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This morning I realised I was still tired and could go back to sleep and try something. I'm not sure why, but for some reason I picked doing SSILD cycles. Well they sure worked. I had so many lucid dreams in a row, as well as another false awakening. If I could just get better at stabilising the dream I could be walking through portals every night.

Last night I actually managed to induce faint vibrations. And that was AFTER I successfully hypnotised myself on my own with no guided audio in about 30 seconds. (Look up the Betty Erickson technique if you want to try it too. A few popular shifting methods are actually misinterpretations of that hypnosis induction.)

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For some reason I just keep getting better at everything but shifting. Oh well, I'm choosing to look on the positive side - the more skills I learn, the closer I get to shifting regardless.

Not feeling great today but another quick update. No shifting yet, but all but one of my last 7 dream journal entries were some level of lucid. At the moment I'm playing around with meditating on the inner sound before bed.

Okay I've been missing for a bit because I was trying something new that I saw on YouTube.

My OG plan died because I got bored of the DR I was shifting to and couldn't make myself keep daydreaming about it. But then I was on the Astral Projection subreddit and saw people talking about this one really helpful community member's YouTube channel. I decided to check it out and saw he had a video basically centred around "last ditch efforts to help you astral project". And since I know some people have managed to shift through astral projection, I've been trying it for the last three days.

What I basically did was ground myself. And no, I don't mean I molested every cushion in my living room or tried to make myself smell vanilla, I mean I treated myself like a naughty child and took away everything I considered fun and stimulating except for the knitting projects I'm working on. Every time I got frustrated or wanted to take a break and eat a nice snack or watch some TV I would tell myself, "Too bad. No snacks until you shift. No TV until you shift."

And let me tell you, literally day one I got results. After one trip to the supermarket with my boyfriend lamenting the fact I couldn't buy donuts or macarons or any of the nice things I was walking past, I went to sleep that night and had my first ever false awakening. Literally I have never had one in my life before, I try this and BAM!

But it was so much more than that.

I was struggling to sleep, so I put on an Alunir video because I find her voice really relaxing and I figured that even if I didn't shift from it I'd still fall asleep. I had random dreams for a bit that I don't remember, but then I was suddenly lying in my childhood bed at my parents' old house. As I was looking around the room I heard Alunir's voice still playing through my sleep mask and that made me realise I was dreaming.

Obviously as soon as I realised that I closed my eyes in the dream and tried to follow along with the prompts and visualise my DR, but everything started to shake and I heard growling and I got scared enough to wake up. Which is incredibly annoying because if you know anything about astral projection THOSE ARE TWO REALLY COMMON THINGS THAT HAPPEN TO PEOPLE RIGHT BEFORE THEY LEAVE THEIR BODY.

So I'm super mad that I got too scared and woke myself up, but at the same time I'm really excited because I think that's the most progress I've had in a long long time.

I didn't have anymore progress last night but it was really hot and I struggled to sleep. We just had a storm and things have cooled down a bit so I'm hoping tonight will be better. Wish me luck!!

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Obviously because of this method I've mostly been on a social media ban but I figured I'd give a quick update to keep the blog active.

I like how more people liked my update post than the original instructions on what I was actually doing 🤷‍♀️

So it's actually been surprisingly easy to remember to practise throughout the day. I think it might be because lately I keep noticing a lot of angel numbers, so because I knew I was already checking the clock a lot I told myself, "Every time I look at the time I'll remember to say, 'I shifted!' and do my visualising."

The visualisations have NOT been clear at all, but I'm hoping that telling myself a little story about what I'm up to right now in my DR and just thinking about the fun and frustrations of everyday life will be enough to get my subconscious working on the problem. I've definitely thought more about my DR in a single day than I have probably ever.

Beginner Mindset

Recently while doing a tarot reading for myself about my shifting journey, I drew a card that said I needed to "embrace a beginner mindset". I've been thinking a lot about what that means, and as a results I've begun the process of starting my shifting journey from scratch. Coincidentally, I’ve also seen a lot of posts from others about going back to that baby shifter feeling, when it's all about being IN your DR not GETTING TO your DR; thinking about the end result, not the way of getting there.

In that vein, today I saw a YouTube video about training your brain to lucid dream after years of failure, and re-capturing the feeling of excitement around it. I’ve decided I'm going to apply the techniques outlined there to shifting.

These were the main points:

List out all the things you're excited to do in a lucid dream and highlight your top three

Think throughout the day, “This is a dream” and then imagine if this was a dream, what you would do to take control and achieve one of your top three things.

Keep lucid dreaming at the forefront of your mind throughout the day

There were other points too, but these are the ones I think are most applicable to shifting. So from now on I'm going to focus on one DR, and start keeping that at the front of my mind and think about all the things I'm excited to do while shifting there.

I’ve already started by writing the list of 20 things and highlighted my top three (let me know if you want to see a follow-up post with my list). From here, throughout the day, rather than tell myself I’m dreaming, I’m going to go, “Oh, I’ve shifted!” and then imagine that instead of being wherever I am, that I’m currently experiencing something from that list. Preferably the top three, but it was very hard to pick just three things so I don’t see why I can’t expand it to more. The idea was to increase my desire to go to/excitement over that DR anyway, and that has definitely happened.

I’ve been thinking for a while that the reason some people might be having more success than me, is that for a very long time now I’ve found it really hard to daydream. I don’t know why, given I used to do it every night to help me sleep, but for years now it’s like I keep stopping myself, like it's silly or something. Being a writer I often get too caught up in what’s realistic or a good plot/scene rather than just enjoying the process, so I can absolutely see how I could get in my own way like that.

My hope is that giving myself these parameters like, “Imagine you’re actually having lunch in [x] right now!” or “Imagine what it would be like to learn [y]!” will help make daydreaming more achievable. Rather than imagining bigger stories, I’m just living through those tiny everyday moments. And from what I’ve heard from some of the bigger experienced shifters, imagining those everyday moments can really help your subconscious start to see your DR as a real place rather than a fantasy.

At the very least I’m going to try and do it every day for a week. Given I find it really hard to build habits, I’m not expecting to remember to do this very often in the first few days, so I’ll definitely be extending the experiment to up to three weeks if necessary.

Anyway, thanks for reading my first post and another Big Brave Step for me into the shifting community after two years of mostly lurking. Please send love and encouragement so I can do more of these. I'd definitely be down to blog how the experiment goes from day to day, or answer asks about my DRs (I have so many 😅).

