I Feel Alone Again

Sometimes I'm so stupid that I think:

"Hmm, maybe if I really am myself, I can start getting people to like me."

And then I remember how cynical and boring I am and that my head should explode just for thinking something so silly.

Who said you have to wear the fashion 24/7 that’s not true for any subculture. Fashion is an aspect of it though.

Nobody, but there are times when superficial people belittles a landmine simply because they don't own a coord.

YAAAAYYYAYAYAYYYIPPIEEE <33

Yume i think you are one of my favourite mutuals now

bu

There are some things that just won't happen even if you long for them since the bottom of your heart.

And that, unfortunately, it's fine.

Not charismatic enough

Not smart enough

Not pretty enough

Not stable enough

Not good enough

Should I continue the list?

So you're staying uh...

You are really trying, but for how long?

Are you going to beg for me? Do you really love me? How much are you going to do to have me?

I want to be called pretty even if I'm not

I want to be called pretty just to feel happy for a second

I want to be called pretty even if it doesn't make me feel anything because it's a lie

If I go, will you notice my absence?

I think if I gaslight myself into deceiving myself that my husband is actually my real husband all my problems will disappear.

(or at least the loneliness ones)