Latest Posts by t0tally-n0t-lou - Page 7

I think you should know that I'm a neutral with a proship lean. Most ppl are by default, honestly. Your pinned says you block them, so...(which I'm honestly not sure why you would, considering you're into more problematic things than myself and some self-proclaimed proshippers). 🤷🏽‍♀️

i’m not trying to say neutralshippers/proshippers are bad people, it just personally makes me uncomfortable and makes me feel anxious. as long as you don’t talk to me about proshipping i’m fine, so i’m going to go change that part of my intro post. you’re fine as long as you don’t talk to me about proshipping and you’re a neutral and don’t paint it in a good light, you’re fine. i just don’t think pedophilia or s/a should be romanticized or put in a good light, but i won’t come after anyone. i am also a minor and want that stuff as far away from me as possible. i don’t support/condone jimmy urine’s or lyn-z’s actions i also don’t support the actions of anyone problematic who’s music i listen to. i don’t support/condone cannibalism or what meatcore is literally and i thought that was obvious. if you don’t like me, you can just block me.

i ship soukoku in the most queerplatonic, codependent, doomed yaoi way. there is no such thing as soukoku fluff to me.

:D

it physically pains me how many cool ppl I see online (especially ppl who end up following me) that I want to be friends w but can't get the courage to talk to, so to everyone who follows me (esp ppl who like bsd) you are so cool, thanks for liking my stuff!!

you’re really cool, of course vro. :3 your art scratches the itch in my brain.

it physically pains me how many cool ppl I see online (especially ppl who end up following me) that I want to be friends w but can't get the courage to talk to, so to everyone who follows me (esp ppl who like bsd) you are so cool, thanks for liking my stuff!!

a little fanfic piece i decided to write because i don’t actually feel like ranting about how akutagawa isn’t obsessed with/in love with dazai and that it’s just a cry for help and approval. this is just me trying to imagine the scene where akutagawa decided that his goal was trying to get dazai’s approval.

“Does it hurt, Akutagawa?” Dazai said in a cold hiss. 

There was an angry look in his eyes as there usually was after every minuscule mistake made, but there was something else to it. Something more crazed, more feral. Like a rabid animal inflicting its own suffering onto anything it could sink its teeth into. He was holding the younger man by the collar, keeping him from collapsing onto the ground.

“You’re pathetic. You have no clue what real pain is. You’re a failure. You’ll never be good enough for the Port Mafia.” Dazai hissed through gritted teeth. They were words Akutagawa had heard before, but they never failed to make him feel like an ant being slowly burned to death by a kid holding a magnifying glass. That’s what Dazai truly was. A kid. It was easy to forget with his imposing demeanor and annoying pedantic genius. 

Akutagawa found himself unable to speak. His thoughts were swirling and shaky. It was probably the blood loss getting to him. All he could think about was how much he wanted to hear four little words from Dazai: “I’m proud of you.” 

That was it. That was what he wanted more than life. He wanted the person that made him feel like nothing make him feel like something. Was that insane? Probably. 

Dazai threw him down onto his back again. It hurt, it really did, but he had to keep going. He got to his feet shakily. There was a determined look in his eyes as he did.

i’m rereading some of the earlier bsd chapters and i really miss when it felt like a silly little dark humour sitcom revolving around the ADA and the PM. i realize that it’s not going to be like this forever and that asigiri is just building tension for the fight with fyodor, but i really want some of the silliness back.

thank you @always-emo for the tag!! :3

Last song: weird girl by mommy long legs

Fav color: red

Last book: the idiot by dostoyevsky

Last movie: heathers

Last TV show: brooklyn 99

Sweet/savory/spicy: sweet and savory

Relationship status: single :(

Last thing I googled: how many calories are in a human baby. (don’t ask)

Looking forward to: getting a suit

Current obsession: bsd, msi, will wood, r1999

i already know most of these people but errrrrr. i know it’s not 10, shut up @x6v1er @starreskies @crumbledtoast @kallonwaibel13 @noodle-bro @bubbles077

is it just me or is 15 skk just way better than 22 skk? this may be the stupid brain cell talking.

