hc + birth
HEADCANONS// ACCEPTING
I think theres a few scattered answers for her on that so i'll break those down. or i'll attempt to…
BIRTH ( medically ); it's another procedure she believes isn't taken as seriously as it should be. she was trained as any medic would be while serving but she didn't actually imagine she would be using this skill. she genuinely thought it would be a simplistic ( and horrifying ) as tournoquits, field procedures and stabilization. but when she was dropped into zones that required extra humanitarian aid, it was something she had to do and i think it was an absolute shock. you can say you understand that not every place in the world has the same access to medical care but when it was right in front of her in a hostile zone, you can't ignore it. she's delivered babies unsure of what happens to the mother and baby once they leave, and that gets brought back home with her. those are the moments that stick with her, and it becomes an advocacy point within her profession. if someone comes into the ER ready to pop, she's in there very calmly and focused on providing the best care with the best equipment that simply wasn't a luxury in a war zone. the matter of care for women, in particular within the medical system, is abysmal at best. the most dangerous thing a woman, or any person with the potential to give birth, can do is, in fact, become pregnant and give birth. alternatively, anyone who comes from a state where abortion isn't legal, she's working with efficiency and empathy to make certain the CHOICE is exercised and they are in control of their reproductive health. while i have not written her verse in its entirety, she would certainly be volunteering days and free time to women's clinics, shelters, veterans' hospitals and planned parenthood. this is an aspect she's willing to go to jail for or be reprimanded for.
BIRTH ( personally ): in saying all this, it's still something she wants for herself. she loves children, and her instincts to nurture are incredibly strong, but she doesn't ever imagine it's something she will get to do. the process itself, she would probably approach as very...clinical and almost obsessive in how she suddenly takes better care of everything within herself because she has a soul bound responsibility to her unborn baby.