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Heather:To our dear fathers me and my brother hope you’re well. I’m here to ask you something. Originally it’s was me and Henry but he was afraid to ask this question. So here is my question Did you guys ever had a big argument like it was so big that it almost ended up you to going to yours merry ways and never seeing each other again.

(Henry appear out of nowhere) Henry: Or if you guys our uncomfortable with this question and possibly mad at us for asking such a personal question! So you don’t have to answer it.

Heather:Henry what are you doing?

Henry: oh I’m just telling our dads that if they feel uncomfortable that they shouldn’t answer the question.

Heather: ok but why did you threw the line “Possibly mad at us for asking such a personal question”

Henry:Hey you don’t know if they would be mad or not about this.

Heather:(sighs)

Dearest Heather and Henry,

You have no need to be so afraid to ask such a question. If ever there is a question that he, or I, or anyone does not want to answer, we would simply choose to not answer it. We are under no obligation to do so. That being said, such a question can be answered in a very simple and non-invasive way, and thus we (or, I suppose, I) will do so.

There is a short answer and a long answer to this. I will answer first in the shorter way. In terms of interpersonal relationships, I do believe it's impossible to never get in any arguments. The difference is in if these are disagreements, arguments, or full-on fights. I do try not to let it escalate to that final stage, as that makes it far more difficult to reconcile. The most important thing is ensuring that you have an honest communication with the people around you.

That being said, Albert and I haven't been in this new stage of our relationship long enough to have too many arguments in the vein of splitting apart like that. The closest we've gotten to such a thing would be when I told Albert to leave London as soon as the trial was over.

I feel quite ashamed for my actions towards him, especially at that time. I had gotten to the point where I no longer cared if I hurt him emotionally, nor how badly I would hurt him, so long as he survived the experience. And, while that may be something one can forgive oneself for, I am truly ashamed of my actions.

I did not care if he left forever. I did not care if he would never recover. When he sent me letters from Germany, both in the years leading up to his London trip and the months following, I never once responded until after I had managed to recover from the final trial.

I learned a lot of difficult things about my family. I had to rethink quite a bit about my life and my actions. I found what I had done to be unforgivable, and yet he forgave me anyways. He is an incredible man, better than I could ever be. No one deserves a love like him.

And so, I will always try my hardest to ensure he feels listened to, understood, cared for. It is the absolute least I can do to help him. Any argument can be overcome so long as the person is worth it. And for him... anything is worth it.

Lord Barok van Zieks

Hello there I’m the one who asked about the Benbaro twin question and right now I wanted to ask what Barok and Albert think?

Sorry that my art is bad.

To childrenofozstory,

This art pierced through my heart. It is utterly wonderful, a delightful idea of what could be in an ideal world. I myself have never wanted to have children, but the thought of raising these two children with my lovely partner is... incredibly appealing. I adore the idea that Heather takes after her father in science, and I am a large fan of polka dots. (Additionally, Iris has been teaching me how to braid hair.)

As for Henry, I do quite like his hair. The mix of Albert's and mine, and the volume and texture of his hair... I know that Benjamin is quite a fan of his particular look, and I cannot help but feel the same.

Life with these two would be an absolute dream. These twins will be on my mind for... quite some time now.

With fondness, Lord Barok van Zieks

To Albert and Barok let’s just say you two had twins a boy and a girl what would you name the kids?

What a delightfully difficult question, anon!

As may not surprise you, I haven't put much thought into having children. I hope I do not need to explain why. That being said, I brought it up with Barok and we both have some things of note about names. I personally believe that twins should have names beginning with the same letters, and he truly enjoys the idea of naming children after plants.

I suggested Henry or Henrietta, and perhaps Harold. Maybe Harry. He thought that perhaps we could go with Heather and Hyacinth. I don't believe I can narrow it down from that list without any help! I have a hard enough time making other, even less important decisions.

What a thought, though. I love it! Albert Harebrayne

benjamin if barok van zieks were a worm would you still like him

Dearest Ribbonroad,

I am already quite fascinated by Barok in his human form, I would be only more interested if he suddenly became a worm! I would have to examine how different he is as a worm, what it was that turned him into one (a woodland faerie, perhaps?), what his favorite foods would be, how he reacts to rain.

I love him quite a lot, and I would still very much love him in any other form! Especially if that form was a worm.

With love, Benjamin Dobinbough

Hi!!!

Albert what is the nicest thing Barok van Zieks has done for you?

Hello, anon!!

Having been asked this question twice in such few days, I have been reflecting on the relationship between the two of us. All my life, I have never had a friend like him. He understands me in a way that no one else does. And, I know that he does not judge me for who I am, how I act, and, most importantly, how I feel.

And so, it is with this knowledge that I brought up my particular feelings towards him the other night. The two of us were laying in comfortable silence in the morning, as we often do, when I expressed the depth of my affection towards him, how much he means to me.

I can now say with confidence that the nicest thing Barok has ever done for me is to return my affections, and enter into this exciting new part of my life. I cannot wait to see where our experiment goes from here.

With a heart light as a feather, Albert Harebrayne

Benjamin, what is the nicest thing barok has ever done for you?

Dearest Anon,

I must admit, it's rather hard to figure out an answer to that question. Not only have we had a lot of happy memories together, I also often have trouble remembering what's happened in recent times. People have joked that I have the memory of an ant... Hah...

I suppose that may be the nicest thing he's ever done. I am a strange man. Everyone who meets me knows that I am rather eccentric. Barok does the simple task of not poking fun at me. He accepts me as I am, and he is my truest friend.

