nevermind, my family is the walk on eggshells family. its just not all the time. either you have to constantly walk on eggshells the entire day or hours with my father and my mother does nothing about him, or its around both of them, or its around all three of my family members, so my parents and my brother, because my brother will get all touchy and the second i upset him even if its not even my fault i'm getting yelled at.
but like then i think about the kids who have worse off than i do and like...my problems aint that bad. yeah my dad told me im not allowed to say no to him when he wants a hug or anything like that, which is kind of weird but its not like he did anything. yeah, my dad threatens to beat the shit out of me (exact wording) but he only ever hits me when he snaps or when i was younger. yeah my mom told me it would be cheaper if i killed myself but i'm not sure she meant it.
i mean yeah, sometimes they do or say stuff that that really hurts (like today my dad treated me like an inconvenience because right now im on crutches and he even said no matter what i do i'll end up being one because he thought that would make me feel better) but like its not like...they're abusive??? i dont think so i mean yeah some stuff really really sucks and all but they dont hurt me physically