Reminder that it's perfectly okay to have kinks, wants, and thoughts. It's okay to like something or think about doing something that might not be considered morally acceptable by the majority of people.
Wanting ≠ Doing
Thinking ≠ Doing
You could think "I want to kill somebody", but you know for a fact you're not GOING to. You could think "God I really want to kill myself" but you know for a fact you're not GOING to. You could think "I want to hurt myself and/or hurt others" but you know for a fact you're not GOING to.
Don't feel ashamed about your kinks or thoughts or anything. You're not going to hurt somebody by just thinking or fantasising, and you shouldn't be hated for it either.
This also goes for roleplaying in bed, roleplaying the topic online, consuming media that contains fictional representation of the topics, or imagining it while you're doing something. If your kink is something illegal (the popular kinks are) or something that people would shun you for, then doing any of the above is fine since you're not encouraging it in real life, and you're not DOING it.