Agere Little - Blog Posts

caregiver with a black little that has internalized racism

always makes sure to put on shows with good black rep and buy books with black characters

does your hair all pretty in cornrows or box braids and adds colourful beads to it

always reassured you you're a good kid no matter what others assume about you

and that your skin and black features are very pretty

loves making your 'non-typical' agere meals that are a bunch of Jamaican foods (/foods from your ethnicity) your mom used to make for you

will do as much as possible to keep you away from the news when regressed

will NOT let anyone tell you that pastels don't look good on you

they're try to reassure you you don't need to worry about racism and stuff cause they'll protect you but sometimes they have to admit they can't protect you from everything and just let you cry in their arms

will teach you about strong black figures

helps you reconnect with parts of your culture your parents didn't share with you like reggae music

if you're African they'll wrap you in a bunch of African prints and celebrate Kwanzaa with you

Caregiver!Sevika coming home and you're still awake (by a little who may or may not be up way past their bed time)

You're waiting at the door for her when she comes back from work

"my little munchkin, what did we say before I left?"

" ... That you left a meal for me in da fridge ... Um dat I could has one ice cweam tweat..."

"and..."

"... n bed at 10"

She scoops you up into her arm and carries you up to bed

You're trying to go to sleep cause you know Sevika's all tired from her work day but you just can't and keep squirming around in her arms

She gives you some toy cars and lets you play with them for 20 minutes, but it's off to sleep right after that!

you run them up and down her prosthetic arm as she doses off having the cars race each other and jump over the shimmer cavern

After your 20 minutes are up she turns off the lights and locks her in bed under her strong arms

She softly sings you the lullabies her mother used to sign for her

you join her

"dear friend across the river..."

I think it's funny how the term nsfw changed from actually being about what you can't do at work to just a kinda general category of s*xual and v*olent things

Cause like agere is always about being sfw but it's not actually something you could do at work lol

I wish I had a caregiver that made sure I felt included in groups. That held me and rubbed my hand when I'm to tired to talk to remind me that they're still thinking of me and appreciating that I'm there.

Who makes a point to turn to me and respond if I try to say something but no one else listens. Who will ask me direct questions if I want to talk but I'm struggling to come up with something to say.

A caregiver that'll loudly say bye to me when I'm leaving so everyone notices and waves bye too

A caregiver that'll stand up for my needs when everyone else is ignoring them.

A caregiver that'll talk about me even when I'm not there, about how much they appreciate me and enjoy being around me

Your caregiver supporting of you after people were harassing/bullying you online:

⭐ After it first happens they immediately delete whatever app you're being harassed on off your phone

⭐If you're done with that app they'll delete your account

⭐If you want to keep your account they'll make sure to take off any personal information or pictures of you you put up on that account so you can feel safe knowing no one can track you down and hurt you more

⭐They come up with a bunch of other activities for you to do instead of using that app

⭐They'd show you a bunch of episodes about bullying from kids shows to make you feel less alone

⭐They'd reassure you that your feelings are valid and that online bullying is real bullying

⭐They make sure to tell you it wasn't your fault and that you didn't deserve that

⭐"but-but what if I was being a bad kid", "bubba, nothing you could do online would ever justify people threatening to hurt you"

⭐Would promise you that if anyone ever tried to follow through on a threat that they'd protect you

⭐They'd talk to you about what it would mean for you to get justice against the people harassing you

⭐If it would be a good idea to take evidence of people who sent you death threats and try to have their account banned or try to track down their school/job and show them the evidence

⭐Together you decided that it would be best for your mental health if you just deleted any messages and blocked them

⭐After a while if you wanted to go back to using that app they'd go through the notifications and block anyone who was harassing you and show you all the messages people sent saying they were sorry you were being treated that way

⭐You'd have your head in their lap, holding onto your favourite stuffie for comfort and they'd be scrolling on your phone

⭐"Are there a lot of them?", "That doesn't matter Bubba. You're safe and you have me here to protect you", "...okay"