YOU ARE DOING EVERYTHING RIGHT

YOU ARE DOING EVERYTHING RIGHT.

Don't get your head in those doubts like, 'Oh, what if I can't shift?' That's not possible. You were chosen to know about shifting for a REASON. There are 8.2 BILLION people in this world. Think about it. 8 BILLION people.

Now, how do you feel? Do you feel special? GOOD. Keep feeling that way. Some of you, not all of you, read these posts on Tumblr but don't really READ them.

'Oh, I'm the creator of my universe.' Yes, but do you really UNDERSTAND that? I feel like for some of you, it's like you're in front of a teacher, and each word just goes in one ear and out the other. Now, shifting isn't this ELABORATE and majestic thing that needs to be taught in a specific way. It's not like driving, okay? There are no rules, no directions, just YOU. Understand that it's just YOU.

That drink in your hand? You created that. The computer or phone you're reading this on? You created that. Everything in this world YOU created.

You are doing everything right. You know what I mean.

You will wake up in your DR. Those sleep methods you're doing? They're working perfectly. You aren't just 'close,' you are THERE. You have always been there, since the beginning of whatever. No need to think you are close, because you are there.

'Oh, but what if I don't shift today?' Shifting isn't something that needs to be rushed. Everything will happen eventually. You have shifted before; you know this. You know you need to just let go and let it happen. Don't overcomplicate it. Listen to yourself. Do you know how stupid you sound? Thousands of people have shifted to their DRs, and somehow you can't? That's just rubbish.

'Oh, what if that shift was just a dream?' What dream feels so real that you can feel the bedsheets? What dream looks like your desired reality so perfectly it has everything, even the rings and jewelry your aunt placed there on the dresser? Why did you get up and look in the mirror and see yourself perfectly and clearly? That was REAL. You shifted. Do not doubt yourself.

'But what if shifting is one elaborate joke?' Seriously? That's one of your doubts? People spend months, YEARS, shifting, and you think people are JOKING? You have spent 5 YEARS knowing about shifting and 2 or 3 actively shifting, and you still think it's a joke? YOU have to be joking with those doubts. This isn't like that one movie people suddenly made up on TikTok and started creating a plot, characters, settings, etc.; this is something real. People have been doing this even before you were born. Now, doesn't that doubt sound silly?

Now, you don't have to be perfect. Listen, people have shifted with doubts. But listen here, if you assume it is true, it is true. 'Oh, he's so in love with me.' Yeah, he is! 'Oh, my cat's super distant. Yeah, they are. Your subconscious isn't this mystical entity trying to work against you. It's like a mirror; if you look in that mirror and say, 'I can't shift,' then your subconscious repeats it. It has an IQ of 0. Like a little kid repeating every word and agreeing with your opinions. You tell that little kid, "Oh, I can shift! Everyone shifts." Then it repeats it; it agrees. That's how simple your subconscious is.

Now, what about intentions? Intentions aren't this super complicated ritual; they're just your thoughts. You don't have to write out your thoughts, burn the piece of paper, and bury the scraps in the ground. Just think. 'Oh, I set my intention to shift.' That's literally all you need to do. Your subconscious will look at you and shrug like, 'Oh okay. Let's shift!' And guess what? BOOM. You're in your DR. Simple. Literally so simple.

Now, some of you are like, "Oh, I did that! But I'm still in my CR." Look deep within yourself. Are you scared of the possibility you're going somewhere new? Or, do you expect to wake up in your CR again after doing your method? Really think about it and begin to change. Tell that subconscious that you don't expect to wake up in your CR, or tell it that you aren't scared; you're excited.

Now, as one of my favorite quotes says,

"You are a consciousness with a body, not a body with a consciousness."

Go shift. Go do your method, or just fall asleep and wake up in your DR. It's that simple. And every time you feel doubts, PERSIST. 'Oh, what if—' NOPE. I am going to shift.

You know about shifting for a reason. You can shift. It is INEVITABLE.

Now don't look at me all dumb; you know this. You've heard it a million times. Don't roll your eyes; THINK, and absorb this information.

Now go do whatever silly little thing you are going to do. But just know, you can shift. You WILL shift.

[This whole thing is for me, but I feel like some of you need it as well.]

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hi hi i gotta say i love the aesthetic of your blog!!

for your ask game, may we know about the stolen crown? 👑 from any of your drs!

STOLEN CROWN - BETTER CR + MORE?

First of all, thank you so much! I love pink and try to make it as pretty as possible. :3 Secondly, thank you so much for the ask!

👑 stolen crown . . . what is one of your secret strengths or powers, or do you have a secret identity? does anyone know about this, or is it an ability or skill you keep to yourself? do you ever plan on sharing this with the world, or do you hold it close to your heart?

BETTER CR ::

A :: I consider myself pretty normal in my better CR, but the one dilemma I've been having for weeks is if I should tell my friends there I have shifted to that reality... Imagine your best friend (that you know is a shifter) tells you that you've shifted! Amazing, right? But where? And then they hesitantly tell you... here.

Don't get me wrong, we shift every second, so yes, I have technically shifted here as well, but is this my DR? No. But imagine that best friend telling you the reality we are in is their desired reality. It's just a bit... surprising.

But that isn't all of it. I have scripted 2 people in my DR that don't exist here; one of them is my lover bestfriend, Sol! Then, there's Liya, my other friend. Imagine that same shifter friend from before telling you that you didn't exist in their other reality. I'd be... shocked, to say the least. I'd be wondering about a lot of things... and I don't want any of that to affect my relationships. So, if I do tell them, I'd probably only mention that I've shifted there and nothing about my other reality. ^^; So, it's quite an intense dilemma I've been having recently. Plus, I really don't want to explain everything going on to people in a world that has none of these problems....

ATHENGALE DR ::

A:: Now, I haven't said much about this DR... due to procrastination and everything. But, in this DR, it's quite similar to an isekai. I do have memories of another life, and, uhm... It's a bit confusing to type out; hopefully, my words are satisfactory. But that's one of the things I will be keeping tightly closed to my heart in this DR.

Something secret that I didn't know until later on is that I am something called a 'spirit born.' Which, I am the only one of this 'race.' My existence merged with raw mana and the astral plane itself, causing me to be the purest manifestation of divine energy and magic.

