Troupe Of Time And The To-Do's

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tittle-tattles

ceaseless words

of doubt and fame

sweet or bitter coated

I am never surprised

#StoriesFromTheCloud

It’s 3am and my mind feels like it’s time to let go 🌬

I went through a silent ❤️ battle.. I may not be sure if it was my best, but I fought hard.

I’ve been arguing with my feelings since the day I felt that something’s “more” towards this person. Well, he’s a typical guy everyone would like to hangout with. But a superb friend, rarest of his kind, who everyone would love to keep.

Fast forward, we somehow got stuck with each other for a little number of years. Whew, I also didn’t imagine it will last for some time because we were like from different planets, timeframes and peers. We were great companions and party magnets. Haha and we lived that long without a label. Neither his friends nor mine could determine the real score between us. Perhaps, neither could either of us (?) Heh.

So here’s the thing. He tried to pursue on several ladies during those times, and I was one of his peers who supported him. We go out randomly just to talk about anything under the sun, his happy days and struggles. We were both unplugging from stress. We were like free individuals living with less pressure. But little did we know, we became different persons after a span of days, weeks, and months.

We are very open to each other. Hmm. But there’s one topic that we never discussed — us. Every time I try to open it up, it’s just not the right time. He slips and disappears. I can also feel like we’re building gaps whenever I attempt to ask about us. We tend to have lesser communications. But why do things had to happen like this? 🙃

Well..that’s about it! The rest, as they say, is history. Guess what silent battle did I fight for?

It’s fighting for the remaining relationship I have with this person. I accepted defeat even if there’s no visible and direct enemy. And it’s way harder because I never tried to pursue on him. Perhaps, I wanted to keep our friendship and consider all things platonic.

I fought hard only to realize that we’re not going to be something beyond each other’s ideal romantic relationship.

agos sa grotto

In A Most Delightful Way

It has been a while since I engaged with the think-things-through scenarios.

Just kidding, maybe I do it a lot.  It’s in this time; once again, I got it encoded. Years from now, I want to read it again, laugh and hush – in a most delightful way.

There have been many emotional traps that hindered improvements, achievements and laughter. For one, worrying about what other people think about you is somewhat lethal. It’s kind of this lethal wherein personalities and relationships had to be sacrificed. So better cut the substandard long story of life, kill it yeah? Slay the please-everyone vibes.

Well, it’s easy as a snap to say but a bit hard to execute swiftly and properly. It wouldn't be so hard if some major stuff needed for considerations were just all odds and ends. For say, your pet, pal, best friend, brother, sister, lady, man, familia or somebody you know that likes you doesn't really do. Let’s even put this in its teeny weeny worst-case, hopefully fictional, scenarios:

They’re quietly against your dos and don’ts, or simply contrary to you. They don’t feel nor get you at all. They don’t have this aura to gain ceaseless interaction with you. They prefer other individuals more than you. Of course, these folks aren't telling you these things. Odds get even and you’re all acting normal around those supposedly awkward scenes.  And hey, these scenes ain't directed for a job hunt; but a life search wherein you must feel well and comfortable.

Oh better get a good act over here! Now, how? Know how.

There’s never a “right time” when you don’t consider it one. Either you've found out at an early or late phase about the ‘they-dislike-you’ issues, find a right time to reconsider things.  Reconsider to keep up with these people. Reconsider to make peace (peace of mind, I guess) with them. Have a chance to give them the treatment you wanted them to receive. If ever these life alterations didn’t work, maybe it’s time to get rid of pleasing them. Keep the blame away ‘cause maybe the error isn’t yours – it’s these individuals who are just flat out difficult.

It could be so tiring and exhausting and killing to please, yeah? Sooo, as for the remaining notes, find acceptance in the box of failure. Well, you don’t have to waste time for people who aren’t willing to upgrade themselves. Instead of pleasing everyone, just do what you want and you’ll find the right environment.

And oh, one more thing: Try to give attention to people who put efforts just to see you with glowing beams, or at least they’re accommodating.  Appreciate and give back the <3

Note to self: Try this – in a most delightful way.  Lalalalala ♩ ♪ ♫ ♬

bottom is up

chocolates & I

Hypothetically, if you choose between two evil trying to achieve greater good what will you do?

Hm, I'll consider the perspectives of good being bad and bad being itself. I'll choose one which is congruent w/ my moral decisions :)

Can someone save me from uncertainty

perspective aye?