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I almost shifted again!!

I woke up early today and I was still tired but I had a really hard time going back to sleep,,

at first I was playing music from a playlist that remind me of the current reality I’m focusing on shifting to, but eventually I just shuffled through my liked songs cus it felt like, because it was a themed playlist, I was thinking too much about that reality and not on sleeping and I just really wanted to sleep

after a while I managed to go to sleep and I was dreaming and whatnot,, but similar to the last time this happened, I was in that weird state between awake and asleep,, so not entirely asleep and maintaining some consciousness

and soon enough I started getting the same tunnel/soul being pulled out of my body feeling that I got last time,, only it also felt like my body was moving??

I was laying on my side,, but I felt like I had completely turned over onto my back and my arms, that used to be by my side,, were now in front of me,,,

I’ve heard of feeling your surroundings change and feeling like your floating, but it literally felt like I had just completely rolled over, but I never did and when I went back to sleep I noticed that I was still in the same position I always was

I tried to stay rooted to that feeling and using it as a means to try and push my consciousness out of this body and into another but it didn’t work and eventually I just knocked out,,

I held onto the feeling for longer tho, which is improvement, but the main thing was that I experienced this again at all since it’s happened when I least expect it, albeit in similar sleep deprived scenarios

the next step, it feels like, is actually trying to push myself into my intended reality so I’ve gotta start looking for those final push posts, seeing what I think would work for me, and applying it

but I’m getting close!! any progress, no matter how shaky and imperfect, is still progress!

I didn’t shift, but I managed to get into that weird state of consciousness again and I know that it wasn’t just a fluke!

shifting is literally a hair away,, I just need to work on that final push

Songs That Remind Me of Shifting - ‘Come Alive, The Greatest Showman

You stumble through your days Got your head hung low, your sky's a shade of gray Like a zombie in a maze You're asleep inside, but you can shake awake

Cause you're just a dead man walkin' Thinkin' that's your only option But you can flip the switch and brighten up your darkest day Sun is up and the color's blindin' Take the world and redefine it Leave behind your narrow mind, you'll never be the same

Come alive, come alive Go and light your light, let it burn so bright Reachin' up to the sky And it's open wide, you're electrified And the world becomes a fantasy And you're more than you could ever be 'Cause you're dreamin' with your eyes wide open And you know you can't go back again To the world that you were livin' in 'Cause you're dreamin' with your eyes wide open So come alive

I see it in your eyes You believe that lie that you need to hide your face Afraid to step outside So you lock the door, but don't you stay that way

No more livin' in those shadows You and me, we know how that goes 'Cause once you see it, oh, you'll never, never be the same Little bit of lightnin' strikin' Bottled up to keep on shinin' You can prove there's more to you, you cannot be afraid

To come alive, come alive Go and light your light, let it burn so bright Reachin' up to the sky And it's open wide, you're electrified And the world becomes a fantasy And you're more than you could ever be 'Cause you're dreamin' with your eyes wide open And we know we can't go back again To the world that we were livin' in 'Cause we're dreamin' with our eyes wide open So come alive

Come one, come all, come in, come on To anyone who's burstin' with a dream Come one, come all, you hear the call To anyone who's searchin' for a way to break free

And the world becomes a fantasy And you're more than you could ever be 'Cause you're dreamin' with your eyes wide open And we know we can't go back again To the world that we were livin' in 'Cause we're dreamin' with our eyes wide open

And the world becomes a fantasy And you're more than you could ever be 'Cause you're dreamin' with your eyes wide open And we know we can't go back again To the world that we were livin' in 'Cause we're dreamin' with our eyes wide open

'Cause we're dreamin' with our eyes wide open So come alive

shifting is scary and exhilarating at the same time

tried a method last night but I wasn’t all that into it so I just turned over and decided to go to bed,,, (I’ve been swamped with assignments and final exams and shifting was an impulsive decision that I gave up on halfway through)

nothings wrong with understanding that you’re just not ready to put in the effort to shift,, dependent on your preferred methods, or lack of, it can be extremely draining or super easy

but I decided that I would rather sleep than shift cus it was really late and I haven’t been getting much sleep the past few days,,,

as I’m laying there super annoyed that I can’t fall asleep, my vision turns like completely black,, its early morning by this point and I’ve got a small nightlight that’s semi bright,, it’s never completely dark in my room

and then the feeling,, it was weird,,, I hate roller coasters but I imagine this is how they feel,, it was like I was in a tunnel, like one of those optical illusion ones, and my vision was being like pulled forward with this tunnel thing all around me,, it felt like memories and stuff were rushing past me too

the best way I can describe it is that scene in Doctor Strange when he gets his soul like punched out of him cus that’s exactly how it felt!