⭐Every so often they'd stop and show you a kind message from someone and each time you'd feel just a little bit safer

⭐They'd respond to those messages for you

⭐If you weren't out as a regressor on that account they'd translate your little-talk about how you had big feelings but their messages were like kisses on your boo-boos to more adult sounding thank-yous

When your therapist asks you what you do for your mental health but you're a closeted regressor: oh you know I like to do colouring books (with crayons), talk to my friends (baby talk to them), cuddle (with stuffed animals), or I'll take a bath (with plenty of rubber duckies and bath toys)

when you can't regress so you hang out with you friends until they make you feel so excluded that you involuntarily regress

I feel like there's not enough love for age regressors that love yucky things

tw: a lot of yucky stuff (bathroom bodily functions, v*mit, blood etc)

like being so proud of the big dump you made

and burping sooo loud cause it's so fun to be so gross >:3

I just half burped half coughed up this liquid and I was curious about what it was so i spit it into a cup and I smelt sooooo icky I thought I was puke. that was sooooo cool!!!!!

and a few weeks ago I had a nose bleed and I collected it all in a cup and then I added hydrogen peroxide and it went all foamy and was sooooo cool

And also periods. One time when I was a tween I got so mad at my sister I tied together a bunch of tampons and threw them into her room

that was mean and I feel bad about it now

but yucky things are sooo cool our bodily functions are sooo cool and all the little things they give us from those functions are so fun

Hiii! I just made a community for age regressors to vent in :D

it's @@agere-venting, I had a lot of fun making it, I made the banner and pfp myself :D. I even added a list of hotlines if you need one :3

sooo plz join and share it maybe, that would make me really happy. thank youuuu!!!!

Here's my din din for today! With a little treat!

✨✨✨ A caregiver taking care of me when my vascular malformation has a flare up ✨✨✨

🫰I wake up and I'm trying to do my best to hide it but they can see that my hand is stuck in a ball and I'm holding it to my chest

🫰" what's wrong little one, is your hand hurting?"

🫰I start sobbing "uhh! It feewls so baddd, it's all one fire and like it's gonna burst outta my hand"

🫰"oh no, let me help you with that" they take my hand and guide me over to the bathroom sink then turn on the cool water and holds my hand under it

🫰I lean into them "ohhh, that feewls soo good"

🫰"how long has this been going on, sweetie?"

🫰I bury my head in their shoulder, "... a couple days"

🫰"why didn't you tell me before? You know I would have helped you?"

🫰"Cause I need to be a big strong boy"

🫰"you can be a big strong boy and also come to me for help"

🫰 they take me over to my bed and put me under a bunch of covers, wrap my hand in a cold, wet towel, and put one of my stuffies under it so it's elevated

🫰 "You should rest for now, here's an Advil. What do you want to watch?"

🫰"ooo, can we watch The Wild Robot?"

🫰"of course little one!"

🫰 the next day they get a sling for my arm so it's easier to keep to keep my hand elevated and reassures me that it's okay for me to wear even if I'm not 'injured' because it's helping me be in less pain

If you're curious about what a vascular malformation is: a bunch of the veins on my arm and on my back are like bigger than they're supposed to be or like tangled and stuff so sometimes blood clots form (they're harmless but painful) or just sometimes some veins expand and that causes a lot of pain in my hand. I'm pretty sure it's best if I keep my whole body cool but I love being cozy so I never do that >:)

Things that should have made me realise I'm an age regressor sooner

But they get less socially acceptable as they go on (plz DNI if you find padded regression and other things like it weird)

hoards of stuffed animals

"I hate being an adult cause when I'm in the grocery store all scared and alone I can't just start crying out for my mom because instead of someone assuming I'm lost, they'll just look at me weird"

always feeling like I was younger than all my peers even if they were actually slightly younger than me

like half the foods I eat I eat b/c they make me feel like a kid. Like my big treat for myself after a stressful week was a pack of paw patrol yogurt drinks