Uhm, that's really all. I could've added my Naruto DR, but it's late and I'm getting tired ^^; Thank you for reading <3

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MY ROUTINE - BETTER CR [MORNING]

Routines are SUPER hard in my base reality, but a BIG part of me loves routines. So, what did I do? I made myself have a routine in my DR! Not just for the purpose, but mostly for self-care.

Now, these times can depend on whether I'm on a school day or a break. My routine is flexible, though I try to keep it consistent!

[8-8:30 AM] The first thing in the morning is waking up... obviously. I usually wake up naturally around 8 to 8:30 AM, but I can wake up a bit earlier depending on whether I have other things in my schedule! I do give myself a bit of leeway on weekends or on breaks.

[8:30-8:35 AM] I generally take about 5 minutes to stretch or just wake myself up and get myself mentally ready for the day. I also use this time to journal and write down any dreams I have or goals for the day! Most of the time, I just do this on my phone, but I also have a separate journal/notebook that I also write in.

[8:35-8:50 AM] I only do this around 3-4 times a week on school days, but I do some light stretching/exercise! It's nothing much, just something to get my body moving. If I don't use this time to exercise, I'm usually just looking through Pinterest or something on my phone while getting coffee...

[8:50-9:20 AM] Shower/Skincare! Now I have 'normal' skin in my DR, so it's generally a bit easier to care for. (and because I scripted I get ZERO acne and anything like it... anyway.) I could do a whole post about my skincare routine if you'd like to see it! But for now, I'll keep it simple. If I exercise, I take a shower. If not, I just do my skincare! Also, make sure to brush your teeth before doing your skincare! Helps prevent acne around the mouth ^^

[9:20-9:35 AM] I usually just make something like overnight oats or have something made the night before and eat it in the morning. I just have something simple for breakfast. I'm not the biggest breakfast person. Usually, I just like to have some coffee or water for breakfast, but I like the extra energy boost it gives me throughout the day!

[9:35-9:55 AM] Now, on school days, I would use this time to get all of my stuff ready. Get dressed, maybe (maybe) put on some makeup, get my hair ready, pack my bag (which is usually packed the night before), and just make sure everything's ready for school! Our school starts at 10 AM, which is a LIFESAVER. It does end at 4:15 PM, but like... 10 AM is better than 7:30 AM. (We also only go 4 days a week.) School is only around a 15-minute walk from my house, so I get there on time! Other than that, it's just free time for me ^^; I usually do my dailies on Genshin, CRK, and Infinity Nikki, look through Pinterest, talk with friends, etc., etc. Sometimes I do go out, like to the nearest bakery, to the mall, Subway, well... basically anywhere I want!

That's my morning routine! Thank you so much for reading. <3 Hopefully it was satisfactory ^^;;

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Idk if I’m doing this right but ☘️💭🦷

SHORT AND EXTRA SWEET GAME

AAAA thank you so much for asking me!!! This is my first time getting asked, so this is very appreciated.<33

☘️  𑅕  GOOD GRACES  ＼  who’s the person you trust the most? is it a family member? friend? maybe not a person, but a pet?

A :: This is actually such a hard question! There are three contestants for such a highly sought-after spot! There's Danny, whom I've been friends with since 5th grade. Then, we have Liya (or Lisa if you want to use her real name), whom I've been friends with since kindergarten. And lastly, Sol. My love, the man whom I want to spend the rest of my life with. Honestly, Even after thinking really hard for a while I don't think I could chose between the three of them! They're all so important to me <3

💭  𑅕  PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE  ＼  what’s something you’ve always desperately wanted? something from a luxury brand? your childhood friend?

A :: I've always wanted someone to call 'husband.' It's all so cheesy and cliché, but little me just couldn't help but dream of being so close to someone that I'd say 'I love you' to, and not just in a family way! I've already decided a long time ago that I don't wish to have children, and if I ever did, I'd adopt. It's always been really hard for me to find someone I truly love, as I have to be super close to them, or I can't see them like that. I've always found others to be 'attractive' subjectively, but would I want to marry them or kiss them? No way! Well... that was until I met Sol. <3

🦷  𑅕  DON’T SMILE  ＼  who in this reality can make you laugh even at the worst times? do they purposely try to get a giggle out of you? is it completely unintentional?

A :: Sol, 100%. We have such similar humor, it's insane. He can somehow sense when I'm even slightly down?? It's honestly weird, but not in a bad way! It's honestly helped me so much keeping my stress levels down. Other times, he does it completely unintentionally. He's just the silliest little guy <3

THANK YOU FOR ASKINGGGGG. Naming my first adopted child "Reverie," trust!! I hope my answers were good <3

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Can you talk about the school your attend in your boarding school dr and your better cr dr please ?

MY SCHOOL - BETTER CR

Thank you so much for asking this question!! Ahhh, I'm so excited. >3< I'm still working on my boarding school DR, so I will talk about my better CR school! We're just going to call it C High School for safety purposes!

C High School is a private high school. Established in 1959 by Shelby Elmer, it houses grades freshman through senior. C High School has had one of the best grades for high schools for 50 consecutive years! It's a very prestigious school, yet it isn't uptight. Teachers and staff listen to the problems of each individual student and take them into deep consideration. They even have professional therapists on-site just for students to talk to. C High School has around 2,500 students enrolled and offers a bunch of different opportunities for each student. The school is more lenient in getting us ready for college!

UNIFORMS ::

allowed to be altered due to religious reasons.

The uniforms are super comfortable! Girls can switch out the skirt for some black pants if they aren't comfortable wearing a skirt, or they can alter the skirt for it to be longer. Must wear shorts underneath the skirt. ^^ Girls can also wear socks or stockings and accessorize.

On Fridays we have free dress day! The rules are super lax, but we aren't allowed to wear short shorts, and we must have straps on. Spaghetti straps are allowed!

SOME RULES ::

We are only allowed to go to the vending machine and the vending machine area during breaks/lunch.

You can have your phone during class if it's free time! We aren't allowed to be on it during lessons.

Gum is allowed, but it MUST be put in the trash can when you are done with it.

You are allowed to bring your own devices to take notes, like an iPad or a computer. You are only allowed to take notes during the lessons, and anyone caught doing anything other than taking notes during lessons gets a warning. 3 warnings, and then you go to the office. ^^

STUDENT ID'S ::

The school IDs come in all sorts of colors! From pink, to blue, to black, to green, literally super customizable! We are allowed to accessorize the IDs, like putting on cute stickers or doodling on them, but we can't black out our name or put anything on the barcode that's on the back!

