A Girl Puts A Knife To Your Throat And Your Immediate Instinct Is To Kiss Her. Melissa, You Relatable

Kim Addonizio, “The Singing”, Tell Me

Goldfinch on Donna Tartt's The Goldfinch

i wish romance was real and not just displaced longing for what was missing in the past

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Your phone is why you don't feel sexy

Eros, desire, instinct, eternity

Eros—carnal desire—is an embodied experience, and our phones do a terrific job of getting us out of our bodies and into our heads. In the digital age, we often neglect our bodies entirely, and use them merely as a way to transport our heads to meetings. (The rise of rave culture and physical fitness programs since the 1990s is perhaps evidence that we feel the need to fight against this.) No one feels connected, present, alive, embodied, or sexy when they’re on their phone all day.

And our phones don’t just move us out of our bodies, but they have become something of a second brain, a second body. You don’t have to remember something if you can record it, photograph it, or type it into your notes app. You don’t have to look good in person if you look good on Instagram. Our phones not only hollow out our true selves, but are starting to replace us.

I need to interact with something about The Goldfinch once an hour while I’m around my family for the next 3 days or I will lose my mind I fear

Joan Didion, The Year of Magical Thinking

theres not much i can do but i can carry the umbrella. theres not much i can do but i can listen. theres not much i can do but i can steal you a bag of chips, some cough syrup when youre sick. theres not much i can do but i can put on some music. theres not much i can do but i can teach you a few phrases. theres not much i can do but i can put this dog on your chest and remind you that youre here and not there. theres not much i can do but i can hold you. theres not much i can do but i can kiss you goodbye. theres not much i can do but we can drive around for a while. theres not much i can do but i can walk back into your life after years and years apart and solve the biggest problem in your life

ANSEL ELGORT AS THEO DECKER IN THE GOLDFINCH (2019)

Nothing combats depression like The Goldfinch and Chappell Roan.

oh boy i wish someone would notice my cries for help! [someone actually notices] noooo i'm fine don't worry about me