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Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 13: Broken

All I want is to hold you. Nothing more – and nothing less. I know that when I do, I can pretend it to be us. Not just empty shells. I can pretend things to be fine, even if it is just for a moment. I can almost pretend to feel, because – I do somehow. I do remember how warm it felt to touch you, to be with you. That’s enough for me. But all you ever do, is telling me that I can’t. Telling me that it’s not true. That you can’t feel me, even when I am near to you, that it feels like a lie at best. That you don’t want me to touch you, because it makes you realize how false all of this is. How false we are. We don’t have hearts. We can’t feel. Then why does it hurt that much?

This was actually the first fill I drew for Akusaimonth. Yep, that’s the day I entered. I decided afterwards that I will do them in the right order and let that sketch be. Which was a good thing too, because it actually looked terrible. xDDD Phew, good to see that I got better at drawing those two in the last two weeks.