19.4.23 // At The Library Today :) I Almost Finished My First Essay And Ive Just Two More To Go Before

i do not consume art btw it consumes me and its teeth are scary sharp

The Song "Mai koi aisa geet gaun" is the real definition of princess treatment....

Find those who love the moon ,

Because they know how to be quite and alone,

Because they know that being whole is a process,

Because they know things are beautiful even if they are in pieces,

Because they know that the brightest things have darker sides,

Because they know emptiness can hold the parts of you that no space in the world can,

Simply fall for the selenophiles.

Stars above Milford Sound (daniel_ernst)

Cold water

The chill of cold water,

Is like a shock to the soul

A sudden awakening,

That makes you feel whole

The icy hand of winter,

Grasping at your skin

A jolt to your core,

That invigorates within

Yet on a scorching day,

A sip of cool water divine

Quenches the thirst inside,

Brings refreshment so fine

Cold water can transform,

From a shiver to a thrill

A force of nature,

That we can't help but feel

So take the plunge,

In the raging rapids or the calm bay

Feel the rush of cold water,

And let it take your breath away.

•̩̩͙❅*̩̩͙‧͙♡*̩̩͙❆ ͙͛

–Yukita

6 Segments

Once in a while hyenas would laugh hysterically Outside your window when they heard you sob And I joined them standing on two legs

The sea that you filled with your tears Called up a tide to drown the sorrows That had choked you in your sleep

When the winter reached your throat It froze the tonsils that bothered none The work was done and we never spoke again

My coffee could never replace our caustic silence Hidden along with carnations in a diamond mine That you blew up with some homemade dynamite

You promised I could kiss you on the cheek If I gave you my best kept evil lavender secret Without trading I left with the East India company

When the cop approached you with a revolver You raised your white flag arms like a ship About to go down to the ocean floor forsaken

Affirmations bc i'm disabled & struggle with internalized ableism:

I am doing good. My goals are mine, and I don't need to compare myself to other people.

I am inherently worthy as a human being, regardless of my productivity (or lack thereof).

I am allowed to rest, and it is okay that I need to rest almost 24/7 because of my disabilities. Rest is not a break to be earned; it's a need, and everyone's needs are different.

I am allowed to enjoy things simply because they make me happy. My joy is a human need, not something to be commodified.

I have so many strengths: thoughtfulness, compassion, gentleness, creativity, etc. These are the core of who I am.

I am loved and cared for. There are so many people like me across the world, and any time I feel lonely, there is another disabled person somewhere feeling the same. In the same vein, there are disabled activists who are fighting for us; being a voice for people who can't make their voice heard, or don't even know it's an option.

I am not alone <3 And neither is the person reading this. We are worthy, valued, and important. No ifs, ands, or buts.

When the sun makes an appearance 🫶

*gets absolutely nothing done* well time for a break