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Trying something new
Dean: Burger My King. Charlie: Taco My Bell. Dean: Sub My Way. Charlie: Jimmy My John's. Dean: Jack In My Box. Charlie: Dunkin' My Donuts. Dean: Whiten My Castle. Charlie: ........I don't like that last one Sam: .......... Castiel: ............
I don't think we talk about Cas and his shitty TV shows enough
If Dean is allowed to hyperfixate on cowboy movies, horror Flix, and Dr. Sexy
Then we should let Cas watch the wheel of fortune like the old man that he is
Let Cas text with too many emoticons
Let Cas play candy crush while Dean sleeps on him
Cas is old man energy and I love him for it
In some way, Dean hates Castiel. He hates how beautiful Cas is, how he loves this angel. He hates it.
But he loves Cas as well. It makes him mad because he's not used to be in love or being loved. Of course, Sam loves Dean. Sam is his brother, their love is something obvious. But it's not the same with the whole Cas Thing™. He loves Castiel in different way. Castiel isn't his baby brother, he never was.
Dean Winchester is in love with the fucking angel of the Lord and he hates it.
So when Cas confess his love, Dean doesn't understand. Why? Why Cas loves him? He can't think straight, he doesn't know what he should say. He says nothing.
And Cas dies. Dean wants to be dead too. He can't imagine world without Cas.
The world isn't his place after all, Dean from the beginning was supposed to be dead.
So he prays to Jack and begs Jack for mercy. He wants to be dead. But Jack doesn't listen.
23th March he tries to kill himself. Sam saves his life.
'' You don't understand! " Dean yells. " You think Cas' death was easy for me?" asks Sam. Dean doesn't reply because he knows that Sam also is mourning.
"I'm selfish, Dean. I don't want to be alone in this world" says quietly Sam. "I don't want to live in world without my big brother"
Dean says nothing but he still tries to end his life.
And someday his wishes come true — he's dead and he's in Heaven now. He finds Cas and kiss this stupid angel because he wants to. And because he can.
He's bisexual and he's proud of it.
He's not proud that he committed suicide and left Sam alone but he couldn't live without Cas.
So Sam has to learn how to be alive without Dean. It's sad but Dean knows Sam will make it.
My point is that Dean hates how in love he is.
WHO TF DOES IT LIKE MISHA COLLINS
LOOK AT HIM
LOOK AT HIS FACE, THE EYES, THE E X P R E S S I O N
Man, just
The way he still manages to maintain an expression of religious devotion to a flawed and broken ’deity’ while suffering for and at the hand of that ‘deity’ will forever amaze me. Obsessive Devotion Castiel, save me. The way he still believes in this new god he’s found even after he’s been pushed away time and time again because he believes Dean Winchester is good and will do what he thinks is best after God his Father abandoned him.
And the way Dean needs him back.
endverse cas was fruity as hell like what is this!!
Someone write this fic nowww!!!!!!!
Fic idea
Dean goes to crash Sam's wedding because he found something shitty about Sam's fiance and is trying to save his baby brother
But he crashes the wrong wedding
"Don't do it! She's not who you want!" Dean yells the second he kicks open the Chappelle doors
Castiel doesn't wanna marry so and so, has been trying to get out of this arraigned bullshit for years
Sees a crazy dude crash his wedding and literally jumps at the opportunity. Doesn't think, just looks at his dad all "He's right father. She's not. I'm gay for that man!" Really awkwardly then runs to Dean, puts all his faith into this and jumps into his arms
Dean has no fucking idea what he just did, but the guards are behind him and now the groom in his arms is going "Run! Run! Run!"
And now Dean is running to his Impala, stuffing Castiel in it, and speeding away with him because fuck his life
And now Castiel is stuck in a road trip to save this random guy's brother from a sham marriage
My biggest regret is not watching Supernatural or reading Destiel fanfiction sooner because for some reason I didn't find Misha Collins
I still don't know what was wrong with me and I deeply regret my sinful actions and now understand the beauty of Misha Collins
DANGGGG
Part 15 of "Back to the Future" AU
Dean dreads the past. All his time traveling has only ever served to solidify guilt, longing, and 'what ifs' that float in his head. But he's older now. He hasn't moved past it, but he's learn to cope and be more open about it
So when he starts feeling like it's time to go home, he does a few things he wished he got to do.
Dean managed to talk Bobby into a quick game of catch. One that ended with them both tired and grumpy, sharing a beer, and Dean telling Bobby how much of a father he is to Dean
He takes Sam to Jessica's grave. It feels pointless at first, given Sam had no soul, but Dean sat with Sam, who, despite not really understanding what Dean was going on about, listened while his big brother said how he's sorry. And that he's glad Sam stuck by him
Then, he prays to Castiel and takes him on a quick road trip. He plays the mixtape he inevitably gives to Castiel in the future, and quietly drives to a cliffside where the view of the stars would be just perfect.
They sit in silence for a while. It's a silence even Castiel wishes to break, unsure of why Dean insisted on being alone together
But Dean says his peace eventually
He chooses his words. Careful and slow. He keeps his eyes down because he's scared of how easily he would break seeing Cas' younger face.
He's afraid of how much he wants to steal Cas and take him home
Keep Cas safe from his younger self
So he keeps his eyes downcast, hoping Castiel understands him. That Cas believes him
That Cas knows Dean will be waiting for him a decade later, with open arms and a safe home
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At the end of the road, folks
In South America, after Cas says "I love you", Dean says "and I you, Cas".
