It’s always me trying to get better for a few days before I fall back down and it slaps me in the face ten fold for the next three months.
As a young black girl I honestly don’t think I’ll ever feel attractive until I start sexualizing myself. But even if I do that I’ll be objectively ugly regardless and this also applies to how much weight I loose, how much makeup I’ll learn to cake my face with, and the billions of hairstyles and wigs I’ll probably try, all of it will have the same outcome. A girl so ugly she can’t be fixed.
I became so attached to my depression that I can't imagine my life without it anymore