Whatsaeat - Relapsing Like A Pro ✨

Alrighty, so I started my diet off today and gotta say, we're off to a pretty good start. I managed to stay under 400 calories and worked out through out the day, and ill be adding a walk in a bit later today. I've almost reached my water goals, and im gonna have a tea bc we cold, but other than that, im done eating for the day. I am a bit worried about this Thursday because my family and I will be staying in a hotel and they'll get full monitoring of what I eat and what I do so that should be interesting. In other news watched a lot of gossip girl today (highkey cringe ik but we aren't gonna talk abt it), and did a lot of drawing. I hope you all had a good day, and if u ever need to talk, the inbox is always open 💕

Stay safe, loves ❤

@ me sipping green tea after eating everything in my kitchen

Dude there was a big boi roach and it did really be flying around and now its gone hahahahahhahahaahhelphaha

U ever purge so much that when u consume anything ur stomach bubble or is that just me

Me waking up: ah what a beautiful day,, to sTarVe 🥰🥰

When ur family goes out (so ur home alone)

Its prime purge time

me (cleaning up): holds knife

intrusive thoughts: what if-

me: ok edgelord we get it what if i slit my wrists right now can we please just focus

Reasons to get to my UGW…

• he’ll be able to pick me up easily

• when his long, strong arms wrap around me in a hug, I’ll feel so so small in comparison to him

• I’ll look good from every angle

• I’ll be able to wear lingerie and not look like a cow wrapped in lace

• bikinis in public will no longer feel like torture, it’ll be a reward to show off what I worked so hard for

• I won’t be embarrassed if my shirt rides up and some of my stomach shows

• I won’t feel like I need to keep my head down and hide from the world

• the envious stares and the “you look great!”

• I’ll be able to focus on bettering myself in other ways because my body will already be perfect

•I’ll be so small and dainty and cute that people won’t be able to help pointing it out

• being tiny and thin will be what I’m known for and it’ll be the first thing people will say about me if they are asked to describe me

• “I’d hug you tighter, but I’m afraid I’d snap you in half”

• I’ll never have to worry about taking up too much space or being too heavy

• my eyes will look bigger

• my jaw will be sharper

• my silhouette will have little dips and curves in all the right places, smaller at the waist and a little wider at the hips where my bones peek from under my skin

• I’ll look so innocent and pure, not like some gluttonous disgrace

• I’ll paint my nails to bring attention to my dainty hands

• everything I wear will look great on me, nothing could possibly be too small and anything too big just looks absolutely adorable

• I’ll get to go shopping for all new clothes and actually have fun trying things on

• I’ll have more energy

• my face will be so clear from all the water I’ve been drinking for so long

• I won’t have to wear makeup to look pretty

• nobody will be embarrassed to be around me, instead everyone will want to be my friend

• that feeling of accomplishment for having self control and sticking to something so important to me

• I’ll have finally done something right for once

• I’ll finally be perfect

entire ed community. prove me wrong

do you ever feel like such a burden that you just wanna apologize for existing