𝒟𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓂 𝒹𝒾𝑒𝓉

i wanna kms bcuz I'm not skinny, i haven't kms bcuz I don't wanna be fat forever..

Why cant I lose w8 instead of my will to live

I hate school but I hate holidays too because holidays=eating more

The devil couldn't reach me so he made me a 5'2 girl with the appetite of a 6'4 man

Self induced liposuction or self induced lobotomy

I can’t live like this anymore.

I deleted tumblr for the week because my phone had no storage but I’m back now.

I’ve had the worst time. It’s bad enough I was demotivated after getting t-worded but im actually so done.

Two months. Two fucking months in a plateau.

I caved. I weighed in. I knew it wouldn’t be completely accurate because I haven’t pooped in days, I’ve eaten today and I had chippy the day before, so it’d be high in sodium, but to see the scale jump up FIVE LBS since the pre-October weigh in was horrible. Last time I hit a lw was the last week of August. This isn’t fair.

Why am I putting my body through hell when all I get is no fucking energy, being sad all the time, JUST TO GET FUCKING FATTER!?

I count every calorie, I stress over everything, I’ve lied to my family and done everything I can just to gain weight even though I’ve been in a deficit on average of 500 cals a day(I take metab days but my deficit on other days evens it out). I should have lost like 8lbs since August but I haven’t.

And to make it all worse my parents caught me skipping lunch during school. So now they’re like stalking me to make sure I eat lunch, making me eat higher calorie dinners, and banning zero calorie drinks from me. There’s nothing I can do anymore. What do I do?

Nooo sodium u taste so good and have 0 cals please don't make me gain 5lbs of water weight haha

I never spend money on stuff I actually want but blow it all on snacks. Maybe if I stopped I'd be happier because I actually have stuff I want and so much less fat too

felt

Not a fatspø supporter but the urge to post my ugly disgusting thighs for accountability is insane