Honestly Think The Whole Need To Make Cdiscduo Worse Was Weird As Hell. All The Weird Dynamics You Guys

tmmys visit to pandora gets me so horrifically bad as someone who was an unstable child forced to hold responsibility over my younger brother, i cannot even begin to try to figure out how to visualize the fucking terror in a way that makes sense.

(Gets kinda heavy so read with caution)

Whenever i get reminded of that scene all i can think about is being like 11 and crying so hard i threw up when he was being a menace and i couldn't stop thinking about how much i wanted to hurt him.

He would regularly mess with me to the point it triggered a panic attack. My fight or flight would go off so hard that i couldn't speak or recognize anything happening around me, it would often also make me really aggressive and ig he found that entertaining.

Guess it really messed with me cuz i still can't get angry without shutting down from fear/adrenaline, best way i can describe the feeling is to imagine being a wild rabbit that's been picked up and knowing you will die if you can't claw yourself out of the hands.

Hello tumblr friends have some undercooked food

It is 4am i have to get up at 6 i am so sleep deprived. Anyway hi lovelies some time no see, have this crappy drunz doodle i might or (more likely) might not turn into something actually decent later

(Pookie made me do it this is very un-serious <3)

text from my coworker

next we lear n that badboyhalo is secretly working for the mafia and has killed twelve innocent children and people will blame it on dream being too involved with the fbi

"you are one of gods strongest soldiers" i say, not even believing in either of those institutions

it's been quite difficult to do things lately, drawing included, but making this weird thing was pretty relaxing ^_^ it is a friend

How are you doing?

IM SO LATE TO ANSWER SORRYYYY

Honestly I'm not sure, having revelations and stuff. Feeling a bit poetic, or depressed tbh i can't tell the difference, but I'm surviving

Thank you for asking kind anon<3

This file is called "dream suffering lol lmao"

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