SCHOOL APPEARANCE ::

SCHEDULE ::

Now what classes do I take? Well here we go!

Period 1: Junior Seminar

Period 2: AP english literature

Period 3: AP Biology

[Lunch]

Period 4: pre calculus

Period 5: AP physics I

Period 6: AP drawing

Period 7: AP US history

Some other important info is that School starts at 10 AM! No more getting up at 6:30 am to get ready!! Also, we only go to school on Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday. The weekends and Wednesday are days to charge up and have fun! It also ends later at 4:15 PM, but that's fine <3

Thank you for listening to me yap about my school. I love my better CR SO MUCH!!! And thank you anon for this question WAHHHH

There's so much more I could write, butttttt there's a limit on pictures on tumblr ^^;

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HOW I STAY SMELLING GOOD ALL DAY - BETTER CR

Warning: I haven't tried like 99% of these products in this reality.... and I also scripted that I smell like strawberries and vanilla all the time, but... still gotta keep yourself clean, even in your dr!!

Smelling good all day isn't easy. There are a lot of products, time spent, and, of course, money involved. But is it worth it? Absolutely. I always get compliments from my friends and at school based on how I smell, and the BEST compliment you can get is from someone telling you that you smell good. Now, how do I keep myself smelling good every day? Well, first, it starts in the shower.

First, get yourself an antibacterial soap. I prefer Dial, but you can also use Dove or any other brand. Take a washcloth, or even an African net sponge, and rub ALL over your body, but NOT your vagina. I use an African net sponge because I find it gets me a better everyday exfoliation, but some people find it a little too harsh and only use it a couple of times a week. Also, for your vagina, get yourself an UNSCENTED body bar. This time I prefer Dove.

2. This is only 1-2x a week, but then you get your scented body scrub and use it on your body, again, NOT on your vagina.

3. If you're doing an everything shower, then this is where you shave. I scripted that I don't get any body hair, so this isn't needed for me. ^^ If you're like me, or not doing an everything shower, get your scented body wash and a silicone scrubber. You can use a loofah, but I prefer a silicone scrubber because it doesn't get bacteria as easily as a loofah does!

4. Body oil time!! Use baby oil or a body oil! Makes your skin super duper soft and sleek.

5. Moisturize!!! Put this on top of the body oil. You can use either lotion or body butter. I prefer lotion because I don't like getting the body butter under my nails </3

6. After alllll of that, it's now time for perfume, perfume oil, and body spray! My FAV perfume for smelling like strawberries and vanilla cream is the Burberry Her Elixir. I put these on my pulse points! Then I use the Bath and Body Works 'Strawberry Snowflake' body mist, and then I use a vanilla-scented perfume oil! Perfume oil is very much optional, so don't feel pressured to put it on. Make sure to put on your deodorant afterward <3 I use the Dove spray deodorant in the scent 'apple and white tea.'

And that's how I keep myself smelling good all day, every day! I usually keep a small perfume bottle and put some perfume in it to keep myself smelling good at school or when I go out. Thank you for reading if you made it this far <33

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`` WHO IS SHE ... ? `` - BETTER CR

"You don’t have to let me in all at once. Just… don’t shut the door completely. I’ll wait right outside, as long as it takes." - Ezra Celeste

INTRODUCTION —

NAME :: Ezra Aria Celeste

AGE :: 16

OCCUPATION :: Student

FUTURE OCCUPATION :: Librarian or chef

LANGUAGES :: English, Korean, Japanese, Mandarin, French, Spanish, Norwegia

DETAILS —

MBTI :: INFP

HOBBIES :: Cooking/baking, figure skating, editing, drawing/painting, writing, shopping, reading

LIKES :: Cats, sweets, sour things, buying things for my friends, spending money, shifting, pink, sanrio, anime

DISLIKES :: Heat, getting up late, bugs, too much noise going on at once, watching sports, afternoons

FUN FACTS —

I have a sixth sense for cute things. You could drop me in any store, and I'd still manage to find something pink and girly.

I name every one of my flowers

I have way too many photos in my gallery, and each one is labelled in a different folder.

I swear up and down that pulling rituals increase my luck when pulling in gacha games. It's totally not because I'm already so lucky because I scripted it...

I see anything that reminds me of my friends and immediately buy it. Doesn't matter what it is.

I have stayed up way too late wayyy too many times baking just because "I couldn't sleep."

I live with 2 of my friends in our own house!

APPEARANCE —

I am 5'6 or 167 cm!

my blood type is O+

I weigh around 110 pounds or around 50 kg

I have naturally blushed cheeks!

I smell like strawberries and faintly of vanilla cream

VIBES —

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WHAT'S IN MY MAIN BAG?? - BETTER CR

My bag is a Kappa matte leather tote bag in the shade Peach Milk and Foam Pink! I have a different bag for my school days, but unless you guys wanna ask for it, I'll keep it on hold. ^^

My bag is pretty pink, the decor even more so... I love to accessorize everything and give it my own little charms!

୨ৎ KEYCHAINS - just something super cute and simple to accessorize. I picked the middle one while Liya personally made the third one, and Danny picked the first one!

୨ৎ PINS - shows my interests! I'm an avid Precure watcher and Sanrio lover!! The mirror was a small birthday gift from Danny, and I adore it so much!

୨ৎ HAIRCLIPS - Small hair clips on the straps to give the straps some character! I just chose the cutest ones I had!

୨ৎ HANDSANITIZER - Can't go wrong with some hand sanitizer!! I picked my favorite scent, strawberries, because I just can't resist it!

୨ৎ PHOTOCARD HOLDER AND PHOTO - A lovely brief moment from our middle school graduation, just before we headed into high school! Blue is Liya, red is Danny, and pink is... obviously me.

୨ৎ PLUSHIE KEYCHAINS - more accessories to give it even more flair!! As I say, there is no such thing as too many accessories!

୨ৎ POUCH - A small pouch just in case I can't fit everything in the main pocket! It fits a small snack (like mochi or sometimes a Hello Panda snack), an old camera, and some more hair clips since I don't like using the ones on my straps.

Here are some of the things inside! Still... very pink. Can't help that it's my favorite color!

୨ৎ PHONE - Yes, of course I'm going to have my phone! It's an iPhone 15 Pro Max in pink! I'm probably never going to change from this phone... it's just so cute!!!

