Ed Cw - Blog Posts
i keep getting ed stuff for no reason on this app when i do not interact with those people at all and keep blocking them. tumblr can you stop please im just a fat mf trying to exist in this world without someone telling me that im an obese unlovable bitch and that i need to get to 90 pounds. like okay you guys have fun killing yourselves over not being able to fit into a child size (lighthearted) (kind of not)
btw i literally have a binging disorder (bed) and frequently go into binging episodes. i am similar yet opposite to yall but please can this app stop forcing me to look at 7h1nsp0 (replace 7, 1, 0 with t, i, o respectively). i love my thunder thighs dont yall bitches steal my thunder.
anyways for anyone trying to recover from an ed i love you ill give you so many kisses. mwah
it sucks beyond belief, the tug of war her mind anxiously wages against her body absorbing anything that might remotely help her survive the day without feeling like she will pass out. the peanut butter was supposed to help settle her stomach, not plow across her thoughts like a divining rod of judgment deeming her too delicate to eat without her silhouette tattling and too unworthy of a source of fuel besides tab today. the thought alone makes her feel nauseous again, but another can of it is all she can reach for at school until dinner. just one more setback she has to muscle through, today - one more thing to make her stronger. she hopes. it better.
but the other shoe always drops.
❝ thought i was by myself. ❞ chrissy makes quick work of grabbing toilet paper to make herself decent while contemplating the pros and cons of exiting the stall. had she really been so lost in miserable thought that she’d failed to sense an entire person walking in? hard to call this girl’s presence intrusion when there wasn’t a sign on the door. sorry, i’m puking my guts out, come back later! yeah, right. like that would ever fly. the passing concern is embarrassing enough. ❝ i don’t need the nurse, it’s fine. my mom just...packed something past the expiration date. ❞
disloyal knees shake when she stands to reach for the flush, sheltering in the clatter of porcelain and pipes for too-short moments. after that, all bets are off. chrissy inches closer to the stall door but stops with the tip of her nose nearly kissing it, her fingers wobbling over the cold metal latch. it’s a small, grounding mercy. ❝ it wasn’t cafeteria food. just in case you wondered. ❞
june doesn't know who's in the other bathroom stall. she just knows that the girl is retching up a storm and it sounds absolutely awful. as she exits the stall and washes her hands, the vomiting continues from the stall with the mystery girl inside and she feels her skin crawl. something just doesn't seem right and, while june is not the type to normally care much, she can't help but to feel obligated, "hey, are you okay? do you need the nurse or somethin'?"
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