thanks for the tag!! :D

these fit my aesthetic to be honest :p

@kallonwaibel13 @noodle-bro @starreskies @x6v1er @ anyone else who wants to join

𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑟𝑢𝑙𝑒𝑠 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑠𝑖𝑚𝑝𝑙𝑒: 𝑔𝑜 𝑡𝑜 𝑝𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑡, 𝑠𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑐ℎ "𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑛𝑎𝑚𝑒 + 𝑐𝑜𝑟𝑒," 𝑝𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑠𝑖𝑥 𝑝𝑖𝑐𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑒𝑠. 𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑡𝑎𝑔 𝑠𝑖𝑥 𝑝𝑒𝑜𝑝𝑙𝑒.

thanks @ghosts-and-blue-sweaters and @cbuttonduo for the tag!! <3

wow i’m obsessed with this and i feel it’s fairly accurate!!

tags (no pressure): @thewildballyntynesgrow @bronzetomatoes @cloverstellar @clingyduoapologist @seeking-elsewhither @thoughts-of-caly

bsd spoilers!!

do you guys think poe and mushitarou are still in contact with what’s going on with the agency or are they just gonna be like ‘hey guys what’s going o- OH SHIT, THEY’RE ALL DEAD’

finished with fyodor, still gotta draw dazai. sigh.

wait, wait hear me out

souheki with poe as a third wheel who’s kinda into ranpo. when the three of them are together it’s kinda like:

poe: so, uh…

ranpo, already anticipating the kind of thing he’s going to say: poe, my partner’s literally 10 feet away.

poe: ok…

and then he’s just completely miserable around the two of them. and then ranpo will ask poe to drive him and dazai places and it’s just really awkward.

i’m scared guys. skk is growing on me. 😭 so errrrr, i guess i’m a skk shipper now.

a redraw of art from february 2024 because i’m procrastinating :D

cicada days fucks me up so much. i just can’t. 😭

bsd spoilers!!

if you’re having a bad day, just remember ranpo’s found father died. he’s probably having a worse one.

wip i’m probably never finishing.

i appreciate both short hair and long hair femzai, but i feel like she’d have a shoulder length mullet or something. i’m saying this as someone who had a mullet at one point in time 😭.

i hate when people characterize atsushi as an uwu soft boy. he is a sarcastic asshole towards akutagawa and dazai in the manga and i love that about him, silly little guy. ‘what are you, a lawnmower???’ -atsushi nakajima.

random ranpo drawing. can you tell this is low effort and an excuse to try a new brush?

vent art of dazai again because i fucking hate him and want him to be as miserable as I am.

the lyrics at the top are from mr. capgras encounters a second hand verity by will wood and the tapeworms.

‘sskk this!’ ‘atsulucy that!’ ‘akulucy this!’ okay, but what about atsuakulucy? poly ships solve all problems. instead of fighting, we just kiss.

I'm in a mood.. to draw Teruko. Would U like to be tagged after I finish it? Or just ignore?

Had to ask you about this bc ur the number one teruko defender, ofc 🙏🙏

yes! tag me in it of course. ^^

fifty posts! with fifty posts, i am now going to do an ask me anything. if you have any questions for me i’m willing to answer them. :) rules: no nsfw because i’m a minor, no questions about what would be considered personal information.

some older digital art. i made fyo look a little too feral. i don’t post my digital art enough. :3

season three spoilers:

my face after i stabby stab a mafia boss then run away.

five. i just want to retreat into my fuckass hat and ignore everything going on around me. :)

on a scale of chuuya and his fuck ass hat how are we feeling today gang

evening wear is so good omg.

here’s the finished teruko drawing! the lighting’s shitty, i’m sorry.

edit: i just realized this was my first drawing of 2025! happy new year!

it’s a wip and i’m already suffering 😭

if any of you wanna see my old shitty art i don’t have saved here’s my other blog which i haven’t posted actual content on in 7 months.

@idkilikestuff it’s all really bad. don’t judge me.