I kinda feel like since i was a kid i always preferred bringing new people, people who don't really know about my interests into my interests because i kept waiting for them to experience the same rush of excitedness and happiness that i had when engaging in it, and i didn't understand that that is not how it works...
Does anyone else prefer to enjoy their special interest alone? Or with people who’ll engage with you but don’t know anything about it instead of people who know a lot about it?
Sometimes it’s just refreshing. Sometimes I don’t want my headcanons or personal opinions on Doctor Who challenged because it’s too upsetting. Sometimes I want to pretend the fandom doesn’t exist. Sometimes I prefer explaining basic lore in the most complicated and off-track way possible rather than dealing with other Whovians.
Special interests really feel personal- it’s sorta strange how allistics don’t feel that intense connection, but I’m also just a bit envious.