it felt like my soul, or my consciousness in this instance, was being pulled out of my body here and being pulled into another one somewhere else

my heart started racing like never before and suddenly my hearing went completely silent too,,, I sleep with a white noise machine and it was like it simply faded out of existence

the whole process felt, both, excruciatingly long and extremely fast at the same time, and by the time it had ended, my heart still racing, I looked over and found that it’d only been 15 minutes,,,

because I wasn’t planning on shifting and was mainly focused on sleeping, I didn’t really know what to do,, I affirmed a bit but I was so jostled that I didn’t really know what I was affirming

eventually it ended and I felt myself wake up back in my bed with my heart pounding like I’ve never felt it do before, and I went to sleep

am I upset that I didn’t shift? kinda,, but at the same time, this is such a huge step that I don’t really mind,,, if anything it just gave me a full day to prepare, script, and make up my mind about where to shift to and what to do because I was so lost man

I'm super excited to feel those symptoms again and actually shift this time! I’m getting closer and closer to traveling realities at the drop of a pin, I can feel it

had another dream about my fairytale reality but it was a different man this time with a different love story and now my heads all wonky

this isn’t the first time ive had a dream of him either,, but i woke up confused just like last time because “im not supposed to have feelings for him”

of course, feelings are weird and complicated and there’s a billion and one realities where we’re together instead of the man i was originally pining for

i am not bound to loving one man, and if my subconscious keeps trying to get me to see this other man in a new light, who am i to shut my eyes, cover my ears, and pretend it doesn’t exist?

i’ll script for another reality, one where we’re be together, and for the rest of the day i’ll be tormented by thoughts of him

decided to shift to another reality that i haven’t visited in a while,,

been thinking about that reality all day, but more specifically,, my man in that reality

and i barely went onto amazon and the first thing i see is a symbol related to him?

i know i severely underestimate the power of my own mind,,, but this just feels surreal

every time i set the intention to shift to a certain reality i get a ton of confirmation signs and symbols

and i shouldn’t be surprised,, but i am

suddenly im seeing the color blue everywhere,,,?

i went to bed thinking about nectarines and peaches and i woke up thinking about pink and blue,, but everywhere i look, there’s smth blue?

a bunch of blue clothes on pinterest when ive never really searched for blue clothes before (i just prefer pink) and im being recommended blue foods and blue crafts and it’s cute, don’t get me wrong, but it’s so out of the blue??

idk,, im taking it as a sign tho <333

my man likes the color blue and nectarines

i love the color pink and if you gave me a nectarine id probably cry (they are gross as shit and I stand by that) ((if you like nectarines over peaches there’s smth like fundamentally wrong with you))

but when he comes over i make sure ive got a basket of nectarines in the fridge wrapped in blue cloth that reminds me of him, and i know if i go to his house he’s got peaches wrapped in matching pink cloth with my name on it

and maybe nectarines start to taste a little better because they remind me of him, and if that’s the case, id no sooner die than admit it to him

my man likes the color blue and nectarines

i love the color pink and if you gave me a nectarine id probably cry (they are gross as shit and I stand by that) ((if you like nectarines over peaches there’s smth like fundamentally wrong with you))

but when he comes over i make sure ive got a basket of nectarines in the fridge wrapped in blue cloth that reminds me of him, and i know if i go to his house he’s got peaches wrapped in matching pink cloth with my name on it

and maybe nectarines start to taste a little better because they remind me of him, and if that’s the case, id no sooner die than admit it to him

I NEED MY S/O SO BADDDD AAHAHGHSJ

You will shift tonight.

Me core

taking “new year new me” very seriously considering im shifting this year.

Hello everyone, I'd rather not say my real name, but you can call me Luna

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DNI LIST: anti shifters, homophobic, racist, misogynistic, xenophobic etc.

I'm 15 years old

I'm south african

I'm new to Tumblr

I'm Christian

I'm into reality shifting

My main drs: Aespa dr, Royalty dr, Enhypen dr and JJK dr.

Sooyoungs first solo ep titled ANDROGYNY came out March 15th 2018 , and was teased since the end of the year before on her youtube "jaysvideodiary" with boys will be bugs serving as the main single. All the songs have music videos, with majority of the scenes being her and the scenery around her, as she "had one dollar and a dream" as her budget. The EP is entirely self written, self produced, and self composed.

