Do you think that maybe, just maybe, they really are okay with being just friends? Or maybe they’re just really lonely. Either way I’ll take it over being used. We just watched tv for an hour and a half. Simple. I know he tried to be a good friend. Whereas him, Idk how to read. I can see in his eyes and the way he talks that he’s got some dark secrets behind those eyes. I can see that it’s hard for him to be okay with opening up. But, come on, you can’t just not talk. You can possibly be as apathetic as you pretend to be. and you, you can’t possible care about me the way you say you do. Why me? Why not all the other girls. I hope you all show your colors soon before I go color blind.
I don’t know why but I did it again last night. It was impulsive. It popped into my head and I got up walked to the bath room and did it like it was brushing my teeth. Without flinching or blinking. I ran over the first one a few times then decided it was inadequate and I needed to take advantage of the chance I was taking. So I did it twice more around the same spot. I wasn’t satisfied because the utensil was dull, but it had to do because I had people to see and places to be.
I didn’t lie, I just changed my mind.
This ring I accidently shoplifted from earth bound, well I’ve decided it will be my sanity ring. It says, “wherever you go, there you are”. I thought a lot about what this could mean and I decided that for me it means that the journey is the destination. And as long as I’m wearing it, I’ll remember everything will be okay. And as long as I wear it I’ll know that I’m awake.