Thesemidnightthoughtss - Midnight Thoughts

I can’t do this anymore. I hate myself so much, it’s suffocating me. It’s getting closer and closer to swallowing me and I just let it come.

“Don’t be a fool. Don’t give up something important to hold onto someone who can’t even say they love you.”

— Sarah Dessen, Someone Like You

I think it’s high time that I let you go. I’ve been hurting myself for too long by holding onto you.

I wish I could gather the courage to do it once and for all.

“My heart gets sad sometimes. I’m not really sure why. It just starts to ache and my body begins to feel hollow. My mind wanders. I hate feeling like this. I don’t want to. But I can’t help it. My heart just feels heavy.”

— You asked why I was so quiet

“I think hell is something you carry around with you. Not somewhere you go.”

— Neil Gaiman

I don’t want to hurt people with my death

Instead I hurt myself with my existence

Is there a word to describe “i’m trying my absolute fucking hardest and it’s not good enough”

I'm just so tired of this. my body is tired, my mind is a mess. I just really want to lay in bed and never get up. I'm just so tired of life.