Give Me A Show With Disabled Queer Representation. And I Don't Just Mean Amputee That Is Not Affected

Stop Making Psychosis A Villainous Trait Challenge

Gotta love when your manager, who knows you have medical-emergency migraines when exposed to loud, high-pitched noises, forced you to be constantly exposed to loud, high-pitched noises.

And then I'm just there in back drive lowkey freaking out because I can barely see, I'm confused, disoriented, struggling with motor control, and I can barely speak, all of which are signs that I need to be in the emergency room, wondering if it's just a migraine or if I'm finally having a stroke or something, freaking myself out, but I'm too scared of her to ask to leave so I just have to stay back there worried I might be dying.

Fun times (sarcasm)

"i'm using delusional in the right context, it's not like it's that serious"

DELUSIONAL DISORDER + SCHIZO SPECTRUM DISORDERS + TBI + MANY OTHERS

"calling someone a narcissist isn't ableist it's not a disability"

NARCISSISTIC PERSONALITY DISORDER

"sociopath/psychopath are just adjectives it's not like I'm hurting anyone"

ANTISOCIAL PERSONALITY DISORDER

"saying i'm ocd doesn't affect you it's just the way i act"

MOTHERFUCKING OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE DISORDER

OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE PERSONALITY DISORDER

"i'm schizoposting lol it's just a joke"

SCHIZOPHRENIA

SCHIZOID PERSONALITY DISORDER

SCHIZOAFFECTIVE DISORDER

SCHIZOTYPAL PERSONALITY DISORDER

it's never just a joke, it's never an adjective. use a fucking thesaurus

I see a lot of posts about how shitty it is to film disabled people in public and to make jokes when someone is having a medical emergency, and while in general I absolutely agree, there is a degree of nuance.

I have seizures, (most likely psychogenic/nonepileptic, I'm still going to be working with a neurologist to confirm my brain is intact though) and sometimes my friend @corypaws films them so that I can show my doctor. They have expressed guilt about doing this, but here's the thing: not only did I consent to this, it was my idea.

I had a seizure yesterday, and another friend, @thosegoodbois , made a joke about Caesar salad during it. They also felt guilty about this, but it was still incredibly helpful for me. On certain rare occasions, I'm fully conscious and aware for seizures. This was one of those times, so I heard everything. The people around me staying calm helped me stay calm too.

If a disabled person outright asks you to film them, you should really consider doing it. If a disabled person asks you to stay calm during a medical situation, you should at least try. Videos can be a very helpful diagnostic tool, and help make sure we are believed by doctors*. Freaking out when we have a medical problem might cause us to freak out too.

So basically I agree that in general filming disabled people and making jokes during medical emergencies is bad, but it's fine if you have consent.

Remember: disabled people are not a hive mind. At the end of the day, it should come down to what the individual wants.

*you probably shouldn't post it online though

being a kleptomaniac and having morality ocd is a special circle of hell <3

Hi

Welcome to my blog. I'm Raven, he/him, and this blog is mostly about migraines, usually acute confusional migraines, and my experience with them. You will also find posts about migraine triggers, photosensitivity, and epilepsy. I will not most anything that flashes, strobes, uses bright colours, or anything with audio. I'm trying to make my blog as accessible as possible. If the background and text are an issue for others (they aren't for me, but I'm only one person,) I can change them.

Feel free to ask me about ACM, migraines in general, or photosensitivity for any reason, and I'll answer to the best of my ability. Remember that I am only one person, and I do not speak for everyone. I can only speak to my experiences.

What is an ACM?

An acute confusional migraine (ACM,) is basically a migraine that comes with the added bonus of rapid-onset confusion and other worrying symptoms, such as

Changes in vision and other senses

Memory loss

Anxiety

Moodiness

Agitation

Dizziness

Issues speaking in the way you normally do

Disorientation

Motor control difficulties

Comprehension issues

Many of these symptoms in a migraine are a medical emergency and require immediate emergency medical care. These types of migraines are more common in children and teens, but they can also occur in adults.

What is my experience?

For me, an ACM is triggered by a medium-to-loud high-pitched noise. I'm rarely exposed to this trigger but when I am, it almost always causes an ACM if I can't stop the migraine before it properly starts. The confusion state starts shortly after the headache, usually in under ten minutes, and progressively gets worse until I begin to lose time and can't properly remember what happens. I've got entire shifts at work I can't remember due to an ACM. What I can remember is rapidly-increasing emotional distress (anger, anxiety, irritation, etc,) difficulties with comprehension, disorientation, and my (admittedly already poor) speech skills and motor control abilities getting worse and worse.

ACM episodes usually happen at work for me, when I'm forcibly placed on one of the headsets (fast food,) which has a loud, sharp, high-pitched beep to alert me that there's a car in my lane. The constant exposure to the trigger makes the medications I take ineffective at preventing the migraine. I begin to mess up a lot, work far slower, struggle to communicate, and obviously struggle to do my job, which is handling money. Multiple managers have chosen spite and, despite my objections, put me on this lane. I've yet to find the nerve to put my foot down or ask to leave and go to the emergency room.

Don't be like me. If you have an ACM, unless instructed to do otherwise by a doctor, you should probably go to the ER or call an ambulance.

Gotta love it when our symptoms are a medical emergency, yeah?

Some of y'all be like "Oh yeah I support Cluster B" until they:

Have debilitating cognitive problems

Are depressed

Have emotions that aren't aesthetically pleasing

Don't know healthy coping mechanisms

Have a different view of social norms

Struggle with relationships

Do actions that for you are "obviously purposefully evil"

Explain the thought process behind their actions, not excuse them

Have trauma that just by existing doesn't invalidate yours but somehow that thought scares you

It's almost like you don't support Cluster B, hm.

I I think I mentioned this before but can't find the og post so I'm just gonna talk about it again.

I want people to understand that not all pyromaniacs are anarchists, not all anarchists are pyromaniacs and pyromania and anarchy do not go hand in hand.

I would much prefer if people would stop portraying every anarchist character as a pyromaniac esp cuz they're not actually doing acts of anarchy nor portraying pyromania properly. They're just burning shit and yelling "fuck (in-story mega corp here)"

That said, I am proud of actual pyromaniacs (and pyrophiles) who are anarchists. Because I too wish we could dismantle capitalism and shit.

Just please dont go around burning property and crap in the name of anarchy, regardless if you have pyromania or not, a crime is still a crime and there's enough parts of the world burning to the ground and purring people and general life in danger right now.

Pyromania and anarchy do not go hand in hand, do not make these your characters only/defining traits. Please.

Ones a movement/belief system, the other is a fucking condition.

Yesterday the 12th of May was Fibromyalgia awareness day. I'm a little late uploading it, but spreading awareness is being done nonetheless. Lots of love for my chronic pain people!! <3

just a reminder that if you yourself are not autistic, don’t use the actually autistic tag. i know it sounds like it goes without saying, and i see this more on instagram and tiktok than on here, but it bears repeating; this tag is for us to talk about our experiences and relate with one another without allistics speaking over us. we direct the conversation. it is not for allistics/neurotypicals to interject with their opinions on autism and autistic people or to discuss their autistic sibling/friend/whatever. these posts clog up the tag so that it no longer serves its intended function, pushing us out of our own curated spaces. leave the tag alone if it doesn’t concern you

if you do post about autism and need advice for your autistic friend/sib/etc or just want to understand better, just use the ‘autism’ tag, clarify that you are not autistic, and ask for help from autistic people. im sure someone on the spectrum will be more than happy to give you their pov because understanding and respect is all we really ask