Getting super into kids media, like the only movie that interests me is The Wild Robot

feeling comforted by how period pads felt like diapers

Having trouble tinkling myself up until 10th grade

Still sleeping in my parents bed some nights in 7th grade

Still as an adult picking my nose (I know it's unsanitary and I'm trying to stop)

I got a thing of 96 crayons and organized them all so they're pretty :3

reparent yourself to get rid of the old unhealthy beliefs your parents instilled in you so you can put in new unhealthy beliefs you instilled in yourself

I made myself a sticker chart :3

I give myself a sticker whenever I do something hard. My first sticker was for spending 8 hours figuring out these two really hard assignments

I think once I've filled it all up I'll get myself a treat like a happy meal or some calico critters

caregiver helping a black age regressor through internalized racism

*caregiver is helping the little take a bath* "hey bubba, be careful, you're gonna hurt your skin" "I needs to get clean" "You only have to scrub a little to get clean, now you're gonna start tearing your skin" "no! I'm not clean enough yet. I needs to be clean like the pwetty girls on TV" "oh bubba," *picks you up and holds you* "you're not dirty, you're african and there are very many pretty girls on TV that look like you" "mmm... but they're not cared about like the clean girls" "bubba, all of those girls are clean and so are you. And yes sometimes people care more about the white girls but you don't have to worry about that because you'll always have me to care about you" "okay, mama... why can not people just care about all of us?" "because sometimes the world is mean and that's very sad but I'm here to protect you"

I weally hope one day I make a lotta money and cans have a whole nother room just for my regression stuff!!! there would be dinos on the walls and have a tent in it and a bunch of toys and I'd never have to put my toys away, they'd just always be out

shoutout to black age regressors that didn't get to be children bc their parents knew they wouldn't get to make the same mistakes that their white peers made who are now taking back the chance to be kids

you were never dangerous, you were just a kid ❤️

A caregiver that comforts you when you're too picky to eat what they made for you.

They take put care into your snack time, making you grilled cheese, with milk and grapes and they took the time to take the grapes off the stem so you wouldn't have to.

But when you're eating they notice you haven't touched the grapes

"what's wrong, I thought you loved grapes?"

"oh I'm sowwy, I do but when you take them off they get all squishy and icky and I... It's all icky I can't eat it"

"oh I'm sorry little one, don't worry I'll just get you more grapes that are still on the stem"

"but you put all that effort in and now it's going to waste"

"I put effort in so you can enjoy this meal, for you to have a bad time eating it would be putting my effort to just as much waste"

Sometimes I get worried I'll never be good enough to deserve a caregiver. I feel like caregiving is an inherently unequal thing of me letting someone see my weakest side where I can't produce anything to be good enough for them and why would anyone want to support me in that way if I'm not doing something for them in return.

I is so sick but I still made din din for myself

I wuv appy slices n sweet potatos sooooo much

When I tell them I'm an age regressor and they say 'okay, cool' and not 'can I be your caregiver'

is there a term in there agere community for like a crush but you want them to be your caregiver, not your partner???

'm bout to get bloodwork done and I know it's gonna be scary but sometimes they give me a juice box after so 'm gonna try to be brave and hopefully I get a juice box

tips for getting out of little space when you need to. (this is what I've found works for me, something different might work better for you)

Make sure you have ways to regulate your emotions when big so you don't slip back into little space when you first get stressed again

Try to ground yourself in your body, it'll remind you of your big age

And make sure you're happy with your body so it's easier to ground yourself. For me this means putting on gender affirming gear and a really dope outfit

Put on some less child friendly music you like

Try to change your surrounding and having some spaces where you regress and others where you don't

Make sure all your toys and other agere stuff is put away and preferably out of sight

If you feel comfortable put yourself in a situation where you can't regress (eg around ppl who don't know you regress)

Try doing things that make you feel like an adult, for me this is my sport (Kendo) and writing analyses of shows I like

don't try to act older than your big age, it might just make you feel like you're 'playing' adult and make you feel more little

And remember to not force yourself de-regress unnecessarily, it's your mind's way of healing and if you can try to work on stuff you need to do while regressed.

