Chaotic Mind - Blog Posts

Chaotic academia is

1.) Intense obsessions that last maybe two weeks but consume your soul

2.) Spacing out in class but loving to learn

3.) Swearing and slang while discussing deep academic topics

being 25 is like: im dying. im living my best life. im a failure. my life hasnt started. everything interesting has already happened to me. im achieving my dreams. im cutting my hair with kitchen scissors. im starting a skincare routine. im a corporate professional. im a sellout. im out of groceries. i have too many groceries. i am never going to be successful. i am going to win a hugo award before im 30. im crazy. im boring. i need to finish this essay. i need to finish this story. i need to start a newsletter. i need to start tweeting more. i need to stop tweeting. i need to ghost all my friends. i need to tell my friends i love them. i need to find a new apartment. i need to take out the trash. i am the trash that needs to be taken out. 

I'm so sorry to everyone who tries to recommend something to me

that show you have every intention of watching and you are 100% confident that you’ll love but you refuse to watch right now because its not the right time.

Okay so. This is my brand new blog right? And when I was registering Tumblr asked me how old I am. And my chaotic ass brain went, "Actually, how old am I?", and I just randomly looked at the calendar, saw it is February 24th today and went, "Ah yes, 24. Thank you, calendar."

If this is not a perfect example of coming to the right conclusion through wrong reasoning then I don't know what is.

“You must have chaos within you to give birth to a dancing star.”

-Friedrich Nietzsche

My desk/dorm area

the aftermath of studying for 11hrs

Gender reveal party?

You're mistaken, it's a

GANDER REVEAL PARTY

*I release geese into the party, turning it into absolute chaos, and watch it from my seat on the roof*

(Chaotic context, don't mind it)

My crossing surface leads me to a memory

All the mountains of thoughts,they reach out

to hang me on the wall of open doors,

they take me away in the nothingness..

It urges to be eater,it crawls, ties me up..

I'm not ready to be observed yet..

Darkness is a crossover , I don't want to lose it.

-t.f.s.