୨ৎ WALLET - ALWAYS have to have my wallet. How else am I going to get 10 sandwiches just for myself from Subway??? It also has an AirTag attached to it, just in case I lose it!

୨ৎ KEYS - My home keys and a key to my parents' home! (Yes, I live in a different house than my parents lol.)

୨ৎ AIRPODS - Always have to have my AirPods with me! They're like my lifeline....

୨ৎ HYGIENE POUCH - Always need one of these! Not really for me, but for my friends or maybe a classmate!

୨ৎ SKETCHBOOK & PENCIL - I'm always drawing, whether that be in the car, on long flights, or even in class. So it's always needed with me!

୨ৎ MAKEUP POUCH - I don't wear makeup very often, usually just lip gloss or some mascara, but my friends might need some makeup!

୨ৎ GLASSES CASE - Danny's glasses inside with my own flair in terms of the case. Danny needs them and often leaves them with me!

୨ৎ HAIRBRUSH - Even though I scripted my hair never tangles, it's literally so useful for anyone to have on them.

୨ৎ TRINKET POUCH - Small trinkets my friends give me go in here! I love having it with me all the time because even though some of my friends are overseas, they'll still be with me!

୨ৎ PORTABLE CHARGER - Again, always needed! I don't want my phone to die on a very long road trip to an amusement park!

୨ৎ CLAWCLIPS - One for me, another extra. Though I use both interchangeably.

୨ৎ CALICO CRITTERS - They're just cute! It also reminds me of my childhood.

More pink!! Imagine the Hygiene pouch being bigger, as well as the makeup pouch being a bit larger as well ^^;

MAKEUP POUCH

୨ৎ BEAUTY BLENDER - I prefer beauty blenders instead of makeup brushes because I like the absorbent properties of the blenders!

୨ৎ LIP GLOSS - Some Dior lip gloss because I am bougie. Always in love with the slightly tinted color!!

୨ৎ HIGH LIGHTER - Rare Beauty's highlighter in the color 'Enlighten.'

୨ৎ BLUSH - Romand blush in the color 'Vine nude.' I love the subtlety! especially because I already have naturally blushed cheeks.

୨ৎ EYELINER - super opaque, and I love liquid eyeliners. I don't like the texture of pencil eyeliners, and they're easier to smudge, which is good if the person wants it... But I want my eyeliner to stay in place and not budge!

୨ৎ CONCEALER - Dior concealer in the shade 2C or 1C... I forgot. I don't wear foundation because it's usually a bit heavy for my skin. Plus, I don't really need it. My skin's already glowing!!

୨ৎ EYESHADOW - Cupid Club eyeshadow! I don't usually wear a lot of eyeshadow, but when I do, it's usually in pinky-brown tones with some white and sparkles.

HYGIENE POUCH

୨ৎ DEODORANT - a small, travel-sized stick of apple and white tea deodorant! I really wanted a small spray version but they didn't have it :(

୨ৎ BANDAIDS - Just in case someone gets hurt! Of course, they are Sanrio/pink themed! I couldn't help myself!

୨ৎ STAIN REMOVER - I prefer the Tide-to-Go pen because it's super easy to carry and doesn't take up a lot of space!

୨ৎ MEDICINE - I usually carry some Tylenol or Advil with me just in case Liya or Danny gets a headache!

୨ৎ GUM - More gum! Except it's mint and peppermint flavored. I don't use these; it's more for other people... I absolutely HATE peppermint and anything with mint in it, so I stay very far away from these... but I go through them like hotcakes when I go to school.

୨ৎ PADS & TAMPONS - Of course, necessities! I don't get my period, but some other women do in my DR! I have different sizes and absorbencies as well.

୨ৎ PERFUME - Both a tiny Dior perfume and Burberry 'Her' perfume! I love, love, LOVE Burberry perfumes, so of course I've got to have it!

୨ৎ HAIRSTICK - The one I have is from Japan, and it's superrr helpful! My hair can sometimes get some strays, so this is super helpful to have on hand!

୨ৎ VASELINE - gotta have some Vaseline! Super versatile and helps my lips' moisture stay nice and locked in.

୨ৎ DRY SHAMPOO - I don't get greasy roots in between washes, but still, someone else might need it!

୨ৎ HAND CREAM - Honestly, I just chose this for the scent and cute packaging, but it's also very soothing and not oily! It fades into the skin perfectly and has a pleasant-but-not-overbearing peachy scent.

୨ৎ SUNSCREEN - Personally, I LOVE Centella's sunscreen. It's just perfect! There's no white cast, it absorbs into my skin like a sponge, so I don't feel oily... perfection! Also, always have some sunscreen on you.

I'm more sentimental in my DR than I am in this reality, so of course I had to add a little trinket pouch and ask my friends to give me some items!

WALLET

୨ৎ CARDS - I'm extra and have a black card even though I mostly use my **pink** debit card. Yes, I have to emphasize that it is pink.

୨ৎ CASH - I always have that anxiety that somehow I'll never have enough money on my card (even though I have infinite money), so I just keep a little cash on me. I also like to give my friend's money when they ask, so if we are all shopping, I can just give them some money and let them be on their way!

୨ৎ STUDENT ID CARD - Of course I have to have my student ID. It's pink.... You should know why by now. Our student IDs can be accessorized and chosen in different colors. Just imagine it's a bit lighter of a pink ;)

୨ৎ TICKET - This was the first time me, Liya, and Danny went to the amusement park together! It was like in 7th grade when my aunt asked me. I've always been a homebody, but I decided, why not? Let's just say I had the most fun I've ever had in my entire life!

୨ৎ GUM - It's a piece of gum a family friend gave to me for my birthday! It was a joke, of course, but I still saved it.

TRINKET POUCH

୨ৎ CRYSTALS - Danny absolutely loves crystals, especially amethyst. So when she found a perfectly good amethyst crystal on a walk home from school, she was ecstatic and instantly gave it to me <3

୨ৎ PEARL BRACELET - Clara may be overseas, but she sent me a link to a small shop offering pearl bracelets. I couldn't resist! I bought it and now I keep it in my little pouch so I can be reminded of her whenever I look at it.

୨ৎ PURPLE PIN - okay, it may not be a pin, but I have no idea what it's called. This was from Liya! Back in 4th grade, she went to Africa for vacation and brought this back because it reminded her of me. I still don't understand what she means by that, but... I still take care of it and hold it very dear to my heart.

