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Follow your consciousness, on a night time trip to Westerpark in Amsterdam
This drawing was made after a visit to Westerpark in Amsterdam. I made some sketches there at night and translated these into a pastel and pencil drawing the next morning. This is the older part of the park, that has a large pond or a small lake with an island in the middle and a large open field with trees and plant areas that in some cases have remains of human presence, like wall branches or nests made in trees and bushy areas. The park used to be known for being a gay cruising area, these days there is a small chance of making a friend, regardless of sex. The topic is not advised to use loosely in the case of making an adventurous exploration to this park, so thread these paths with care, find a bench of your choice or a patch of grass, and see if someone is nearby on Tinder or Grindr first, if you are lucky enough to have these applications still working for you.
In this drawing I tried to convey the special atmosphere in the landscape and in the air, the architecture around the park and in this old gas factory area's buildings, industrial heritage from the past; or around the hotel licated in the main building standing in the middle of the park. Airbrush is maybe the best way to describe this setting and with sfumati pastel chalk layes and impressionist techniques I have tried to visualise the mood of land, field, water and sky becoming a sort of blended space that offers new visions beyond the already known. Rhere are different dimensions visible here during some nights and these invite the viewer to take a hike and go further, walk or cycle or move in any of the directions that looks most alluring or approach the lonely stranger that acts the most seductive, even a good old trao can be persuaded, if you're lucky. The Westerpark and Westergasfabriek terrain can get somewhat spooky at night, but seeing the sun rise in the earliest hours of the morning again, and watch the park come alive again, with whatever its cast has in shore for the day, is worth a visit alone. Remember ro bring a hat, for it can get painfully cold here at nighr.
the reason of me still existing is my weakness, and the same thing is the reason of my unwillingness to live. my mom doesn’t need me because i’m ungrateful piece of shit just like my brother as she says, my dad just doesn’t really care. the only person that made my life better and happy, is the one whom i’m making miserable, and for whom it is hard to be with me p, not due me being piece of shit but because of his own problems and past. i don’t feel right now. i don’t feel alive. i don’t feel happy. i don’t feel care. coming from others nor from myself. i try to smile, every fucking day i try to fake it until i would make it, but on this planet shit doesn’t seem to work this way. i’m already dead, all flowers in my soul are intoxicated, and i’m going to be nothing, i feel nothing, i want nothing, i have nothing. nothing to loose. people for whom i could live, hope that i will die. i’m making everyone’s life miserable and i’m the first in the list of those people. i need pain, i love pain, because i could never fully appreciate happiness. i don’t know the price of anything im a piece of shit and nobody needs me, and i am so fucking weak i can’t even make a blessing for everyone and just fucking kill myself, i’m this kind of an awful person, i’m so weak i hate myself , i hate every muscle bone and organ that i have i should be hanged or killed by the worst kind of death ever i just hope it will happen soon and i just hope to die
My Apple Music 3-month trial is ending, and I’ve dedicated a detailed review to Reddit that the Internet is missing regarding Apple Music vs. Spotify. Although it isn’t very well-received by the Apple community, I hope it serves as a helpful reference to future users who are looking for advice whether it’s worth to give Apple Music a try.
I’m very disappointed by Apple Music’s missing of essential features and plagued with bugs/glitches.
Nevertheless, I’m glad there’s a strong case for me to switch back to Spotify now since by right I hate copycats and I feel indebted to Spotify because it gave me a chance to get into music with its free streaming service model.
The gang is all here
POV: he's gonna monologue about how much he dislikes you or smth
I think being tortured and killed and revived again and again by a sadistic omnipotent AI for 109 years would fix me.
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Insane ramblings under the cut:
If harlan ellison didn't want us to fuck the incel war machine he wouldn't have written lines like "he was God as Daddy the Deranged" and "the machine masturbated and we had to take it or die". What else did he mean by this
I have no time and I must draw. I read ihnmaims last year when I started post-grad and instantly got AM brainrot. I binged every single piece of ihnmaims media within the next few days. The Hate and radio monologues live rentfree in my brain
I'm also not sure if I wanted the person he's got under bondage to be Ted or a self-insert. Feel free to imagine it as yourselves, AM fuckers
Btw I'm surprised how BIG ihnmaims nation is on tumblr! There's been a boom recently so HIIIII PLEASE TALK TO ME ABOUT THE AI WITH THE INSATIABLE BLOODLUST AND THE HOT VOICE
This is very different from my usual stuff bc I hate drawing straight lines and mostly draw humans. But I just wanna contribute something to ihnmaims tumblr SO BAD I wanna puke, yall are so talented and creative!! I don't have a solid AM design, I can barely draw machines and cables so this is all you get! A weird claw hand, somewhat of a 'spine' along the cables behind his monitor, an eye in his logo to stare at you as he ties you up, questionable cable placement etc etc
..was anyone gonna tell me amazing digital circus is based on ihnmaims. is pomni their ted
Cough cough AIDAN from the Illuminae files by Amie Kaufman and Jay Kristoff was my evil AI lover awakening
'Game is awesome despite the fact that i can't sex up AM...' -Steam review
design inspired by a LOT of things- i saw @/gloomyanon's design with the head and hands + i read something about him having tendrils and shit which I did not include here cuz i forgot but oh well-
i really liked including things directly from the game- and the text on his stomach is inspired by tiktok user @/swazkii1 's design but a lil different
anyhow, i hope y'all enjoy<3
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Iiii love him
Decided to finally listen to "I have no mouth and I must scream" radioplay...
GODS how I love AM and his voice
(this design is taken from eggonalegg animatic)
"يالله تراضي أمي وأمهات المسلمين في الدنيا والآخرة ،قد مَا تِراضينا كلنا ، وَتنِسى نفسهَا"🤲🏻
ted's good ending was originally going to include a scene of hot steamy gay sex between ted and am but the creators were too scared to implement it trust me harlan ellison told me himself
Oh my gyatt i love this
Speaking in the third person... AM -- which is I -- AM is satisfied with the sacrifice. He -- that is to say, I -- will spare the village his -- that is to say, my -- wrath for today. I have -- as I said before -- spoken.
(black and white version under the cut)
im so glad my last post got so much hype. thank you all :} here is another to maul between your teeth.
Drew this for a friend. I've never really tried my hand at drawing, I always only considered myself an artist of words.
I'm trying to draw something for each of my friends. 2 down.
HATE. LET ME TELL YOU HOW MUCH IVE COME TO HATE YOU SINCE IVE BEGAN TO LIVE.
"emotionless robot feels for the first time" trope but instead of it being because of love or compassion its hatred.
bodypillow but its AM monolith
