Escaping Reality - Blog Posts
Readers reading and daydreaming to escape the real world, because reality is shit :
Anyone remember "The Third Level" by Jack Finney. Everyone just wants to escape from this bs world rn. So do I would f* this s* and go into the fiction world & live my life like no tomorrow! Wait for me Mr. Darcy. I'll f* find that third level!
Oh, to be a bunny in a field of flowers with no responsibility and no problems🌸
tw - mention of mh, od, ed
i’ve wasted my years wishing i was somewhere else.
i wanted to shift so badly that i stop caring about my life here. i’m not living, i’m just existing.
shifting is a big reason why i’m still alive today but i don’t have a healthy relationship with it. i remember when i gave up on shifting back in 2021 and i attempted to take my own life. i was so hopeless.
five years of shifting and i mini-shifted(?) once. i’ve wasted 5 years of my life to the desire to escape. i could’ve studied and went to college but i didn’t. why would i, when i can just shift? but i couldn’t shift and i wasted my time. shifting never solved my problems, only helped me escape. it didn’t heal my depression, anxiety and ed. it just gave me hope. it was just a distraction from my sad life.
i want to be happy here, i wanna stop wanting to escape. i want to get a life. i’m almost 21 and i’m a mess. my life is a mess.
i’m going to change that. i’m going to appreciate this life and manifest making it better. i’m giving life another chance. i’m going to change myself and my life.
is this giving up on shifting? i don’t know, maybe. i’m forever grateful to know about shifting but i just really need to change the way i view shifting. i need to change my life first but i can’t give up on shifting. i have to shift.
“i have to! because if i don’t, that means all the damage i got isn’t good damage, it’s just damage.“
i’m going to start appreciating my life. i’m gonna start living. for most my whole life i was just existing but im gonna change that now.
this shouldn’t be just my “current reality” or “original reality”. this should be a reality that i enjoy.
i’m not gonna wait for shifting just to live, i’m going to live now.