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Old scars
Some Edward, cuz. You know. I like him
I decided to create a masterpost that would help you with what you are struggling with. Hopefully any of the links below will help you! Reminder; You’re going to be okay. What you are going through will pass, just remember to breathe.
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Distractions;
Here are some distractions to help keep your mind occupied so you aren’t too focused on your thoughts.
-Draw something
-This website translates the time into colours.
-Create your own galaxy.
-Play flowing.
-Make a 3D line travel where ever you like.
-Listen to music.
-Calm.
-Ocean mood, do nothing for two minutes.
Sleep issues;
- 8 hour sleep music.
-Rainy mood.
-Meditation.
-Coping with nightmares.
-How to cope with nightmares, 11 steps.
-Calm
-Foods that can affect your sleeping, both positive and negatively.
Uncomfortable with silence;
-Rainy mood.
-10 hours of rain and thunder.
-3 hours of rain and thunder.
-Human heartbeat.
-Rainforest.
-Sound of rain on a tin roof.
-Autumn wind.
-Rain on a tent
-Traffic in the rain.
-Soft traffic.
-Fan.
-Train.
-Simply noise.
-My noise.
-Rainy cafe.
Anxiety;
-How to stop worrying.
-Tips to manage anxiety and stress.
-The 10 best ever anxiety management techniques.
-Self-help strategies for anxiety.
-Helping a friend with anxiety.
-All about worrying.
-8 myths about anxiety.
Sad, angry and depressed/depression;
-“I’m always sad”
-Feeling sad.
-Going through trauma.
-“I’m always angry”.
-Anger management.
-All about anger.
-National helplines and websites.
-Self-help strategies for depression.
-Dealing with depression at work.
-Dealing with depression at school.
Isolation and loneliness;
-Pets and mental health.
-All about loneliness.
-“I feel so alone”
-10 more ideas to help with loneliness.
-How to deal with loneliness.
Self-harm;
-Alternatives to self-harm and distraction techniques.
-146 things to do besides self-harm.
-More alternatives to self-harm.
-Self-harm alternatives.
-How to take care of self-harm wounds/injuries.
-Getting rid of scars.
Addiction;
-How to help a friend with a drug addiction.
-What is addiction?
-All about alcohol and addiction.
-The facts about drug addiction.
Eating disorders;
-Helping a friend with an eating disorder.
-Eating disorder treatments.
-Support services for eating disorders.
-Self-help tips with eating disorders.
-Eating disorder recovery.
-Recovering from an eating disorder.
-100+ reasons to recover.
-Understanding and managing eating disorders.
Dealing with self-hatred;
-3 ways to ease self-loathing.
-How to turn self-hatred into self-compassion.
-Self-hatred resources.
-10 step plan to deal with self-hate.
Suicidal;
-International suicide hotlines (1) (2)
-Preventing suicide.
-Reasons to stay alive.
-Dealing with suicidal thoughts and feelings.
-Coping with suicidal ideation.
Schizophrenia;
-All about schizophrenia.
-Helping a person with schizophrenia.
-Understanding and dealing with schizophrenia.
-Delusions and hallucinations.
OCD;
-Managing your OCD at home.
-Overcoming OCD.
-How to cope with OCD.
-Strategies for dealing with the anxious moments.
Borderline personality disorder;
-Helping someone with BPD.
-All about personality disorders.
-Treatment for BPD.
Abuse;
-Healthy relationships VS abusive relationships.
-Emotional abuse
-Overcoming sexual abuse.
-Hotlines services.
-5 ways to escape an abusive relationship.
-Domestic violence support.
-Signs of an abusive relationship.
-What do to if you’re in an abusive relationship.
-Surviving abuse.
-What you can do if you’re sexual harassed.
-Sexual assault support.
-What to do if you’ve been sexually assaulted or abused.
Bullying;
-How to stand up against bullying.
-How to protect yourself when it comes to cyber bullying.
-How to help stop people bullying you.
Loss and grief;
-How to cope with a suicide of a loved one.
-Grieving for a stranger.
