there were about a million reasons why barbieland was far superior to the real world; and yet, this barbie too wondered about the world beyond those pink plastic walls. she wasn’t smiling anymore, instead, she took all the information allan was giving her in, nodding her head ever so slightly. " i get it, " she’s quick to affirm and support her friend, though her own mind has been subjugated to peculiar thoughts lately. she wasn’t even phased anymore about the language used by other dolls, it became a habit for such words to be uttered with nonchalance. " but you’re not alone, allan. i think we’re all broken or sick or … " there’s a pause, in which she tries to find the appropriate term ; it was easy to feel the feeling, but not so much to explain it, it seems. " we are simply becoming something else. i don’t think we were meant to stay the same. nothing is. just because we take the same route everyday doesn’t mean it’s supposed to be the same. i’ve noticed recently more dolls seem to have problems with their schedules and everything. but that’s okay. " it wasn’t, because she doesn’t know why that happens, only that she accepts it. but there’s a small flicker for knowledge, a hunger that no pancake could fix. " i think we should take a trip into the real world and see where the journey will take us. we can conduct, as scientist barbie said, an experiment. and, if the conclusions are good for us, maybe the others can join. "
b4rbieroberts asked: 🙶 do you really want to leave barbieland? 🙷 / sidenote but i think allanland should be a thing. i'm just saying....
" YES. " did he say that a bit too quickly ? there's a lot there.
a sigh. he sits down next to barbie , looking out at the painted pink sky. " i mean , i feel like i'd be lost .. but when ken came back , he seemed like a completely new person. i wanna feel like i belong. you've always been nice to me though , barbie. i just .. i'm just so gosh darn confused ! " he threw the d word in there. surely if the other barbie's would hear such a phrase uttered , they'd be disgusted. but he wants to be real with barbie. REALLY REALLY REAL. like , not plastic.
" i think about dying a lot. "