My Special Talent Is Assuming Our Friendship Is A Burden On You And You Dread Hearing From Me. So Then

My brother cracked my rib one morning and gave me half of his orange in the evening.

I remember being younger and sometimes wishing to be a single child, to have all the attention and gifts and time but when he was away from home for the first time, I remember crying and stroking his side of the sofa as if blurting out my first wish- for him to be home, without thinking twice, without a shadow of doubt. Even the genie cried. Growing up with a sibling is like being the only people on a stranded boat, constantly figuring out how you can live with them and questioning how you could ever live without them.

One evening, in a fit of anger, I told him how I never wanted him to be my brother and he yelled that he didn't ask for it either. The air smelled like kerosene and my chest was filled with arsenic. I was raging and threw his favorite toy aeroplane down the window, 7 stories of guilt and shame. He cried all night and I wanted to cut off my right hand, the hand that hurt my baby brother. I didn't know if he was ever going to forgive me or even talk to me. The next morning at breakfast, he didn't look at me or say a word, I felt like my chest was about to explode and guilt clouded my vision. But then, I felt a hand quietly holding half of an orange my way.

The only people on a stranded boat. How do you live with them? How could you ever live without them?

-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The world is a sphere of ice and our hands are made of fire

Edit: I added a visualizer for this on my YouTube channel. Check it out here

THE UNTAMED

a compilation of lan wangji looking at his wei ying

I just love how all the disciples start excitedly chirping ‘Hanguang-Jun’ every time Lan Wangji shows up like they’re a bunch of distressed baby birds and he’s their mama come to sweep them under his sleeves 

healthy relationships with people? we don’t know her

wangxian’s reunions (episodes 11, 20, 28, 32, 2)

I said it in the notes on the last post but I’m gonna say it again.

I’m married to someone with severe memory problems. Automation of household appliances & systems helps him a lot and helps me a lot because it reduces the number of things I have to keep in my brain at all times. I love doors that lock themselves, being able to schedule dog food being delivered, a thermostat I can manipulate from wherever. Beyond my little bubble it should be noted that voice controlled appliances can be really good for people with mobility concerns. Appliances that can measure and talk and remember little tasks can be such a blessing for people.

I will never forgive Amazon and Google for taking technologies that could be really helpful and weaponizing them, and fuck everybody who acts like its some kind of conspiracy theory that those devices are spying on you. You absolutely should be distrustful of those devices but just make sure you’re getting angry at the right people.

she’s so iconic i love her

Mianmian has had it with this patriarchy.

Mitski songs that remind me of enhypen members🌟

Heeseung- 'Why didn't you stop me?'

Not sure why but when I hear it, I think of heeseung🤔. It just goes well with him.

Jay - 'Nobody'

I think it just suits him, the lyrics have a deep meaning and when the song comes on it reminds me of jay :).

Jake- 'Me and my husband'

It just gives me the "happy life" vibes🤷 jake is very energetic and always smiles it's so sweet.

Sunghoon - 'A pearl '

On the outside everyone see's Sunghoon as a cold and introverted person. But we all really know he's much more than that, he's actually pretty soft and I think this song represents that very well.

Sunoo - 'I bet on loosing dogs '

Sunoo is so gentle,peaceful,and just precious. the song just sounds like his whole personality.

Jungwon - 'Washing machine heart'

The song is about a person wanting to be there for someone even if that person doesn't want them. As the leader Jungwon is always there for all the members no matter what. He always tries to cheer them up it's so sweet😭

Ni-ki - 'Two slow dancers'

Ni-ki is so young and it feels like he's growing so fast, the song is about slowing down time and enjoying the moment while you can. I think you can put 2 and 2 together💛