-Common reactions to death.
-Working through grief.
(Other loss and grief)
-Moving away from friends and family.
-Coping with a breakup.
Getting help;
-Seeking help early.
-All about psychological treatments.
-Types of help.
-All about age and confidentiality.
Things you need to remember;
- Don’t stress about being fixed because you’re not broken.
-Remember to remind yourself of your accomplishments. Tell yourself that you’re proud of yourself, even if you’re not.
- This is temporary. You won’t always feel like this.
-You are not alone.
-You are enough.
-You are important.
-You are worth it.
-You are strong.
-You are not a failure,
-Good people exist.
-Reaching out shows strength.
-Breathe.
-Don’t listen to the thoughts that are not helping you.
-Give yourself credit.
-Don’t be ashamed of your emotions, for the good or bad ones.
-Treat yourself the same way as you would treat a good friend.
-Focus on the things you can change.
-Let go of toxic people.
-You don’t need to hide, you’re allowed to feel the way you do.
-Try not to beat yourself up.
-Something is always happening, you don’t want to miss out on what’s going to happen next.
-You are not a bother.
-Your existence is more than your appearance.
-You are smart.
-You are loved.
-You are wanted.
-You are needed.
-Better days are coming.
-Just because your past is dark, doesn’t mean your future isn’t bright.
-You have more potential than you think.
- Your value doesn’t decrease based on someone’s inability to see your worth.
Please remember to look after yourself and know that you are more than worth it and you deserve to be happy. Keep smiling butterflies x
pov you are an oc artist with anxiety
I love you SCP-049
You're my first and last love of my life
(this is serious, this is not just a fanatism or sympathy, 6th years)
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Everytime I see my old art in the wild I get whiplash. Who let me post that.
Sooooo-
I took my universe "Unmasked" seriously, and thought of the idea with the view of Edward (scp-049)
I will attach the reference lists at the end of the post about Magpies and Crows. (warning: there is artistic nudity in the drawings)
Also, you can share your thoughts in the comments, like or reblog, it will be interesting for me to read your comments and see your reaction, whether I post such posts or not
There are two sub-races in Edward's race: Magpies and Crows
Magpies
(Example: a man drawn from memory from the drawings of object 049)
CROWS
(Example: Edward Haselhurst, currently referred to as object 049)
Magpies are long-lived, but they do not have a very long life span like Crows, about 500-700 years.
Magpies in the Middle Ages were kept as pets with whom you can talk (if they had at least a little brain present). Peoples were not afraid of them, and they were seen as just cute little animals. They were semi-wild, and had smaller sizes, and the color was not completely black, but black with white stripes
Crows are long-lived++, if Magpies still have a life limit, about 500-700 years, then Crows can live from 6000 to 7000 years(The average value is taken).
Their peculiarity is also included in the fact that they can accumulate useful substances for the body in order to spend them correctly in the future if some critical situation happens where they will have to not eat for a long time. Edward abuses it, alas, because he literally won't eat because he works or something like that. Sometimes he does it just because he doesn't see the point. They can also "overeat", literally. After a few days of hunger strike, for about a week, they need to eat at least something so that their body does not begin to self-destruct. Edward carries useful herbs and dried fruits for this, so yes, sometimes he can be found at the table sucking on a dried tangerine slice or prunes.
Also, crows do not necessarily need sleep, they can stay awake for about three days, after which they will begin to feel tired. That is, yes, they will be awake for three days, and then they will feel tired if they do not sleep for at least 8 hours.
Crows were taken as pupils or children, because they were distinguished by a good mind, memory and obedience, but mostly they were bullied because they were "dangerous", but the most desperate were taken as pupils and children, as happened with Edward and Father Gabriel (I'll tell you about him later, just for reference I will say that he is a church minister)
The danger of "crows" manifested itself only when they were frightened or tried to attack.
Edward is anxious, and he is in this state almost always, because he has lived a fairly long life and remembers some moments well, especially when he is focused on something or thinking (and he does this often). When he is relaxed or in quiet company, his skin is not dangerous.