୨ৎ ROCK - just... a plain old rock. Nothing special within it, just a rock. Alice certainly is a very eccentric person by normal standards, but that's okay! She lives in Italy but told me to go outside and find a rock so that she could always be with me. And... that's how I got the rock.

୨ৎ PLUSHIE - Same thing with Clara, Iris lives pretty far away, and I wanted something to keep her close. I asked her to send me a link to something, and she sent me this! I bought it, and now it stays there... lurking... silently watching.

୨ৎ BUTTON - This was actually a button to one of my favorite shirts when I was a kid. It is also the first time I met Odessa. (Odessa is the fairy queen; yes, I will hopefully expand on how faeries are real in my better cr!)

୨ৎ FEATHER, RIBBON, BOTTLECAP - Some gifts that Odessa gifted me! I keep her gifts in a small box because I hate throwing them away, even though she tells me its okay. ^^;

୨ৎ TEDDY BEAR CHAIN - Aether... can you guess what happened with her? Same old story. She lives across the country, and I wanted something to keep her close!!

Some dividers by @si-eunnis - idea by @chaaistained

AS SWEET AS STRAWBERRIES

BEAUTY ‧₊˚ ⋅

Your beauty feels fresh and sweet, like taking a bite of the juiciest strawberry as they realize how fresh and sweet it is.

Your face is sculpted gently with an artistry that tells a story of a farmer loving their field, taking care of it every single day without fail, and finally finishing up in the sun.

The sun seems to look your way whenever you walk outside, its rays glittering against your face like locks of gold. The sun never seems to make you look unflattering; it always makes you look radiant.

Whenever you walk into a room, people can't help but stare. Not just at you, but behind you. Wherever you go, there seems to be this angelic-yet-light-and-airy aura around you that never fails to catch people's attention.

Your voice is light and airy, like walking on a soft cloud while dreaming, as well as sweet, like taking a soft sip of strawberry milk in the morning sun.

There's something about your smile that makes people unable to forget you. Like honey drizzled over ripe fruit-inviting, warm, and insatiably sweet.

Your eyes hold the kind of wonder you only see in fairy tales. Whimsicality, freshness, and a little bit of mischief, with just enough sparkle to make people feel like they've been let on in a little secret.

The color pink and red fits you... a little too well. As if the color was made from its bare bones directly because of you. The colors don't just compliment you-theyre made for you. No one looks as good in the colors as you do, no one can compare.

When you walk passed people it feels like the soft breeze of spring just rushed by. Gentle, soft, and full of promise, but most importantly, enough to make people think that the cold never existed.

PERSONALITY ‧₊˚ ⋅

Your thoughts have this soft chaos to them, like strawberry soda—light, unpredictable, and endlessly fun to be around.

You give off a type of childlike innocence that always leaves others fumbling about what could possibly be going on inside of your brain. Your ideas and creativity never fail to leave people stunned.

Your kindness never goes unforgotten, as if it is woven into the fabric of time and history itself. In time, the fruits of your labor always end well, just the way you want it to.

Your curiosity is wild and can never be contained, like a child running through strawberry fields, picking off some bugs and getting their hands dirty without a second thought, never afraid to ask 'why?' in any situation while reaching for something new.

Your laughter reminds people of the golden sun fading into the night sky after a long day, rows of pink and gold running through the sky and painting the horizon. You laugh as if you have never tasted sadness, like joy is the only thing coming your way.

There's something about the way that you care, like it's the most natural thing in the world. You never fail to see through the people who need it the most, and they will forever appreciate that.

people don't just remember you, your emeded into their memory. Your implaned into their DNA. No one who glances your way doesn't remember you, even if you were only in the background.

Silence with you is like sitting under a tree in midsummer, letting the sun gaze upon your skin as you let your pores soak up the rays. The warm breeze tickling your skin as the air is filled with a warmth that no one can describe-but they can feel it.

SIGNATURE SCENTS ‧₊˚ ⋅

Strawberry and Vanilla

Raspberry and Jasmine

Rose and pear

Strawberry and cinammon

Strawberry pound cake and Cotton candy

Rose and sandalwood

FASHION ‧₊˚ ⋅

Soft frills, lace, and cotton. Perfect for long walks in a flower field.

Shorts, long skirts, and short-sleeved shirts. You're never afraid to get these dirty, no matter how expensive they are.

Long socks, leg warmers, scuffed shoes. Lingering traces of your wondering curiosity.

Green, red, white pink, brown. The colors that compliment you the most, they represent your childish yet sweet nature that never fails to show through your actions.

Some divider's by @si-eunnis !!

𝐼𝓃𝓉𝓇𝑜𝒹𝓊𝒸𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃

Hello, I am a shifter from tiktok. I want to become more serious about shifting so I've decided to try and move to tumblr!

Basics ;

17 years olds (be mindful!)

Way too many dr's

Aroace/Ambiamory

I love reading manhwa, especially if it has a reverse harem with poly ending.... Don't get me started on how much I love an overpowered female character!

I would like to say that I'm quite creative, though I do go through many blocks because of being Autistic and having ADHD

I mainly go by she/they pronouns but I don't mind being called anything else! (pls use it/its for me I will literally hug you if you do!!)

Questions??

Go ahead! As long as it isn't anything weird. I'm just getting more serious about my shifting journey, despite having known about it for so long… Open to suggestions and post requests too! Overall just here to have fun ^^

DNI ;

Regular dni criteria, Anti-shifters, people who kill for fun, people who shift themselves to be younger just for romance with a younger person, uhm… I can't think of anything else currently but I might edit this ^^;

DR's that I will post about!

Athengale Boarding School

Better CR (main dr)

Demon slayer

Naruto(??)

Edited this to change it to the new theme, please excuse any horrible layouts in the future ^^;;

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inspired by ; @lalalian (shes amazing, please check her out!!)

“i love you mo—” ho who is the one who changed reality and almost went insane ????? not you ? yeah.

The vibes in my jjk reality

I tried, but it’s basically out of context and chaotic + us first years + curses yo

I remember the time I didn’t realize I was using the WBTB method and that I found myself dreaming and saw stars in my vision, then felt myself slipping into the void and I was just floating there like “🧍🏻‍♀️” because I wasn’t sure what to do and didn’t know what was going on because I was so confused 😭 I still find myself slipping into the Void every once in a while sksksks

shifting blog #3

So ive decided to bring back shifting to my life in small increments. I discovered i wanted to shift to be myself. As someone who lives in a very strict household my need changed to want to have fun, and to have andimportant purpose. That feels like thats a new healthy relationship to shifting rather than treating it like a lifeline or my lst hipe for happiness. I had to step away for 2 months to really just rest from it all.

