But Man - Blog Posts

This is... uh, too relatable currently. Man, I'm looking for a job but can't really find one, so I'm just home all the time. I literally don't leave my house and barely eat, and I know I'm being super unhealthy, but I can hardly muster up the energy to make myself a sandwhich, let alone leave the house. And I know farther that i feel better when I'm surrounded by people, but getting the energy to actually plan something is a completely different mountain that I really don't want to bother with, so I just... lay in bed every day. Listing this out though, I think I might invite a friend to hang out today, I really do need to get out of my house

i saw a post about how modern tv suffers from the death of filler and it got me thinking about how it's exactly one of the problems i have with jjk: we didn't spend enough time with the characters.

and don't get me wrong, i love them all, but i would have just liked to see more of them interacting besides when they're fighting for their lives, because there ARE tidbits of it and they're so good and they also enhance the story because you get more attached to the characters and the emotional stakes are higher.

the flashback to where yuuji, nobara and megumi mess up gojo's shirt? hilarious, and it makes the scene of nobara's death even more heartbreaking. the part after yuuji is presumed dead, and the room goes dead silent when megumi mentions yuuji taught him how to cook the food they were eating? imagine how much harder that would have hit if we actually saw it.

i want more! i want to see megumi being forced to give nobara and yuuji a tour of tokyo, i want to see them making a mess in the kitchen while attempting to cook something, i want to see hakari and kirara being bad influences on their underclassmen, i want to see choso and yuuji bonding via usual siblings shanenigans, i want to see gojo convincing inumaki to use his cursed technique to pull a stupid prank on nanami, i! want! more!

STOP DON'T MAKE US CRY

Moon and stars domino twins?? Anyone??

I’ve written tons of characters, but as this is my original fandom, my first fandom I got into when I was younger, the first anime / manga and story I ever truly indulged in, I can say even with all the new stories, and new characters I’ve come to love, that after watching Tsuioku-hen / Trust and Betrayal once again, and knowing I will once again, glean it apart, that Kenshin Himura will always, always, be that one character (TM). 

Personal and fond musing under the cut.

I have so much to say, and each time I watch I have feelings and emotions and the ability to relate to him and understand him in a way I just...even eight months hasn’t dulled. I really don’t want to go without someone I deeply, fictional or not, empathize and relate with so personally ever again. I think his story and his character so similar to mine in personality to an eerie degree, the fact that we both are pacifists, achingly gentle people, and always strive to shield others has always resonated with me. His tragic life has resonated with me, and he has always given me hope that /my/ life that has had no small tragedies will be better because good things come to him.

This is a deeply personal post, but basically I don’t mind being compared to other characters, I always will humbly as possible find similarities in others and thank you!, that is our nature, but some characters are just that one character, that one story, that one you always thinks, ‘man we’re alike’.

And Rurouni Kenshin and Kenshin Himura are that. He will always be my favorite character. He will again, always to me, be unprecedented. The things he stands for, the things he wants to be, the countless lives he’s impacted and that innate aching kindness that he cannot let go of no matter what stage of his life...this isn’t even me being dorky, this is me completely serious that Kenshin will always be my favorite character in anything of all time. Not only that but we resonate deeply with one another. That’s something I wouldn’t trade, and honestly his story gives me hope for myself. That people like me can find peace and healing and purpose and always protect others.

This post doesn’t mean I don’t write other muses who have a different, but in their own way, equally special place in my heart, like Lucina, etc. But as I slowly invite friends once again to this place, this very, special, safe, sacred place, both in my heart and mind, engraved in me forever, I only hope that you even a little bit, cherish him as I do so wholly and utterly.

But yes, if you wanted to know Lily’s 20+ year favorite character going on into forever or as long as she’s alive, the character she arguably at the end of the day would  say she’s most like, most on keel with, can never let go of, will always carry those engraved messages inside her, then it’s Kenshin Himura, hands down.

Some stories and characters you come home to. And for me I guess every time I come here, I almost imagine someone telling me ‘welcome home’ just like in the story.

For those who write, those who empathize and resonate spiritually with a fictional story and character, I too, hope you find someone who is this for you. There is nothing wrong with finding yourself in stories. It’s natural and I encourage you. I hope that once more, I glean even further and more deeply into Kenshin than ever before. If you read this, thank you very much, I think those who know me know what this man means to me.

how it feels not being able to play a game you’ve so desperately been wanting to play for years

I JUST WANNA PLAY THE SILENT HILL GAMES SO BAD PLEASE 😭😭😭