And a little bit about the "pestilence"
As I said a long time ago, the craze is about "bad people", that is, those who have a dirty soul. But here it's a little different, I decided to rewrite this moment, but I left the main idea the same.
Pestilence - is a state when Edward experiences uncontrollable fear next to some person, that is, in this way he killed his observer, because he began to raise his voice at him and accuse him, and people who "radiate an unpleasant aura" (yes, he feels the human aura well).
A small note, Edward forgot exactly what he called a pestilence, and because of the moment with Alagadda, where almost all people/creatures radiated a rather vile aura, he called it a disease. + because of the knowledge about necromancy that he received from there, he decided that he would "heal" people from the pestilence, that is, literally make their soul become pure. It is logical that after death the soul goes to another world, and Edward does not feel an unpleasant aura, because it literally does not exist.
In the most fucked-up situations, like shootouts, violation of conditions of detention by objects, he enters Berserk mode and kills everyone who radiates a "bad aura". If under normal conditions he can control himself and restrain himself, then in the "Berserker" mode, that is, unconscious mode, he can kill not only enemies, but also associates, so when something like this happens, and Edward may have such a breakdown, he is locked in a rather cozy chamber with noise insulation, and they leave him there until the foundation deals with the whole situation.
Guys, I'm thinking... I have an idea, rather dubious, I don't know how you will accept it, but it concerns mpreg. I want to post such posts with such content, and with scp-049 (my precious Edward)
I need to know your opinion
Scientists: Edward, you need to make a good impression on yourself.
Edward:
There will be more with Н!scp-049 soon, because I love him
Likes and reblogs are welcome🤟
I will cry if there is no response...
(Please reblog, cuz likes don't do anything-)
Scientists: Edward, you need to make a good impression on yourself.
Edward:
to begin with, I'll explain how it happened and what happened.
One day, after a month of thinking and guessing, scientists examined the X-ray of scp-049, and noticed several cracks between the clothes and the body, as well as between the mask and the face. They decided to conduct an experiment and carefully remove all this fabric from object 049. The object itself showed aggression and did not agree in any way. Under tranquilizers and sedatives, they took him to the surgical table, after which they began to conduct an experiment. The clothes came off, as if they had been recreated from liquid fibers, and stuck to the Doctor's body. The mask was held tightly to his face by leather straps. After they took off all Edward's clothes and mask, the object suddenly woke up, shouting something unintelligible, and blood flowed from one eye, which should have been healed long ago. The object attacked one of the scientists, ██████ him, and behaved like a wild animal. After 30 minutes, as the object finished █████ one of the employees, he turned to the entire group of scientists and special forces, after which he began to step back in fright, covering himself with his hands. There are clear signs of severe amnesia and loss of space.
There will be more with Н!scp-049 soon, because I love him, we don't ask questions here, nuh-huh
I wanted to find art 'bout scp-049 and scp-035, but in the end I look at some idiots lead the most stupid rp channels, and spam with some stupid and idiotic jokes not fitting into character
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I think @mimumik kinda got the point, ahaha
SCP 049 HEADCANNON
Y'all guys know this epicures of victorian women with hair down to theyr ankles? That him. Long, slightly curly hair down to his ankles and he doesn't like the feeling of his hair being cut so he never really cuts it
how i look at you when you don’t reblog my posts:
okay so basically about your AU it's great but I honestly don't understand why scp 049 left scp 035 alone and what's with briefcase? *confused noise* I'm quite confused I do understand some things but some things are quite confusing to understand there backstory I will appreciate if you explains to meh clearly (*°∀°)=3
Hey :D! Thankyou for your ask :3
Basically, to understand the briefcase you’ll need a bit of context first :3
SPOILER WARNING (technically, im hopefully making them a youtube shorts series once ive finished with my main project, but we’ll see :3)
Hasel (or 049 :3) comes from 1340’s france. He had a wife and a daughter who both caught the black death. He was working as a doctor at the time, and tried everything he could to save them, but they died. His daughter’s dying wish was for him to live, which cursed him to live forever altering his form to something resembling a crow, the omen of death.
