4nor3xia - Blog Posts
wearing my hair open makes my face look slim but shearing it in a ponytail makes me look morr masculine.... Decisions, decisions, all of them wrong
To me it kind of feels like I won't truly live until I'm skinny. That right now, there is still a wall I need to cross until I'm "on the other side" or something, when my life can finally begin.
It takes 30 days to build a habit, right? So maybe if I count the days I'll finally be consistent
You'd think after three years of this I'd have finally figured out something that works for me, but noooo
having a good relationship with food is nice, but being skinny is nicer
Come on hip bones, don't be shy I promise I'll treat you kindly pleseaasse poke out alreadyyy
Okay. Just because I've always been fat or chubby or "average" doesn't mean it has to stay this way forever.
One look in the mirror - and I mean a proper look, not just catching a glimpse of my reflection walking by, no, I mean fully inspecting my body for 5-10 minutes really gets me questioning everything, but it's one of the most motivating things ever, honestly.
Hello!
I'm E. I kind of got a lot of interests and then none at all, but my hobbies are music (especially Cello and singing), art sometimes, science, movies and shows, Hermitcraft and my ed.
It's what I'll be posting about mainly, so dni if you aren't fine with seeing content about eating disorders. I'll probably talk about self harm as well.
By the way, my languages are English and German, so even though I'd say I'm relatively fluent in English, errors can still happen, soooo do be forgiving I guess :)
This is a shitty intro post and I might update it later, but I'm lazy af so who knows if that'll actually ever happen.
Always looking for mutuals! :D
Stats below cut
Height: 173 cm (5.8ft)
Hw/Sw: 70.4kg (155lbs)
Cw: 65.6kg (144lbs)
Gw: 65.0kg (143lbs)
Gw: 60.0kg (132lbs)
Gw: 55.5kg (122lbs)
Gw: 50.0kg (110lbs)
Let me know if I messed up with the imperial units lol
not a day goes by w/o monster <33
this one is my fav, n it only has 10 cals ^^
Not calories being up there as my recommendations 😭
Still stuck on my lw :/
I guess I am just not gonna eat till the scale changes numbers.
I need to treat food as a fuel not as a comfort.
Food is there to keep me alive not to taste good.
I want a gf/bf that also has 4n4 and we could star/ve together 🥰✨
How am I at my lw but my photos from before seem better like I was skinnier then? :((
I think my mind is plying games with me.
My new plan
Give me suggestions pls <3
I got a little frustrated today since I wasn’t loosing any weight for the past days and ate a normal calorie and didn’t p/urge afterward, but went to a short walk. Hopefully when I restrict again from tomorrow I’ll see some changes 🤞
I‘m stuck at my lw. I have barely eaten anything for the past 3 days and even if I did I p/urged all of it. I don’t know what to do anymore. Please give me some tips :))
Honestly I‘m at the point in my life, that I know I don’t even deserve food cause I’m a lost cause. I don’t really add anything valuable to this world and I don’t want to waste food, time, energy and resources, when probably someone else could use them and add actual value to the world.
Don’t wanna jinx it, but I‘m so close to my lw :)))
I can’t believe I am so bad at this!
More than three years of restricting, cal counting and p/urging for the most normal ass physic and a minimum weight loss.
I hate it so much!
Recently my fyp has been filled with people spraying clones or other chemical sprays on foods to avoid binging. I think I should try it!
I feel like such a phetatic human being. I think the reason why I want to reach my gw so bad is, that then for once I can achieve something in my life. I can’t wait for that day.
Whenever I watch people from body positivity movement, it just makes me not wanna eat. Is that weird?
I don’t understand how they can be happy with how they look and just eat more and more. I mean I‘m happy that they are happy, but I just don’t get it and don’t want to be like that.
Just found out about this girl, who also has 4n4. she is 18 and 37kg.
I am so fucking jealous!
Send me some questions if you like, I have to distract myself somehow :))
I know I’m not big, but am I in danger of flying away by wind? 🌬️
( Then you better stop calling me skinny )