picture Adam becoming more reckless as time passes because he tries to chase that feeling he heard Shiro worship so many times, that supposed freedom, that damned ecstacy, because he desperately needs to understand if it's worth enough for his lover to waste his life away, to leave him behind
and in his final moments, at the helm, going to unthinkable speeds trying to defend home, being the last one alive, he thinks
"It wasn't worth it, though"
so yeah, pass me the bottle back once you're done
do. youguys think adam blamed himself for shiro's death. because he wasnt able to convince him to stay
did his guilt turn into reluctant acceptance or grow and fester into something self destructive
lmk. pass me the bottle while you're at it