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i've decided im gonna try and lose the ability to love things good night

i don't trust anyone in my life not one person no one

spoiler: they did not keep it sexy OR mindful

the untamed text posts [3/?] - 3zun edition

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Lan ‘I don’t touch people’ Wangji

Nothing that happens is ever forgotten, even if you can’t remember it. Spirited Away 千と千尋の神隠し (2001) dir. Hayao Miyazaki

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making friends (especially after you’ve lost a couple or several ones) can be hard and incredibly isolating. finding people we can connect and be vulnerable with is no easy task, so often we feel like it’s a moral failure when things don’t work out between us and someone else. just know there are so many people in this world you have yet to meet who will love you and it’s okay to drop all this heavy relationship baggage now. you’re not defined by the people you’ve lost.

The fact that the sects had the AUDACITY to charge Wei Wuxian with the responsibility of dealing with Jin Guangyao (after basically saying everything he'd ever stood for pre-resurrection and the present) as if he would be willing to fight a SECOND war over shit he said would happen, for the people who literally made him kill himself.

Bruh I'd have flipped the finger at everybody there so fast- I'm glad he walked out.

the way I was just sitting there like :0 when they showed this part like it couldn't be any more obvious

fellas is it gay to stare at your almost lover longingly from afar

god when

like no one cares about your insecurities and deep rooted issues SHUT UP

sometimes i just want to talk to people and it being fun rather than me oversharing and killing the convo

sometimes i just want to talk to people and it being fun rather than me oversharing and killing the convo

i really made the logo for my project red and black based cause of wwx ,, they all liked it tho so ;)

wish i had the opportunity to just exist unknowing of what's happening i just don't want to know anymore but i have to and that takes a toll on my health

as funny as all those “lan wangji hates bugs” headcanons are, i actually love the opposite: lan wangji loves bugs. he can identify a beetle at a glance and he always takes a few extra seconds to admire the spiders that get into the jingshi that he scoops up before he puts them outside. when he was little there was an orb weaver that took up residence beside his window and he called her maiden spider for as long as she lived. they were a special interest of his for a solid few years before bunnies, and he’s still an encyclopedia of bug facts.

but you know who doesn’t like bugs? lan xichen.

so:

lan wangji, age 8, holding up a weird-looking cricket he found: xiongzhang look

lan xichen, age 12, sweating bullets: how nice, wangji

穿越千年才找回跟你在一起的回忆

a WLW makeup ad. 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩

Ok like on one hand, fuck Chinese censorship. On the other hand, literally every other piece of media should take notes from the untamed on how to show two characters are incredibly in love without explicitly saying so

LXC, to WWX: hello, young master Wei, how was your evening? Would you like some tea? Alcohol? Spicy food?

JC: *is always 000.3 seconds away from committing a hate crime every time he lays eyes on LWJ*

We all laugh at the "Everyone is Jin Ling's Uncle" thing but can we actually talk about how the Yunmeng sibs and their various marriages/murders almost single handedly ruined the line of succession for like every sect. Jin Ling is technically the heir to two sects because Jiang Cheng refuses to get married, except that isn't really practical but who else? Wei Ying technically would be heir if he was re-acknowledged except OH WAIT he's marrying a fucking Lan, and his only kid is freaking Lan Sizhui who is, that's right you guessed it, technically in line to be leader of Gusu Lan because once again, Lan Xichen didn't have his own damn heir! And that's not even touching that he is A WEN! Which isn't public knowledge but can we talk about the fact Wei Wuxian fucked up so bad (or good??) his actions somehow led to a WEN being in line to be sect leader of GUSU LAN??? And maybe technically Yunmeng Jiang. And maybe the Wen sect if it ever somehow came back. So that's three. Best boy Lan Sizhui could pretty much lead any sect he wanted. And then there's the dumpster fire of the Nie clan line of succesion, which I think ends somewhere around Nie Mingjue's decapitated head. You can't really blame the Jiang trio for that but Nie Huaisang is definitely like two steps away from doing some weird shit like misusing that Lan Xichen was the sworn brother of the sect leader. Just throw them into the pot as well so he doesn't have to deal with it. Absolutely obsessed with the fact one of the main plot tools of period pieces has just been ripped to smithereens because almost all the dudes refuse to fuck any women.

I love you ☆☆☆☆☆

You’re really great. I like you. . . Or in other words, I fancy you, I love you, I want you, I can’t leave you, I whatever you ★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★

im just scared like everyone else i'll just end up being toxic and overbearing to them

I think a fundamental part of online friendships that people ‘outside’ fail to understand is how comforting it is to have friends right there in your pocket who will keep you company in good times and bad, listen to your rants, let you vent, be supportive whilst offering outsider perspective…

Need to be alone but need support too? Pocket friends.

Something awful just happened and there’s nobody around for you to tell? Pocket friends.

Need to let your feelings out but don’t want people to see you ugly-cry? Pocket friends.

Keep being amazing, pocket friends. You couldn’t possibly imagine how important you are.

im pretty sure i cried reading this

I have… thoughts about wangxian, and specifically about the moment when they part ways at Qiongqi Path, with Wei Wuxian leading the Wen remnants and Lan Wangji declining to stop them.

