Vielamae - Blog Posts

In times of extreme grief and pain, I always try to find creative outlets to keep my sanity and will to survive. In whatever form or technique, art and its astounding magic of making things better will always have that integral part of my life.

Releasing my last tragic art and moving forward with new inspirations 😌

I miss photowalk 📸

This year has been challenging, painful and devastating.. A year that’s completely unprecedented where almost all of my family members got severely ill, I lost a loved one, I’ve been fooled and toyed with. It gave me multiple heartaches as if mental breakdown is the New Normal for me.

Nonetheless, I wouldn’t want to think that this has been the worst year of my life. Oh time will tell, but I’d like to figure out more the reason behind all these, treat unfortunate events as learnings/blessings, and continue being a strong slash Athena-inspired lady. 💪🏻

So, I’d like to take this opportunity to thank every person who gave their time, care and comfort which literally became as my life support. I may be moody or unresponsive at times ✌🏻, but know that every effort is highly appreciated.

As the year-end approaches, I wish you all the hope, courage and trust to conquer all the challenges that you may face. And before I go on a socmed hiatus, greetings muna! I hope you enjoy the new year in store! 🍾🎊

PS. In case of wala lang/anona/emergency ata, you know how to reach me 😊 Cheers! 🍻

Praying you good things

Your eyes can see

Your heart can feel

A life can offer

Hoping you see the light

You seldom observe

You always deserve

You never saw in me

#StoriesFromTheCloud

It’s 3am and my mind feels like it’s time to let go 🌬

I went through a silent ❤️ battle.. I may not be sure if it was my best, but I fought hard.

I’ve been arguing with my feelings since the day I felt that something’s “more” towards this person. Well, he’s a typical guy everyone would like to hangout with. But a superb friend, rarest of his kind, who everyone would love to keep.

Fast forward, we somehow got stuck with each other for a little number of years. Whew, I also didn’t imagine it will last for some time because we were like from different planets, timeframes and peers. We were great companions and party magnets. Haha and we lived that long without a label. Neither his friends nor mine could determine the real score between us. Perhaps, neither could either of us (?) Heh.

So here’s the thing. He tried to pursue on several ladies during those times, and I was one of his peers who supported him. We go out randomly just to talk about anything under the sun, his happy days and struggles. We were both unplugging from stress. We were like free individuals living with less pressure. But little did we know, we became different persons after a span of days, weeks, and months.

We are very open to each other. Hmm. But there’s one topic that we never discussed — us. Every time I try to open it up, it’s just not the right time. He slips and disappears. I can also feel like we’re building gaps whenever I attempt to ask about us. We tend to have lesser communications. But why do things had to happen like this? 🙃

Well..that’s about it! The rest, as they say, is history. Guess what silent battle did I fight for?

It’s fighting for the remaining relationship I have with this person. I accepted defeat even if there’s no visible and direct enemy. And it’s way harder because I never tried to pursue on him. Perhaps, I wanted to keep our friendship and consider all things platonic.

I fought hard only to realize that we’re not going to be something beyond each other’s ideal romantic relationship.

You can shut your lips

And learn to control your heart

‘cos whatever we miss

Now that we’re far apart

Will be just memories,

Even the scenes we wanna restart

Cravings During a Pandemic

I crave for the sun

Moon and stars

Warm and cold breeze

City lights and sandbars

But most of all, I crave

To hear rejoicing and laughter

To witness lives, not graves

To see an upturn after disaster

Himala sa Buhangin

blue x green

Kay tagal kong sinusuyod ang buong mundo Para hanapin, para hanapin ka

golden

Is tomorrow really another day?

Hello, Mapúa

Somewhere, somehow you’ll

Make your heart full and find peace,

And treat it as home

We are perfectly

fine as strangers on the loose.

We don’t stop talking.

Not My ❤️ Story

We fail and fall To traps, feelings and all We run and escape Live in a world  They didn’t make

You are my confidant The best I ever had But we became obsessed With a thing we shouldn’t have 

I know, byes are never good But I want to move forward

If ever our eyes will meet Look away and don’t peek Hush now, all will be fine See you in another lifetime

There are days

that we don’t meet

there are times

where we can’t talk nor sleep

But not a day goes by

that I never forget

to think about You —

I wish I could forever keep

Daming tanong!

Nag-iisip ng isusulat ko Bakit natulala na lang ako sa larawan mo? Naghihintay ng antok para sa mahabang pahinga Ano kaya kung gisingin at puntahan na lang kita?

Hinding hindi kita hinanap Pero nakita ko sa’yo ang bahaghari sa alapaap Sa daan-daang balakid at ngunit Ikaw ang nag-alis sa lahat ng kahit at ang sagot sa bakit Sa libu-libo kong tanong Gusto ko sana malaman, Saan ‘to hahantong?

TY

You woke up the beast in me Handled it effortlessly Left it alone Unconsciously saying, Be gone

I seldom eat these but. but. but it’s healthy. Alriiiight

Pdupcfs Y.16 

... Something has greatly changed.

Things went entirely blank.

Part4something

Pdupcfs Y.15 

We had a lot of blanks in our story and it was worse than expected. I began to develop deep despairs and lesser explanations. But in the midst of these gaps, we still managed to be ‘us’. I'm always tired but never of you.

We were finding our happy places.

Part3something

Pdupcfs Y.14 

We had different chapters and interpretations. We were real and enclosed at the same time. I just don’t want hurt and sorrow to conquer. There, I entertained compromise a lot.

We were aiming for continuous joy and comfort.

Part2something

Pdupcfs Y.13 

 I got us covered. I hid you from my curses and disputes. Sometime later, your schemes seemed to disagree with my environment. I tried various ways to bond the ‘they’ and ‘you’ for us. I was unconscious of this predicament.

We were puzzling to manage our time.

Wish that Byes were as easy as Hi's and vice versa