The way i was also getting uncomfortable by a lot of the shifting community didnt help either. Shifting became a lifeline for so many people. Shifting consumed peoples lives and when i realized it consumed mine i got freaked out. It still makes me uncomfortable to be in the shifting community after seeing how people are now. It used to be really fun and now i dont know i dont think ill stay, and for those thinking "ha. Loser giving up" while you yourself didnt shift, i hope you do shift then. If thats what you want go for it this isnt what i want. Its uncomfortable and weird. Its weird how you think this is normal or should be normal or ok.

So. Since im leaving, im just going to unapologetically list everything im uncomfortable with.

- How some shifters acted like celebrities

- "Its your shifting dad astro"

- Convincing other shifters they're a loser for wanting to quit

- The walking dead shifters

- Shifting to be a kid to date a kid (I dont care if you're technically a kid in the dr, you are weird. and you know you are.)

- How we all just listened to every shifting advice and ran with it. Doesnt it scare you how we were all so desperate to leave?

- People who shift to be with villains/bullies.

- People who tell others if they dont script out xyz then they condone xyz.

- People who scripted they got s/a'd in their dr just to get hurt/comfort. You're also traumatizing yourself and your comfort character btw and ruining both of your mental health.

- People who thinks mean = funny

- The people that think they are stuck in this DR. Like for some reason that makes me uncomfortable. You're saying you are stuck as if you werent ment to be here. Like homie this is your home. You arent stuck here.

- The way theres a little voice in my head that says "Oh maybe this will help me shift" every time I declaire im done with shifting.

- The way i spent all day, 15 hours, on notion. This happened multiple times and i was at my worst.

- The way this unhealthy behavior is condoned.

- The way some people are with someone and then wanna permashift to be with another. At that point its cheating. Its cheating.

- How people tried to respawn.

You need a wake up call and realize the shifting community isnt ok. Its filled with a toxic spiritual relationship to shifting. Its not supposed to be this way. Its supposed to be fun. And everyone here is just miserable.

Shifters blog entry #2

So I've decided to take an indefinite break from shifting. Nobody talks about how much shifting makes you hurt emotionally. Ive been trying to shift for almost 4 years now and i think its time i start moving on. Im at the point where im now so sad and depressed and i want to take the steps mecessary to become happy in my cr. Running from the problem was never an option, and it just made everything worse.

People often talk about how its weak or pathetic to give up shifting. Its not. I give up. I throw in my towel after almost 4 years. All shifting has done for me personally is run from my problems and im not going to anymore.

For so long ive been trying to be someone else. to be "Danica". and im not danica. Im just someone that wanted to be seen. and loved. and happy.

I was 17 when i first discovered shifting and ever since then ive been trying. im 21 years old now.

Its my first day trying to quit and now that u am detaching i see that someone shifting became my whole life. the posters on my walls the clothes i wear, my entire tiktok fyp, my gallery, my routine. I unknowingly had an unhealthy obsession with shifting. And i didnt know it untill i became so burned out that i realized i just want to be myself. and i want to be happy.

I cant say for sure i'll never try to shift again.

What i can say, im now going to take the path of manifestation instead. If you're a shifter, challenge yourself and try and see why you are unhappy. my own unhappiness came from shifting.

Shifter Blog Entry #1

While I have been trying to shift since 2020 of october its now tome for me to try something new. I've scripted a better cr. After a lot of concideration I decided this would be a great choice for myself. The state of the world with absolute nut jobs in charge of it. I need to be somewhere safe.

The worst part about shifting is its entirely independent. Theres nobody awaiting you when you arrive, and theres nobody that knows you left. And the guilt, the idea of concept of leaving behind what i call and know as home eats at me. The idea of like my family not being enough for me when they do so much makes me feel ungrateful and i find myself looking at movie villains betraying their family for power. How could they do it?

We are shifters we have the power of a god in our hands. And yet i cant get over the guilt of leaving behind a family that could definitely use some therapy. A Better reality i deserve to be in and i just feel like im leaving my family behind.

If im ever going to live this is an action of must. sometimes life makes you do things that dont feel good.

Im going. to a better family and a better world, one we all deserve. So if you feel guilty about leaving your family behind its ok. Shifting is a hard commitment to make. you will be so much more happier when you're there 🩷

further more i find detachment to be so helpful too! (for me)

Heres how I detach, and use it as a routine.

So detachment for me means that I am not worrying or focusing on my CR. I am Calm and relaxed and there are no ties of my thoughts to my cr to stress over or worry about like chores or friends or events.

I get into a routine first to let go of my cr stress.

before you detach read your script (optional)

1. I like to start by eliminating what stressed me out so if its chores i didnt get done i do them ect. anything thats not done thats needed for tomorrow is done so when i start to detach my thoughts arent thinking about or stressing over/reminding myself of what needs to be done.

2. after im finished with all my chores or tasks that stress me out i take a shower and i dont rush it. it makes me feel refreshed. it makes me feel like I'm not so grounded or need to be aware. It calms the brain down. for others it can be reading or anything

3. I say goodnight to all my friends and family or let people know im busy if its an awake method/put phone on do not disturb. this is again, eliminates thought ties to your cr.

4. i dont close my eyes yet but i like to unfocus my eyes and heavy breaths. detach your thoughts and let them drift its like meditation. let all your stress go away. feel your mind slow down feel your emotions let go.

5. Now this that i am relaxed with zero worries or stress and my thoughts are kinda detached from reality I lay down and i start to visualize i am there. and i think like my dr self/do my method.