I’ve seen a few people fluent in chinese do very thoughtful breakdowns of the exact nuances of the things Wei Wuxian says to Lan Wangji at that moment, but I’m going to link to and quote hunxi-guilai’s post, because tumblr’s search function is broken and this was the only one of the several I was able to dig up ;u;

蓝湛 / Lan Zhan

如果我和他们之间必有一战 / if there must be a fight between me and them

那我宁愿和你 决一生死。/ then I would rather fight to the death with you.

要死，/ If I must die,

也至少死在你含光君的手上. / then at least I would die by you, Hanguang-jun, at your hands

不冤了。/ I would not be wronged.

And specifically, I made a connection between Wei Wuxian’s attitude here and his perspective on life after his resurrection.

Because this is a low point. This is Wei Wuxian explicitly handing his trust over to Lan Wangji, saying that if Lan Zhan decides he’s gone too far, that he’s crossed an unforgiveable line, and that he needs to be put down, then Wei Wuxian accepts that judgment. Wei Wuxian is taking a stand and doing what he thinks is right, knowing that lots of people will probably fight him over it, but if Lan Zhan decides that he’s this far in the wrong and takes him out, he won’t argue, he won’t feel wronged, he’ll accept it.

So that’s good! That’s painful. This scene aches in all kinds of ways. 

But what I want to talk about is a different angle on Wei Wuxian’s self-judgment. Namely, whether or not he’s worthy of love.

He has… some issues with that. Madam Yu and Jiang Fengmian told him to protect his siblings no matter what, which he did, at horrible expense to himself. And then he kept the knowledge of what he’d sacrificed from them, because telling them what he’d done would have only hurt them more, and might have distracted them, making them think that they needed to spend (waste) their energy protecting him when he was the one who needed to protect them.

Jiang Cheng and Jiang Yanli are the most obvious examples of this, but there are moments like this with Wen Qing, when she has to physically knock him out before she and the other Wens can go sacrifice themselves to protect him, or later on with Wen Ning, where he speaks up on Wei Wuxian’s behalf to Jiang Cheng, knowing that Wei Wuxian would have never wanted him to tell Jiang Cheng these things, and that he would have been upset to know it happened.

And there are littler, smaller moments too, like in the Xuanwu’s cave, where Wei Wuxian has a giant fresh chest burn, but still tries to give all the limited medicine they have to Lan Wangji, or when Jin Ling gets a curse mark on his leg, and Wei Wuxian knocks him out so he can transfer it to himself without ever letting Jin Ling know that he was doing that for him. And then when he’s reunited with Lan Wangji, he tries to act like nothing is even wrong, nothing to worry about here, Lan Zhan!

I came to this book for the romance, but something I wasn’t expecting to be so compelled by was Wei Wuxian gradually becoming more at ease with the way Lan Wangji wants to care for him and protect him. I do think it’s a delicate balance, because Wei Wuxian isn’t incapable, even after losing his golden core, and there’s a subtle but important distinction between Wei Wuxian being willing to cheerfully impose on Lan Wangji and Wei Wuxian not wanting to be a burden. Wei Wuxian has never been good at letting people take care of him, unless he’s being Baby with Jiang Yanli, and even then, he was pretty much only good at letting her know he needed to be cared for in very undemanding, roundabout ways. ‘I’m hungry.’

I’ve seen other people notice that he breaks out that same 'I’m hungry’ tactic with Lan Wangji, eventually, when they’re leaving Yunmeng. He doesn’t expect Lan Wangji to recognize what it means, and is moved when Lan Wangji reaches down to pick a lotus pod for him. And it comes out in other ways too, if somewhat indirect, deflect-y ways, like ‘please protect this weak, helpless man’ said with a grin, so Lan Wangji stops inching closer to figuring out the golden core thing.

But especially with that Qiongqi Path exchange translated up above, I feel like there’s an element here where Wei Wuxian is gradually starting to defer to Lan Wangji’s judgment about Wei Wuxian, regardless of Wei Wuxian’s feelings about himself. And as little as Lan Wangji says out loud, it’s pretty clear that he is firmly of the opinion that Wei Ying needs to be loved, protected, and cherished, and Wei Wuxian is gradually learning to accept that.

I just love how all the disciples start excitedly chirping ‘Hanguang-Jun’ every time Lan Wangji shows up like they’re a bunch of distressed baby birds and he’s their mama come to sweep them under his sleeves 

When Lan Wangji has had enough, and the armor breaks.

i bet when wei wuxian and lan wangji are planning their wedding wei wuxian asks about sending mianmian an invite but then he's like "oh wait lan zhan, will it be too awkward for you to have your old crush at your wedding? i know it was a long time ago, but i want you to feel comfortable. we could invite her husband and child too-" and while he's rambling away lan zhan just stares dead-eyed into the camera like he's on the office

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it’s a well known fact that lesbians love hanguang jun. i think they would follow him around between lectures. at first he’s confused about this group of girls following him around until he realises they’re all wlw that just admire him and he takes them under his wing

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zero thank yous to @rocknghorss​ who showed me these photos of liu duan duan. none.

also, i have no clue where they’re actually from, just this tweet. (so thank you to that person and if anyone knows their origins, lemme know.)

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