Alternative Hapiness - Blog Posts

A Raw Unedited Entry from My Hand-Written Journal--My Dream

“31.10

My dream is to one day soon live in the Santa Cruz Mountains, or maybe somewhere in Washington, with no technology. I want to bring a whole library of books, a car, an iPod, a type write or MAYBE a laptop with only Word on it. I want to wakeup before sunset every day and hike while the sun is rising. I want to maybe go fishing. I will search the forest for treats...I won’t even need to shower. I can meditate. Maybe I’ll occasionally drive to the ocean and explore the area. I can find farmers’ markets and only buy from small businesses. I’ll have a garden next to my cabin. I can write a book, some poetry, a biography. I can journal. I could bring Bodhi (my Bernese Mountain Dog) to keep me company. Or maybe Louis + Barkley (my other two dogs). I’ve been dreaming about this for a while now and I might have to do it this summer. Maybe Ray + Anna will be nearby and they’ll be able to visit me.

I’d only use snailmail and I’d be so isolated I would have to row to the mainland everyday. 

I want this so badly.

I need this.

Then I might feel happy.”

--I wrote this late at night and I was in a pensive mindset. I was drawing a lot in my journal and I started to draw a picture of what happiness looked like to me, so i decided to add an accompanying description. Me writing this does not mean that I am not happy, it is just an alternative happiness. One that is less complicated, more straight-forward, and probably happier... 

a confidence in the heart, a tranquility in the mind