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Just got off the phone with legal aid and rehashing the trauma again. That was a very long conversation. Attempting to keep my head high and not get overwhelmed by everything. I am lucky enough to finish this day out with a dental appointment and moving things out of my storage unit. Lawyers, and dentists, and moving, oh my!

“sometimes its fun to just sit”

Shoutout to the people who:

-have symptoms that aren’t visible to others

-are able to function even while in extreme pain

-hide their illness well

-who don’t “seem sick”

-who have flareups at night or other times when no one else sees

-fight a daily battle that others can’t see

-feel like they’re making too big of a deal out of their illness because “it could be worse!”

I see you out there, I feel you, you’re awesome.

For those with anxiety.

This resonates with me. My brother is disabled and under the purview of MHMR, and I'm well on my way since my psychotic break. We're both POC and I'm gay. I also look Muslim, even though I'm not, but most of this country can't tell the difference between brown people making my visage all the more dangerous to have. I've also been sexually assaulted.

My PTSD says to be terrified. My paranoid schizophrenia is already pretty terrified. My depression is shutting me down. My anxiety will not abate, and has been a constant companion since the debates. Being in public is terrifying. As terrifying as it was to be in Kuwait in 2007, and introduced to Iraqis as American, during the war. (The only time I'm considered American is oversees, go figure.)

I consider myself Texan, born and raised, but I'm never considered a fully fledged person because some facet of my personality is constantly being denied rights, equal treatment, or under threat of those rights being revoked. When these benefits will be taken away, I'll not only lose any security left, but I'll also be viewed as less than a fully formed person because my rights will be nonexistent and the rights I still have will be misapplied and overlooked for not fitting in to any group. And don't get me started on being ignored and mistreated by other minority groups for not fitting in with them.

Please stop excluding disabled people in your posts about minorities who are being affected by the election results. Disabled people in the US are being affected too and we matter.

someone: so what is your biggest fear?

me, thinking about those times when you’re sat at a window seat on the bus and a stranger sits beside you trapping you there and your stop is coming up but you’re on a seat that isn’t near a stop button so you’re going to have to communicate with this stranger to move while the bus is still in motion and navigate to a stop button in time without falling but you’re bad at socialization and maintaining your balance: heights