I hope this helps :))

HOW DO I SHIFT?

i’ve reached a point where the idea of sitting down and meditating, affirming, visualising, wbtb, void state, etc. etc. all bore me.

i know these r all tools which may help u reach your desired reality. however if we use loa, we can easily cut out methods (the middle man). all we see on shiftblr and shiftok is people telling us that if you persist and affirm you will shift or if you reach the void state u will shift. i’m not trying to deny these, but who’s to say u wont shift just by saying fuck it ill just wake up in my dr? bc the way i see it my dr is not a diff reality, it’s just the same reality manifesting itself differently. we all know what we say about the 3d and 4d. try to view shifting as just staying in this same reality but it’s your dr, if that makes sense? don’t think, i’m going to shift TO my dr, think i am in my desired state now and ALWAYS and watch it manifest in front of u. i think a lot of people’s struggle stems from their view of their dr as a faraway land that they can imagine living in but can’t imagine actually “leaving” this reality and “shifting” to that one. view your cr and dr as the same reality with diff 3d circumstances bc that’s what it needs to be for u to get rid of that thought of leaving this reality (which blocks u). just gts telling yourself that when u wake up u will be in your cr except all things will be identical to that of your dr. lmk if this works or helps anyone!!

Hello im Danica, and im a 21 year old shifter thats been in the community since late october 2020.

I have one mini shift experience to a twilight DR

Main DRs;

DC (Solo, Duo and group shift) Love interest batman

DC Rookie Hero

Fame DR (Currently rescripting) love interest: ?

Better CR

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Mini shifted; Twilight

How it happened/Method; Genuinely i was pretty burnt out from shifting so i told myself its time like its time to prove to myself i will shift and i was over a shifting journey. so i kept affirming as i fell asleep that i am (DR Name) and i am so and so. And i fell asleep. and then. i woke up and i saw this beautiful log cabin but it feels so natural. like I didnt even notice i was somewhere different i just felt like i always been there. and i see edward beside me and i took my ass back to sleep. It was a strange time. I am pretty sure this was 2022. Im glad i didnt fully shift here i dont think it was a good dr looking back on it.

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First script;

Naruto: i was going to be kakashi's girlfriend and be a team leader/sensei but i decided against it.

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Places i want to shift to but didnt script for;

The Batman 2021 (playing as bruce waynes girl friend)

Beach DR

High Fantasy/Merlin

Pokemon

Marvel

I just made a 12 page written script for a fame dr we havent even finished it yet

the new medication I’m taking gives me the same full body tingles that shifting does and it’s making me feel more motivated than ever before

idk where I’m shifting to, but I know I’m shifting

I GOT SO UNBELIEVABLY CLOSE TO SHIFTING LAST NIGHT

IVE BEEN TAKING AN EXTENDED BREAK FROM SHIFTING DUE TO MY MENTAL HEALTH CUS I JUST WENT DOWN THIS HUGE SPIRAL BUT I FOUND THIS VIDEO OF THIS GIRL EXPLAINING HER METHOD AND IT SEEMED SIMPLE ENOUGH

I MENTIONED BEFORE THAT THE PAST FEW TIMES I ALMOST SHIFTED IT FELT LIKE FALLING INTO A TUNNEL OR LIKE THAT ONE SCENE IN DOCTOR STRANGE WHERE HES PHASING THROUGH DIMENSIONS

THE METHOD IS BASICALLY THAT

SHE CALLED IT THE “ZOOM IN” METHOD AND ITS LITERALLY JUST THAT,, YOU SHUT YOUR EYES AND PICTURE WHERE YOU WANT TO END UP IN YOUR DESIRED REALITY AND THEN JUST IMAGINE “ZOOMING IN”

THE ROOM AROUND YOU FADES OUT AND THE ROOM YOU WANT TO BE IN FADES IN,, ILL ADD THE VIDEO LATER IT WAS A SINPLE SLIDESHOW I JUST WANNA WRITE THIS DOWN BEFORE I FORGET

SO I TRIED IT (AFTER DOING THE WIM HOF BREATHING METHOD) AND I GOT SO MANY SYMPTOMS IMPOSSIBLY FAST

MY WHOLE BODY FELT TINGLY AND MY EYES WERE TWITCHING LIKE CRAZY AND I FELT ALL HOT AND MY HEAD STARTED HURTING AND I COULDNT HEAR MY SUBLIMINAL ANYMORE (I PLAYED 1 HOUR OF SHIFTING PINK NOISE AFTER THE BREATHING VIDEO) AND I WAS SO CLOSE TO SHIFTING I KNOW I WAS

I WASNT ACTUALLY EXPECTING IT TO WORK SO WELL OR SO QUICKLY SO I DIDNT KNOW WHERE TO SHIFT TO AND JUST SORTA GAVE UP AND WENT TO SLEEP

BUT STARS I HAVENT FELT THIS INSPIRED SINCE THE FIRST TIME I WENT INTO THAT TUNNEL IT WAS SO EXHILARATING AND TERRIFYING ALL AT ONCE

IM NOT PLANNING ON TRYING AGAIN BC I NEED TO GIVE MY EARS A BREAK FROM MY AIRPODS AND AFTER ATTEMPTING I WOKE UP WITH A HORRIBLE HEADACHE AND INTENSE NAUSEA BUT IM DEFINITELY GONNA TRY THIS METHOD AGAIN STARS ABOVE IVE NEVER FELT THIS CLOSE BEFORE

affirmed a few times last night that I was gonna lucid dream and wake up early,, just to see if entering a lucid dream was literally as simple as that

and it was🧍

I entered a lucid dream and I woke up earlier than I typically do,, even before my alarm

at some point within my dream I even felt myself to start waking up, but ive had this problem before and have been researching grounding techniques, and I remembered to apply them and I stayed fully asleep

it’s just so crazy to me!

I keep having dreams about a certain reality I’ve been attempting to shift to during the years,,, it’s not my current main one, my previous main one, or even a reality I’ve thought of in a while,, so I’m gonna take that as a little sign to shift to that reality

but oh my god,, I actually set intention to lucid dream and I did it

the minds so powerful and is capable of literally anything,, I just need to keep reminding myself that

I both did and didn’t understand feeling so attached to the reality you’re shifting to that it emotionally affects you,,

like I understood when people would talk about their family or their significant others or their friends or their children in other realities and talk about how much they miss them,, I understand the concept of loving and missing someone

but I had never, personally, experienced it,, I had missed hanging out with them before and thinking of things we’d do if I were in that reality in that moment in time, but I hadn’t experienced longing over someone in another reality

but I do now and by the gods is it both the best and worst feeling in the world,,

I miss his voice and his dumb accent and his stupid witch cackles and the shitty way he dresses and his dumb flirting

I miss being in his arms and feeling him run his fingers through my hair and his hand in mine and how soft he would hold me like I was made of glass and how he loved me despite neither of us knowing what love was

I miss him

I’ve never missed someone like this before

it’s weird and it hurts, but I like it at the same time