If the reciprocation was in the original script and the CW cut it off cause they decided to go with that shitty ending, this is the proof. They forgot to tell their homophobic plans to SouthAmerican countries.
Fuck off homophobic CWUSA. We win.
We're just two slow dancers,
last ones out...
I blinked and suddenly
I had a Valentine♡
Touch starved idiots in love
Ugly ginger cookies and memes I did for tiktok, but they're destiel, because I am hyperfixated
Original of first photo and um... My friend beheaded Sam and then.... Well... It's a Sam Meowchescter now, I guess
Okay, someone named the whole season 8 and I just finished rewatching it and HELL YES WHAT WAS THAT like what do you mean Dean told Cas 'I need you' with that desperate voice TWICE
What do you mean Cas broke literal mind control because he doesn't want to hurt Dean like he can't hurt Dean, despite all hundreds of fake Dean's he's killed (Naomi was so smart but Cas was gayer)
What do you mean Dean was running and fighting in purgatory for the whole year just to find Cas, who he was mad at for the whole previous season. Dean Winchester became a nightmare of every monster in MONSTERland. He prayed to Cas every freaking night. And Cas' 'I ran away to... to keep them from you'.
And what do you mean you Dean started seeing Cas everywhere. I mean. Yeah that was Cas trying to reach out, not just his nightmares, but It's the narrative. It's not Sam seeing Cas. It's Dean seeing dead Cas and his internal guilt for failing him.
And Cas telling Dean that he planned to stay in purgatory or when he told why he can't go back to heaven. I don't know, these scenes just killed me and they also killed Dean.
And the scene in the bar with Dean's 'talk to me'. A second ago he was fighting with Cas but here he's just 'hey man you really want to lock yourself with pissed off angels who want to kill you are you sure?'. He's still worried.
I don't know guys I wish they weren't such fools and the world was easier and they could finally kiss and stop making me sad.
of all deancas episodes which one is your personal roman empire? the one that you keep thinking about for some reason?
(the despair goes without saying)
of all deancas episodes which one is your personal roman empire? the one that you keep thinking about for some reason?
(the despair goes without saying)
Touch starved
speech bubble translation under the cut ⬇️
Dean: your hair is so fluffy in the morning :D
Cas: Dean, stop!
Every moment with cupping face gets me
Вылечит рассвет...
(translation below)
Lyrics from Рассвет — Сироткин
The sun must give me back
All that is mine
Dawn will heal...
Happy November 5th my dear friends
My poor eyes look like this every time I see any gifs of Castiel's confession. And now it's a day of confession. Guess I'm gonna cry.
I had to
who up missing castiel rn (it is 1pm)
Two of my friends have birthdays this month, there's a local festival in my city, I am going for a big vacation soon and somewhere between I have Dentist's appointment, but It still feels like Nov 5th is the most important date my brain remembered for the month
🪶 Day 17 — wings 🪶
Love to imagine Cas' wings not fully black but black with gasoline stains, like magpie's feathers
I still have some ideas for suptober, but I am a mess, though I hope I will do them someday
+ close up
⋆｡ ﾟ☾ ﾟ｡⋆ Day 9 — moon ⋆｡ ﾟ☾ ﾟ｡⋆
Is Castiel a little naive gay angel or a flirty strategist? Who knows...
Please, forget, that today is already October 25... I just needed to draw silly sketchy comics
I named the file 'boobs'
Sketchy addition to my previous art
These little crumbs are so in love, look at them
I want to eat them 🩵
I've got this little plot idea in my head, where TFW go on vacation, and Dean says to Cas smth like "No, you're not going to a beach resort in a suit" so he makes Cas wear his clothes. Cas does what his friend says, though he doesn't understand, what's wrong with his trenchcoat.
Well... This decision had a much more unexpected result for Dean... Who knew, what Cas was hiding under all these layers.
but I love you so please let me go
Imagine after movie nights Cas suddenly references to film while some hunting and everyone in team is just. Terrified. What the hell happened to Cas?
And then Dean would smile and laugh "Yeah, you got it right, Cas!". He would be so happy and proud.
Cas continues referencing because he likes Dean's reaction and at this point Sam is done with them
They live in my head 24/7 rent free
(and I don't mind)
It was actually supposed to be a kind of little redraw of one sketch from 2020, but ended up like a practice of kisses
Translation of big words on the left: gentle kiss
За вишневую семёрку не спрашивайте...
IM SO SORRY FOR THIS BUT I NEED TO COPE IT ALL SOMEHOW
I am hyperfixated on that one Castiel's death in 12 season for no reason and I overthink it too much (I can't even think about rewatching it rn, it's painful, so I'm sorry, if I didn't remember something), but I just realised one thing...
It's not the first, when Cas dies, but all other times he more like. disappeared. or was soon resurrected (like in the end of s5 or when he was a human). There was no time to grief or no body to cry on, so a small chance of Cas being alive was there. And Dean did believe in it, keeping his trench coat in Impala. But this time... It's different.
For the first time Dean had to deal with Cas's dead body. He saw, how he died. There was no chance he might be alive. No place for faith. God didn't answer. Nothing changed, when he returned and put up the blanket. The dead body was here and that was the end.
For the first time Dean had to arrange a real funeral for Cas, had to look how his body was burning. He lost two people he loved, and one of them had gone forever... And now he had to deal with that fact and his grief. He was completely broken.
I haven't drawn Cas for a few years... miss him(
Translation:
Dean on the answering machine:
— ...overall, hunting went fine, tomorrow we're going to Nebraska. Hope you're okay. Call me back when you can. Kiss you.
— ...
*Beep*