Hey Babe Sorry I Couldn’t Make It To Our Date Tonight I Thought About Jean Moreau Too Hard And Got

kevin PLEAASE IM A STAAAAR day

"So, if you are too tired to speak, sit next to me for I, too, am fluent in silence."

– R. Arnold

"I'm a master of speaking silently—all my life I've spoken silently and I've lived through entire tragedies in silence."

– Fyodor Dostoyevsky

its me and four dead gay wizards against the world

*sigh* Kevin Day *smashes my head into the wall*

I feel like Andrew Minyard is like a Telltale game character with a glitch, so this is just stuck on the screen

I need Jean to know his misplaced promise would do anything for him if he’d just gotten the chance to know him 

brat summer is over, let witch bitch autumn begin

i cannot stop thinking about the parallels between jean and neil. about how jean's story could have easily been neil's, had his mother not taken him and run. we see glimpses of jean's fire and, dare i say, attitude, with his povs during tsc, and how carefully he masks it all after years of abuse and torture. yes, neil is a fighter, but so is jean. when he was first sold to evermore, he pushed back time and time again until he was too tired to go on. if neil had been sold the way jean had, with nobody to save him, i think they would have ended up on the same path. they both mirrors of what could have been

quotes that have genuinely ruined my life

fwiw I do think that when Jean calls Neil his "broken promise" it's said with a not small amount of anger that Neil keeps proving himself up for the task.

If Nathaniel had shown up and he was just another brute, another sadist, another face uncaring of Jean's plight or too weak to fight for him, that would have been fine. He could have been dismissed as a dream that never could have been, and Jean would have had nobody to blame except his own optimism betraying him yet again.

But Neil rolls in like a thundercloud that never stops striking. He speaks French without without fear for who's listening. He's as capable of patching up Jean after a bad day as the reverse. He is willing, no, delights in standing up to Riko's cruelty, and in fact will do more for Jean's sake than Jean would ever imagine, much less dare ask.

But if Neil is real. If friendship and kindness is not yet another lie Jean told himself at night...then Jean's suffering is not some immutable law of the world. And if that's true, if his anger is real and right...he's not sure he has the strength to hold it all in.