Remember those undies with the day of the week on them!!! I miss them, I wonder if they make them for adults

Age regressing while you're in asl class and doing animal signs is sooo fun. My favourite sign is turtle 🐢🐢🐢

The trans guy in me hates being 5'3 but the age regressor in me loves being 5'3. Someone come and pick me up ( っ˶´ ˘ `)っ

Age regressor Silco headcannons

⭐A toddler regressor, very quiet too when he's regressed unless he's in a tantrum

⭐Super secretive about it like the only people to ever find out were Vander, Felicia, and Jinx

⭐Regresses from stress which is normally from his workload or drama happening with the chembarons or shipment issues. Used to also be from loud parties and the last drop being too crowded

⭐Has a secret room filled with regressor things that he warns Sevika and his other workers to NEVER go into and to not bother him when he's in there no matter what

⭐Used to be a very well behaved little that just liked to make drawings and play with blocks but after his falling out with Vander he became very fussy and would throw tantrums almost every time he regressed

⭐Masks that he's regressed if he can't get to his safe room which normally means turning his 'crying and hitting the ground' tantrums into a 'beating up and firing the person closest to him' tantrum

⭐The others have learned how to pick up that he's about to throw a tantrum and leave as soon as there are warning signs

⭐This scene was one of his tantrums (s01e06, 'guns for hire' scene)

⭐Most of Jinx caregiving for him is her teaching him how to play as a kid and not just cry and hit stuff

⭐They doodle over stuff together, Silco is always a lot more shy with drawing over random things but Jinx gets him to open up

⭐By the end his art style is almost the same as hers. his drawings start out super scratchy, only using greys and stuff but they turn really colourful

⭐he loves having all his plushies and bottles covered in Jinx's drawings

⭐At first she tries to avoid drawing on his stuff to give him space when he's regressed but she finds he clings onto anything she's drawn on and she starts decorating more of his stuff

⭐If he's feeling really little she'll blow stuff up cause he likes the pretty colours but he always gets mad at her when he's big again

⭐ Jinx also regresses and she started suspecting he might when he first saw her regressed and immediately knew what was going on

⭐one day she heard him sobbing in his safe room and went in

⭐he was super upset and told her to get out but eventually she was able to get him to open up about it and she promised to care for him whenever he needs it

⭐sometimes Sevika will find their agere things around and Jinx will always take responsibility for it

Past Vander and Felica Stuff:

⭐Vander first found out when Silco went into a backroom of the last drop when it got too loud. Vander followed to check up on him and Silco quickly put away his notebook and crayons he was drawing with and tried to do his best impression of being big. Vander wasn't convinced Silco was okay and kept checking in on him.

⭐Later Vander followed up with Silco, asking him if he was actually okay back then and Silco admitted to him he regresses. he was really worried Vander would find him weird or think it was for weird reasons but Vander just asked him more about it and how he can help

⭐Vander then got Silco a bunch of stuff, markers, bottles, stickers, anything he could find

⭐Silco loved being held by Vander, it made him feel so small, being in Vander's big arms

⭐Felica found out when she walked in on Vander taking care of Silco. Vander tried really hard to cover for Silco but Silco decided he trusted her enough to tell her his secret

⭐She would occasionally take care of Silco if Vander was busy but he never liked her style of cging as much

⭐but when Vi was on the way he starting letting her be his cg a lot more so she could get some practice in and feel more sure of herself

⭐he would always be sure to tell her how good of a mama she is

Haiiii, here are some things that made me happy today!

These are toys I got, two of them were in kinder eggs and one was from a happy meal and the green axolotl dude was from one of those coin crank toy dispensers that I got after kendo practice! I wanted a pink one but I love the dude I got

I also baked a cake! I got this cake pan with a lid so I don't have to transfer it into a seperate storage container which is so nice cause that also means there are fewer dishes to clean. It's a rainbow sprinkle cake!

Also I got all my chores done. I cleaned up my room, I washed all my dishes, I meal prepped with extra veggies so I get to eat nutrients all week :D I'm very proud of myself.