engaging with people who go against one of our core beliefs without knowing and we're sorry to any of our followers who had seen this and knew. Won't name any names and also won't start petty user discourse.

Just know that this blog aims to be a safe space for those with personality disorders, psychosis, schizophrenia, and delusions while also maintaining being CDD and physical disability centric.

While we are anti-endo, we do not support the usage of words such as "psychotic" and "delusional" to describe endos and their supporters. There are much better, less insulting and less sanist adjectives.

If in the future we're reblogging from blogs who have a history of being ableist, sanist, etc, PLEASE do not be scared to inform us. Chances are we just don't know because we try to steer clear of user discourse. We do not want to give people like this a platform on our blog.

my dad, trying to explain the concept of money to me: say you have a sandwich, and i need your sandwich. but i don't have anything to give you. you're not just gonna give it to me.

me: i would just give it to you.

my dad:

to be honest, i would consider it to be very disrespectful and toxic of him. Willingly, knowingly dating a system and expecting them to perform a singlet role because apparently he doesn't give half a damn about other system members (that, mind you, help the system live and function) is straight up garbage. Consider confronting him about it, because subjecting yourself to, as you put it, straight up torture for the sake of his comfort is not something that should be done in a loving relationship

I (host of a p-did system) am in a relationship with my singlet bf. Some of my more active alters have been wanting to front more, or atleast co-front, but my bf wants to spend all day talking to me and me only. He’s not interested at all in even meeting my headmates. I’ve been fronting for over a week now and it feels like torture and I really just don’t wanna front ishdbsnakkeksz

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Doctor calls you with your bloodwork results and just says “I’m really mad at you” and then hangs up

"Do you ever dream of land?" The whale asks the tuna.

"No." Says the tuna, "Do you?"

"I have never seen it." Says the whale, "but deep in my body, I remember it."

"Why do you care," says the tuna, "if you will never see it."

"There are bones in my body built to walk through the forests and the mountains." Says the whale.

"They will disappear." Says the tuna, "one day, your body will forget the forests and the mountains."

"Maybe I don't want to forget," Says the whale, "The forests were once my home."

"I have seen the forests." Whispers the salmon, almost to itself.

"Tell me what you have seen," says the whale.

"The forests spawned me." Says the salmon. "They sent me to the ocean to grow. When I am fat with the bounty of the ocean, I will bring it home."

"Why would the forests seek the bounty of the oceans?" Asks the whale. "They have bounty of their own."

"You forget," says the salmon, "That the oceans were once their home."