In this sense he is now a monster (or anomalous if you prefer) and now portrays more birdlike traits :D
So with this in mind, he feels incredibly guilty. He feels as though the deaths of his wife and child are entirely his fault because he couldn’t cure them.
This guilt manifests itself into a caricature of his wife, where she taunts and tortures him within his mind in a place known as the grey dimension (seen in my earlier birdsong project)
when he gets lost inside the grey dimension (more or less lost in guilt) his physical body turns to auto pilot, and will hunt down anything obstructing his path to “the cure”. This is the monstrous form we see :D
The caricature also produces a black vine, which is my au’s version of the pestilence :D He can see this everywhere, he believed it infects people, and he believes he must find the cure for it in order to redeem himself (this isn’t true, especially because this vine isn't actually real)
CONTEXT OVER
right, so Hasel meets dyo (or 035 :D) in 1601. They travel together and eventually fall in love :3 Hasel slowly becomes happier now that hes learning how to enjoy life, and continues his journey to find a “cure”, unaware that its staring him in the face, Dyo, who helps him to forgive and tackle his past, whether unintentional or not.
Eventually their story leads up into 1916, during the first world war. Battles, despite their nature, are an efficient way for Hasel to research the dead whilst avoiding killing where he can.
He had almost hurt dyo by accident after his monstrous form takes him over, and the vine was telling him that he was in the way, that dyo was stopping him from reaching the cure.
At this point something had been building up inside of him. It was a sense of dread, a feeling that something bad was going to happen.
And there it was. He looks over no-man’s land and all he can see is death. He can’t take it anymore, and that night he runs, scared of hurting his lover and scared of “failing” those from his past.
(…)
The briefcase however? Its not too important :3 Its a way for him to carry his supplies and it changes to keep up to date with the time period :3 He left it behind so dyo would know he’s gone. Dyo had also had this impending sense of dread, he felt deep down that something like this might happen, but he desperately tried his best to ignore it. So now he’s searching for hasel, the only person in his life who could never leave him, the only one who wouldn’t die.
So yeah thats it in basic terms :3 (after hasel leaves the caricature of his wife is replaced with a manifestation of dyo, masks comedy and tragedy and a mix of the two as it shows how his guilt has become more complex over time :3)
(Once he gets captured by the foundation the back of his cloak is branded with the logo)
any more questions lmk :3
I haven’t shared much on dyo since this was mainly a hasel focused question so if anyone’s curious about that then be my guest to drop an ask whenever :D He isn’t as built up but I do definitely have ideas for him :3
that's was Long and great explanation you can actually wrote a wattpad book of it! And I actually like the storyline it's really great and really felt bad for scp 049 :( honestly it was too much for poor birdie TvT
And yea why bother! I will like to read scp 035 one too ☆(≧∀≦*)ﾉ Thanks for taking my questions ( ˘ ³˘)♥
YIIPPEEEEE, thankyou so much :’D
alright with dyo, we’ll need some context too, in the sense that you will need to be aware of the original lore for Alagadda so id recommend reading the wiki if you haven’t already)
(Another note is that my version of Alagadda’s time doesn’t work linearly, so in this sense, it is entirely possible to enter alagadda during any time it exists, and exit to earth in a different era than when you left. It explains how the culture is affected by different eras in time, and this will be also important narratively!)
(He is originally from Alagadda as per the usual lore, except in my au he wasn’t banished to earth, and instead took refuge there, fleeing execution from the ambassador and other lords.)
In my au, dyo has a toxic sibling relationship with the other lords, ontop of this he’s also the shortest and the runtiest of the few and so was picked on, which lines him up to becoming the hanged king’s favourite as he was the easiest to manipulate.
Originally working as the jester for his king he is killed by a peasant uprising (as per the original lore) and is brought back to life three days later, offering his king a cup filled with the blood of his enemies gifted by the brothers death.
