— with matpat's final theory being posted, i realize my childhood has finally concluded. as absurd as it sounds, growing up and older has been a deep fear of mine since i don't even know when. opportunities closing, the mind and body wearing down, it all made me sad and tired for the longest time. but matpat today made me realize that there's more to life than being scared of what comes next. things never being the same again means that i can take those memories with me, that they're precious, that they can eventually help me as much as i've somehow indirectly helped matpat, however small my contribution might of been. even though the future and what i'm feeling right now is indescribable, i know i will survive and learn from it in some way.
but of course, that's just a theory
A GAME THEORY!!!!!
thank you, matpat