# title time

1 Boys will be bugs 5.29

2 She plays bass 3.27

3 Doomsday 4:28

4 Beaches 3:50

5 This is home 3:46

6 Devil town 3:00

ever since she was young , sooyoung has had a passion for music, especially creating it herself, it was no suprise to longtime BIBIS (sooyoungs solo fans, originating from her old stage name SEULBI) when she became an independent artist not long after DEARLIES disbandment. Despite releasing many solo tracks, many (including Sooyoung herself) refer to LIKE XYLIA as her official solo debut.

ANDROGYNY .. EP .. March 15th 2018

WE HUG NOW .. SINGLE .. April 16th 2022

TINKERBELL IS OVERRATED .. FEATURE .. july 15th 2022

BLEED .. EP .. March 15th 2023

Can't catch me now .. FOR TBOSAS .. NOVEMBER 3 2023

LIKE XYLIA .. SINGLE .. February 21st 2025

MOON SOOYOUNG — AKA , SEULBI , XYLIA , JAY

first coming into the entertainment industry at the young age of 2 as a child model, making her debut as a child actress at 9 years old in hide and seek as pyeong-hwa , making her debut as a child idol at 9 years old in the childs girl group DEARLIE under JYP ENT to leaving the entertainment industry at 12 to go to the most prestigious private arts school UKIYO in London and making her grand return at 15 with SIXSENSE and its subunit EIMI, shes here to stay.

OCTOBER 8TH 2004. know the day , mark your calenders.

all about the 4th gen it girl

future of kpop , SIXSENSE

about her & her boyfie <3

her solo discography

3rd gens babies , dearlie

Jellys journal

hi. . my name is sooyoung , but you can also call me jelly/jay. im 14. . and im a korean who lives in canada !!

my main interests include watching movies , listening to music , writing and reading (which i haven't done. at all. this year..)

top 4 movies : little women (2019) , swing girls (2004) , kikis delivery service (1989) and 20th century girl (2022).

top 4 artists : tomorrow x together , le sserafim , yves and chuu

top 4 books : these violent delights (Chloe Gong) , the poppy war (Rf Kuang) , i hope this doesn't find you (Ann Liang) and jade city (fonda lee)

if i want it , i have it . shifting .

i've been shifting for nearly 5 years , i quit in 2020 and came back in the summer of 2022.

main drs ::

RESCENE own gg

ACID ANGELS FROM ASIA own gg

BETTER CR

HAIKYUU1

FAME

INVESTIGATOR

NEWJEANS own grp

non main drs ::

SOS 3rdgen own gg

KATSEYE

LE SSERAFIM

wip drs ::

5TH GEN GG

BOYNEXTDOOR / GIRLNEXTDOOR ?

TRIPLES

thanks for reading , lets be friends !

jellys journal ୨୧

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hello !!  you may call me either sooyoung or jelly , whichever you prefer more . i’m 14 years old and korean-canadian ,  i’m a lover of film , music , books and writing ! 

My favourite films (aka top 4 on letterboxd & whats bubbling under)

Bottoms (2023, directed by Emme Seligman) , Little women (2019 , directed by Greta Gerwig) , bodies bodies bodies (2023 , directed by Halina Reijin) , The ballad of songbirds and snakes (2023 , directed by Francis Lawrence) , To all the boys i’ve loved before (2018 , directed by Susan Johnson) , Spider-man : across the spiderverse (2023 , directed by Justin K thompson ,Kemp Powers & Joaquim Dos santos)

My favourite artists : tomorrow x together , taylor swift, loossemble , yves , le sserafim , olivia rodrigo , sabrina carpenter , illit , artms , chuu , katseye & izna 

my favourite books : these violent delights (chloe gong) , the poppy war (rf kuang) , i hope this doesn’t find you (ann liang) , Jade city ( Fonda Lee) & Shades of magic (Ve Schwab)

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𝒊𝒇 𝒊 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒊𝒕 , 𝒊 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒊𝒕 : 𝓼𝓱𝓲𝓯𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓰 ~~

I have known about shifting since 2020 , my first dr was a genshin impact dr , did it for like 2 months and gave up . Came back to it in the summer of 2022 with (again) a Genshin Impact dr.  i’m very excited to share these personal things about my drs with you all

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reality things :

face claim list

main dr list

non-main dr list

Hey ୨୧ if you see this , thank you for reading through all this it truly means so much to me ! 

ib : fav shiftblr acc hrrtshape

I wanna see my husband soo bad

My husband being a goopy skeleton mam who feeds off of negativity. Specifically the version of him from the "Reeftale: Call of the Abyss" fanfiction cause why not

I'm pretty sure I shifted twice recently. Just out of the blue. I'm excited about it but in the moment it was just normal and I didn't even question it.