The lore follows the original story line from here in which he invites a bird like doctor to the palace to cure him of his influence of the hanged king (remember how time in alagadda isn’t linear? Yep, thats hasel! He finds a broken passage to alagadda after the point in which he has left dyo and just before the foundation finds him. He researches it and fixes it, hoping to find the “cure” for the vine on the other side)
Hasel doesn’t recognise dyo’s old form as the black lord and dyo at this point is yet to even meet hasel, and so neither of the two realise that they were intwined from the beginning.
after being cured by hasel and attempting to fight the influence of the hanged king, his execution is plotted against him by the other lords and the ambassador, and so, he escapes to earth.
yet, in my au the lords and the ambassador are still after dyo, but are unaware of his ware-abouts, Dyo destroys the portal which in turn wipes his entire memory, hoping that it will never be rebuilt again.
But didn’t hasel rebuild the portal? Uh oh! He did! Meaning he had unintentionally both freed and doomed his lover. Not only that, but the foundation had been tracking the signal that the portal had been omitting, causing the capture of both the portal and hasel! And, of course, the foundation would absolutely never destroy it!
On another note, sometimes memories of Alagadda will seep through the cracks, instances from the past that dyo forged reflect memories from his childhood and experiences in Alagadda.
Dyo landed in ancient Greece, and genuinely believes he is from there. He believes that he was a balatro (roman jester) for the king, and was fused to his mask by the ancient Greek gods as a punishment for stealing the golden wreath from the king of Rome.
However, it is evident that this story isn’t true, at the time Rome had a consul system not a king, and despite the fact Rome had capitulated Greece they didn’t share the same gods despite their similarities.
He makes his way through life, but aware of his immortality he drowns himself in alcohol and lavish parties. He doesn’t get close to anyone as he knows that they will one day die and that he will not, causing him to build bad behaviours, appear overtly cocky and confident, a tendency to avoid rejection as a side effect and a need to convince himself that everything is alright.
So! Imagine dyo, an immortal being, avoiding close relationships with anyone he meets and putting up a persona to avoid anyone liking him, finding another immortal being!I
He grows incredibly attached to hasel, for the first time in almost two millennia he doesn’t have to be alone anymore, he can finally learn how to open himself up and build on his issues and break down his persona.
But this causes abandonment and attachment issues, so you can imagine how he must have reacted when hasel leaves!
He can’t handle this, and embarks on a journey to find him again, this journey spanning over a century from WW1 to present day, in which he is also captured by the foundation and placed in the same facility as hasel… and the portal!
They are given their numbered codes 035 and 049, but with dyo being so close to the fixed portal he gradually begins to remember his past…
So yeah thats all im up to so far :3
i haven’t written anything past the foundation and the portal plot, but technically in the original draft i made with my partner a couple years back they escape with the help of Laurence (106). They learn to mend their broken relationship and also learn how to get along with laurence despite his creepiness, but that part is all old stuff so i might rewrite it. But the fact hasel leaves at WW1 was important, as this is around the time Laurence becomes anomalous, so it ties their stories in too :3
quick reminder that my own gay ass genuinely supports the hell outta each and every one of you. regardless if i know you or not, im happy to be living in this shithole of a life in the same world with you.
and im proud of you, i know in my heart just how beautiful, amazing, talented, smart, and worthy you are and i hope you can see that too🏳️🌈🌈
I hate themm
I drew something for the first time in a hundred years, hooray
Now SCP-049 is being possessed by Bill Cipher
Please reblog, cuz... you know, likes don't do anything at all-
Welp, I followed the trends of tik tok and decided to draw Edward possessed by Bill
Somewhere in the corner, one scp-035 is jealous
Look! He even packed a piiicniiiic~!
Turning Hannibal into cats day two
I'm thinking of revealing more about Edward, my humanization of SCP-049
there will be more content and stories about it) Moreover, I finished its design and history, bringing it to its logical end
In the meantime, take a guy who looks very much like Edward, whom I found in tiktok
Cr: nathanseye (tt)
in fact, I really don't like ship scp-049/scp-035, and now I'll explain why:
all their relationships are shown in a very romantic way, it all looks beautiful and cute, BUT! scp-035 is literally a sadist who raped the brain of SCP-049 FOR CENTURIES!! This is literally the same thing if an innocent person was morally destroyed, and then he would break out of there, even into another dungeon, find peace, and AGAIN, again he sees the very face that destroyed his brain all this time.
