The saddest moment is going to self harm and realising you have to look for clean skin to cut...
A note to my body
I am sorry.
I have cut you, hit you, and burnt you. I have shoved more food into you than you can handle, jammed my fingers down your throat, and starved you for days until all you can see is stars.
I’ve consumed too much alcohol, too many substances, and exercised you into the ground.
But what I am the most sorry for is that I can’t seem to stop… no matter how much I want to be better for you, I don’t know how to stop this self destruction.
And for that, I am truly sorry
I literally hate everything
You ever purge so much u start shaking and feeling really lightheaded and your hands and feet feel really cold and hard to control bc me rn lol
do you ever feel like such a burden that you just wanna apologize for existing
@fakerstrom
I just ate Mac and cheese and want to cry but what else is new
“I don’t want to die, I just don’t want to exist any more” sounds mild if you’ve never experienced it, but it is in fact a horrible, violent way to feel.
Avoiding my brain by taking overtime shifts at work
Like heh,, ive cracked the system
Actually no plz dont im self contious
O well fuck me
i feel fucking broken...