Trigger Warning
i laid down on the hard sidewalk, staring at the stars while tears filled up in my eyes.
I impulsively messaged a old fp & while he instantly responded with positivity like he always has.
Simultaneously, my current fp messaged me back, responding to my response of his story on insta. 
I don’t even know why I’m crying, sure, maybe it’s because my dad has cancer, my childhood friend/bully died the other day, my uncle is in the hospital after being found unconscious on the floor, we are being kicked out our apartment, and im here weeping over stupid shit like why doesn’t he love me back…