In principle, they should not be together, it should simply be prohibited. In a relationship with scp-035, scp-049 will be very unhappy. To listen to insults, humiliations and again become a slave to his rapist is tantamount to suicide for him.
Just no. He should be with either a caring husband or a caring wife, period. This man needs peace and tranquility, not another mind game and violence against his already crazy mind. Selfcest is fine, ocxcanon is fine, BUT NOT SCP-035, PLEEEEASE
I just can't look at the art With these two together, I immediately feel sorry for scp-049
I haven't posted something like this for a long time, so keep the crossover House Hunted and Hannibal (the series)
As I said, Maison reminds me of Hannibal, and I created an alternate version of Will Graham for him, Freddie Lounds' brother, Philip Lounds
I also had the opportunity to create an AU based on this idea... Just shh, it's a secret.
Humanish 049
1x01 "Apéritif"
bryan fuller saying hannibal lecter is very much alive and hungry in 2024... well where is he? can we like- see him again pls? 👉🏻👈🏻
He's fine, daaamn, he's fiiine
I just love this sexy old man
He reminds me of Hannibal
You saw it in front of your door, your actions
Hannibal woke up a lot earlier than Will who was still sleeping soundly unbothered by the howling of the wind. Even though it was not the first time he was spending the night at Will's, the sounds of nature managed to frequently wake him up.
He left the bedroom quietly and headed towards the kitchen to make himself some coffee.
The sun was not yet up. The birds were quiet too.
He thought of making some breakfast later, to surprise Will when he would be up. It amazed him how happy this man would get in front of a plate of pancakes and bacon.
He opened the door and stepped onto the porch, followed by Will's dogs who were excited to go out. Holding his mug of coffee, Hannibal took a walk around the house and stopped in front of the forest.
He was not sure what he was looking for, but for once the whole nature fell quiet around him, as if his presence was noticed and slowly absorbed into the winter tableau.
He brought the mug to his lips and closed his eyes. He hummed to himself, enjoying the silence. Then something changed into the air.
The next second he returned inside and grabbed Will's shotgun. Still holding his hot mug of coffee he went again to his previous spot but this time he advanced into the woods.
It was a cold morning and he was not wearing adequate clothes for a walk in the forest in the middle of February. Winston followed him loyally. Even the dog was considering him a "city boy", like Will would often call him.
It went quick. A twig snapped. Hannibal grabbed the shotgun. Gestured to Winston to be quiet. Breathed in. Eyed the prey. Made a decision. And shot.
The noise woke Will up in an instant. The panic grew when he couldn't find Hannibal next to him. He rushed into the living room, looking for his shotgun.
It was not where it was supposed to be.
He grabbed his gun instead and rushed out into the snow, following the direction of the noise. His dogs greeted him and followed. Just as he was about to venture into the woods, he froze.
Hannibal, still holding a mug in his left hand, and dragging a deer with the other, was slowly making his way through the snow. Will's shotgun was hanging loosly on his back. A red trail in the snow marked his path.
Will was trying to find the proper words to describe his reaction which was anywhere between amusement, surprise and annoyance.
"Are you going to keep watching or are you giving me a hand?"
"I swear to God, you are the only person in the world who would go hunting while drinking your coffee. And in your underwear."
"It's yours in fact."
Will looked down at his boxers which were in fact Hannibal's. He walked towards him and helped with the deer.
"How many times did you shoot?" Will asked noticing two wounds.
"Once." Hannibal replied. "Someone else must have hurt her before. She was struggling. I decided that putting her down would ease her suffering."
The Chesapeake Ripper didn't want the deer to suffer a slow and painful death. On the other hand, Will could tell Hannibal was already planning all the ways they could cook the deer in.