I also appreciate his generous offer to let me live with him, rather than having to pay for lodging now that I have chosen to return to London. I will always be grateful for such things he does for me.

Barok if you had a dog… what would you name them?

Dear Anon,

I'm afraid I don't quite know what I would name a dog if I had one. I do have a rather strained relationship with that species, no matter the breed. All dogs remind me of my brother, as he was quite the fan of such animals. And thinking of dogs in relation to my brother leaves me in quite a foul mood. It is something that I am working on.

I suppose when I was younger, I would have taken inspiration from him. He took his dog's name from a work of classic literature, and I suppose I would do the same. In that case, something like Excalibur would be the best I could come up with.

Though, Benjamin and I have been discussing bringing some kittens into our lives...

Signed, Lord Barok van Zieks

Barok, what are your feelings on Benjamin?

Anon,

I find it hard to say what a profound difference my friend has made on my life. He made me feel like a normal person in a world that I simply could not comprehend. He showed me that, despite being different, despite my constant and unshakeable sadness, I am still someone worthy of being cared for.

I do not know how he feels about me. I do not know if he is aware that he changed my entire life. He makes me feel warm, and cared for, and like I can be a better person. I know that I have been prejudiced and terrible in the past... he makes me feel as though I can do better. I want nothing more than to be better. For him. I want to be a man I... we. Both of us can be proud of.

Barok,

What does Benjamin even study for a living? He seems both enthusiastic but also a little confused

Anon,

Benjamin can be... a bit of a fool. That being said, he is quite enthusiastic about what he does. He studies the sciences. I know that lately, in the field of science, they have started differentiating based on specialties but Benjamin is, at heart, a scientist.

I do not think he necessarily has an end goal. I feel as though he studies simply anything and everything. Whatever interests him, whatever it is that he wants to know, he will do research into the subject. He has a particular fondness for birds, musculature, and machinery.

I do not appreciate when people try to insinuate that what he does is worthless. He already struggles because of what Enoch had done to him, and he does not need more pressure of that kind. I feel as though he simply has an endless fondness for learning. All he wants to do is learn more about the world around him. I see that as a noble task.

Lord Barok van Zieks

Dear Benjamin, when you say Barok treats you well, what do you mean? He must be unfathomably rich.

Dear uniquartz,

It is hard to overstate how much happier I am with Barok at my side. He provides money for my experiments, takes me on regular walks around London, even brings me to fine dining restaurants with seemingly endless options for food. I can hardly believe how long the menus are. A few weeks ago, he bought me a pet canary, as he knows I adore birds! What a fine man.

He has measured me for new clothing, and I am pleased to announce that I now have some more proper suits. He also bought me new lab coats, goggles, gloves, tools, and various safety gear. He has given me a room of my own wherein I may conduct all of my experiments--even some of the rather explosive ones--provided I keep water within the room to put out any fires I may cause.

He also offered me my own bedroom, but I felt as though that would be imposing too much. I offered to sleep on the couch, but he asked if I would prefer to sleep in his bed instead. I couldn't say no to such an offer... his bed is very comfortable. And on occasion, he wraps an arm around me and pulls me close. I believe it's because he's so cold all the time...

Fondly, Benjamin Dobinbough

Dear Benjamin, I’m glad to hear that Barok is treating you well! I do hope you don’t mind my curiosity, but what do others think of your, uh, friendship with him? All the best, Ivy

Dearest Ivy,

Yes! Barok treats me incredibly well. I could never have imagined living in such luxury, he is the perfect gentleman. As for your question...

I am not entirely understanding why you are talking about our relationship in such a way. Why do you hesitate to call it a friendship? As for what others think of it, well... despite my love for my screwdrivers, it is hard for them to formulate an opinion that is not my own. I rarely speak to anyone else.

You have me worried now. Should I talk to someone? Who should I talk to? What should I say to them? What do I do? Do you think Enoch would know something about this? He seems intelligent...

Concerned, Benjamin Dobinbough

to Benjamin- you sound very fond of Barok. What made you want to get back in contact with him after ten years?

Dear Uniquartz,

You are quite the astute observer! I am rather fond of Barok... The two of us were very close friends in our years at university. He is the closest friend I've ever had! One of the only friends I've ever had...

Oh, my... I can think of only three friends... well, that is to say, three human friends... that I have ever had. That is rather worrying. Perhaps I should get out more. (Not to mention one of those friends tried to ruin my dreams...)

That being said, I had missed him greatly. He invited me to visit him in his home and I could not turn down such an offer. I have struggled with money in the past, and he is helping me to save my pennies. As I said, he is a very, very kind man. I care deeply for him.

Best, Benjamin Dobinbough

Benjamin, how is living with Barok? - 🌹

Dear 🌹,

I love living with Barok! You would not believe the amount of money one saves when he need not pay for housing or food. I have put on a tad bit of weight--something I previously thought impossible, as my food was rather inedible. And yet now I have time! And food! And funding! And though Dr. Drebber may have had a point about my scientific abilities, well... I still enjoy my projects!

I am quite seriously considering visiting him. I do not know how long his sentence will be. There was something comforting about his presence, his designs, the whir of the robotics upon his hand. I do believe the two of us would make quite a formidable scientific pair, if given the chance.

And, Barok takes wonderful care of me! He buys me clothes, gives me allowance, he even allows me to sleep in his bed! What a kind man.

Scientifically, Benjamin Dobinbough