It wasn't my dr but little differences. One night I woke up to ocean sounds playing on my TV when I was thinking about shifting to a mermaid/merfolk dr.

This one is a little embarrassed to admit cause its a bad habit. My vape had died, and i never plugged it up. I woke up in the morning, and it was at almost 50%, and i was so confused.

Edit: Happy to say now! I've quit vapping

Yall I'm at work and I ordered a pizza to eat and when they called me overhead to let me know it was here they called Elene which is super close to my current dr name Like!!!

Im dying inside from excitment

Not me literally planning on getting my hair cut like I have in my dr soon, lol. It won't be the same color but the same haircut still

I found the image off of pintrest. I'm absolutely obsessed with wolfcuts

Yall, I'm still not 100% back into shifting, but I've gotten hyper fixated on Avatar and Pandora, and I want to be in the beautiful world, a lot more than I have any other place before. It just seems like it'll be such a peaceful place to be, minus all the war that happens in the movies. I'm not sure who I'll be or how I'll start my script for it, but I want to make one. I love the idea of shifting there

I haven't fully gotten my excitement back for shifting. My love and care for it seems to just have disappeared. Though I love the idea of shifting to undertale. Mostly because I think it's a nice place where I can be chill and not have to worry about anything eith some of my comfort characters

I have no idea why but recently I've had no intrest in shifting. Like none at all. I don't think about any of my drs like at all anymore and I can't put my finger on why. It's frustrating and I can't tell if it's a good think I'm not obsessing or if It's a bad thing.

I'm not sure what else to say I usualy just rant on here

Yesterday was the first time I wasn't upset with waking up without shifting. I tried right after we got home from Watchung the eclipse. I was tired. When I feel a certain kind of tired, which might sound strange, I know I'm gonna have a lidic dream or at least a vivid dream, and I did! I didn't shift like I wanted, but I got to ser my s/o, and I woke up happy! I literally said "nice that's the first step to shifting!" And I just went about my day. I'm proud of myself and my growth

So in a different post I mentioned having relationship stuff and I was in one. He was a bit clingy and wanted to talk and hang out all the time and it took me away from shifting. It wasn't for me u didn't like thst I didn't seem to get space and for other reasons I ended jt.

Now, I can focus on shifting again, and it was a nice break. It think I needed to be at ease last night. I dreamt of my s/o, and it was lovely. I'm just scared off feeling suffocated in a relationship there even though I know I'll feel completely different their then I do here

Relationship stuff is so strange to me. I love thinking about being with my S/o. Cuddling, kissing, yk couple stuff. Thoigh when it happened to me here I get... weird.

I'm talking to a guy and he's super sweet. He's the first person who's actually treated me right and I'm not even sure if u like him the way he likes me. It's like I either get scared and want to run or I just don't have those feelings and I'm not sure I've ever had with people.

That's something I'm scared of for in my dr. Cause I love Simon. I do. And I know with the magic of shifting realities, I'll actually feel it because anything is possible. But for me here. It's not something I really experience. If any of that makes sesne

I'm really just using this app for ranting and writing down my thoughts. Sorry if that's annoying

My mental health has been really bad the past couple months and I feel like it's getting worse tbh. I want to shift. Not to just get rid of it like magic. So I can learn to work though it and heal myself in a safe way with someone I can lean on for support like I don't have here.

Just a tiny rant ig

I had a dream the other night about correcting people about my name. They kept calling my my cr name, so I told them, no my name is "Ena" which is my Dr name. It felt so weird being called that but I really liked it lol

I'm trying to think about more details for my call of duty dr which is my main Dr.

Things in trying to figure out is which part of England woild I live in? In my Dr I'm from Ireland thoigh my families moved to England when I was around idk between 6-14

I imagine my parents have g a farm in the countryside, and I'm loving in an apartment in a bigger town/city thoigh I know very little about England and would love some help lol

So I may have had a shift last night. Or a mini shift? Honestly I cannot tell.

I thought it was a dream, though in the middle of it, I became super aware of things going on around me. It was like it was in real life, but everything was darker, like my dreams are and kinda monotone.

The beginning of it is very foggy I don't remember much. The layout of the paled I was in was strange so I'm not going to explain that in detail. I was jn my room and I saw Ghosy and captain Price in thus building.

My memory had been wiped apparently, so I couldn't remember Ghost, who is my s/o

I was in my room and was looking around. I found my dog tags. Thought they didn't have my name or my Dr name idk what name it was tbh. It said I was Kia on the back of them which was strange.

I remember wanting to change my clothes and actually doing so, so it was so odd.