Darkest Academia - Blog Posts
Are you becoming what you've always hated?
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“A golden cage is still just a cage.”
-Anita Krizzan
“You must have chaos within you to give birth to a dancing star.”
-Friedrich Nietzsche
“All our knowledge has its origins in our perspectives.”
-Leonardo da Vinci
“Time is a game played beautifully by children.”
-Heraclitus
“Show me a hero, and I’ll write you a tragedy.”
-Francis Scott Fitzgerald
“A morbid longing for the picturesque at all costs”
-Donna Tartt, The Secret History
it's so weird re-reading this two years later. i remember that time and i remember how stressed and anxious about it all i was. i remember thinking i might fail and how scared i was of disappointing everyone but first and foremost myself, but now that i know how this year was going to go for me i realize how silly it was of me to be this scared. of course at the time it wasn't silly and those feelings were absolutely valid but in retrospect, oh how i hurt myself stressing myself out and doubting myself so much. i wish i could tell 2021 me that everything was going to be alright and that i should trust myself more.
but maybe i can still say that to myself. maybe i can use this experience to help me trust myself more today. come back to this when in doubt. 🩶
09.12.2021 (i'm belgian so i use the dd.mm.yyyy date format)
i couldn't possibly tell you how happy and grateful i am right now that my first little post could attract so many responses. never in a million years could i have imagined that people would like it that much and i didn't expect it to gain more than 10 notes and here we are almost a month later (i'm sorry) and it has gathered almost 70x that amount. i am so grateful to each and one of you for interacting with this post and giving me the confidence to continue posting on this account.
i hope that in the future i can continue to create content that you guys will like and that will have a positive impact on others, know that i will try my best to post interesting things and helpful posts.
today i'm studying at the library again. i'm working on my literary analysis class because my exam is next week and i am terrified i will fail and that for various reasons.
the first of them is that this year is extremely important for me as i have failed my 3rd year of BA this september and i am currently retaking it having changed my minor from musicology to english, which means i cannot afford to fail this year again. besides in the past i've usually got very good grades in my english classes and thus my parents are expecting a lot from me this year as all my classes are english classes. finally, as i have to take both 1st year and 2d year classes in the same year some things are harder for me as i don't have the necessary knowledge the second year classes are build upon and my literature TA kindly agreed to share with me the course's slides before everyone else so i could work in advance, therefore i'm worried i'll fail and disappoint him given that he has been so kind to me this semester and made exceptions to his rules to help me with the class, i want to show him it was worth it and he was right to trust me.
all in all i am worried i'll fall short of all these people's expectations. i try to stay confident and give my best in my studying but that lingering feeling of inadequacy is never far away hidden in some dark corner of my mind.
my advice to myself and to all of the people reading this that are feeling the same things, is to try and remember that these are just feelings and not facts and that we are stronger than the mean anxious voice in our minds. let's continue to work hard (without overexerting ourselves) to prove to ourselves first and foremost that we are capable of doing this and that we're great no matter what, that academic success is not all that matters and that we have many other qualities that define us way better than our ability to regurgitate knowledge in an exam, in conditions that are not those of real life. 🤎
Sunbeams swam across the horizon, but you nurtured a pounding wound inside your chest. You just walked away, but could barely stretch your fists at them. No you were not kind ,you were agonized. You eventually learnt to grow flowers in your eyes and creepers in your ribs and kept rowing through the same eras our ancients trailed.
Her Schrödinger's Cat, Seventh Insight
Indeed, joy can be extracted even from the tiniest mortal and immortal creations. And indeed, sorrow can be inhaled within every single blink underneath the sky. The past transcends the boundaries of the present and devours every reason to leave this ephemeral juncture of bones and blood.
-Her "Schrödinger's Cat" , First Insight
It's so true!
the agony you fall into as soon as you finish a book that has changed your life is unbearable. it's slow and wears you out from within, making you burn in solitude. everything around you is different and it's as if you ended up with the book itself.
My brother never touches his cricket bat with his feet. It will anger the gods within it, he says. The goalkeeper of my football team kisses the goalpost before the beginning of a match, a silent prayer to the deity within. My sister never puts her paintbrushes on the floor and my father holds his stethoscope with unmatched devotion. You see, the gods are what you want them to be, where you want them to be. In your mother’s lap, in your best friend’s hug, in the coffee you are almost addicted to, in the equipments of the gym you love working out in or in the books you bought but will never read. The gods are wherever you want them to be. The gods are wherever you need them to be.
━━ 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐞 𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐞
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`· . . ݁₊ ⊹ ✿𝐌𝐚𝐲⊹
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Blessed are those who do not fear solitude, who are not afraid of their own company, who are not always desperately looking for something to do, something to amuse themselves with, something to judge. If you are never alone, you cannot know yourself.
Paulo Coelho, Manuscript Found in Accra
my first post<3
HI<3 this is my first post on Tumblr as you can tell. I am trampstampedfairy from tik tok, pinterest, instagram, spotify, and I know I have other platforms I just currently cannot remember what they are. I also would like to say this will probably be my most active account I have (other than spotify ofc, I am obsessed with making playlist;) I am also currently grounded from my phone so I am using my laptop to post. I needed a detox from my phone though and need to focus on school work more.
Anyways lots of love <3
Add in the distant rumble of thunder and constant rush of a heavy downpour, a bit of chill in the room yet comfort from the warm embrace of the fire 🤎
Cinnamon rolls, dark roast coffee, and a great book is the greatest combo you can have when sitting in front of the fire.
"Those who are able to see beyond the shadows and lies of their culture will never be understood, let alone believed, by the masses."
- Plato
"Solitude is independence."
- Hermann Hesse, Steppenwolf
echoes from the halls of knowledge
which would you prefer?
option 1: to die young, having lived a life overflowing with adventure, excitement, and fulfillment, and never having to experience the decay of your youth
option 2: to die old, having lived a life of deep connections, rich experiences, and simple pleasures, yet needing to watch yourself and those you love slowly descend into the grave
"It is the spectator, and not life, that art really mirrors."
- Oscar Fingal O'Flahertie Wills Wilde, The Picture of Dorian Gray
trying to run only pulled me closer
O Fortuna
Velut luna
Statu variabilis
Semper crescis
Aut decrescis
- Carl Orff, Carmina Burana
"Perhaps one did not want to be loved so much as to be understood."
- George Orwell, 1984
what if the light at the end of the tunnel is a mere reflection of what has already passed?
the heart is ever searching for its truest home