don’t talk to ME about gay yearning. in 2020 during lockdown i lived alone on a boat for three months. i went ashore once a day to work in a marine bio lab. we all had to access the lab at different times so we were never together & risking infection. i was alone all day every day, from my boat to the lab and back to my boat. one day a woman anchored her boat beside mine. we passed each other ashore just once at the harbor and she hit on me and invited me back to her boat. i told her i’d love nothing more but i could not risk exposure because of my weak immune system. she said it was a shame but that she understood. that night i was watering my vegetable garden i grew in 5 gallon buckets up on my roof and playing music on my speaker. “american pie” came on and she climbed up on her roof and shouted all the lyrics to every verse at me across the water and we danced together on our respective roofs. she raised anchor and moved on a few days later.
so yeah i know what it is to die a thousand deaths in an instant while your heart beats on.
You were never Broken
what’s it called when you’re so disconnected from reality that cold water doesn’t feel like anything and you can barely taste food anymore
(crawls on all fours with blood drenched on me) I have to do arts and crafts
"if i was orpheus i simply wouldn't have turned around" if you didn't love her enough to turn around, you didn't love her enough to crawl through the underworld to save her. if you could prevent yourself from looking back, you wouldn't be trying to bring her back to life. if you were able to look forward, you would be grieving.
"if I was orpheus I simply wouldn't have turned around" if you don't love her enough to turn around, you aren't orpheus.
A Glorious Evolution.
THE SEXY SONG‼️ I died, went to heaven and was brought back to life by this performance, they actually throwed it back for me personally🫶
"I love you , I'm glad we're friends"