I feel like I will never truly find someone who can understand me, I mean I can't even understand myself. I'm just sad like all the time without knowing why, I feel sad but I am incapable of showing it so I forced myself to be happy, funny or angry. Nevertheless I can't hide who I am and this become worst when I fell in love with him, I mean he's just a crush but more I get interested in him and more he looks like my entirely opposite. He's joyful, spontaneous, cute, calm, warm... he fucking looks like the sun and the moon at the same time and I am only the dark space behind which no one cares. I feel so sad because I know that I could never reach him and that he will never know a thing about me.