Ftm - Blog Posts
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really not sure when it happened or why but personally I'm pissed that the queer community at large seems to have given up ground on the "people with penises/vulvas/testes/ovaries" language to sex & gender essentialists in exchange for the much less precise, much more demeaning "AGAB" language.
is it because you're scared of the word vulva? of acknowledging out loud that some people have penises? of recognising that many many people, including but certainly not limited to trans people, have mixed sex characteristics that cannot be accurately summarised by "afab/amab" as shorthand for "female/male"?
"in [GENITAL RELATED] situation AFABs will need to do X and AMABs will need to do Y" there are "afabs" with penises and "amabs" with vulvas. Saying this shit makes you look so unserious & honestly transphobic (given the ongoing erasure of post-op trans people within broader community). Intersex people and GRS have both existed for long enough (fucking forever and, decades, respectively) that we should well past making this basic fucking mistake.
quit referring to people by a vague & often violent event that happened at their birth as though it defines ANYTHING about how they & their body currently operate, and start using precise language so you at least look like you know what you're fucking talking about.
being trans is a bit like
running hands over yourself and thinking
“i cannot wait for there to be a scar there
in the place of something else”
to know that all that will be left is the mark
a tangible reminder of how the creator wronged you
and how you made it right
friendly PSA to my tguy mooties :
you do NOT need to be fully flat. binders very rarely make you completely flat unless you're already quite small-chested. you don't need to live up to the unreal expectation that tguys are flatter than a board.
furthermore, a lot of cis guys have chest mass too. pec muscles are obviously a thing!
you don't need to fulfill anyone's expectations or ideas of tguys. you don't live to please anyone. it's completely fine to wish you WERE flatter since that's a thing a lot of tguys feel, but you shouldn't feel obligated to have to be flat, or else you aren't "valid enough."
love you all.
i wonder who i would be if i kept my hair cut short
i wonder who i'd be if i actually transitioned socially
i wonder if i'd be happier as a boy
i wonder if i stuck to using he/they pronouns i'd feel better
i wonder who he would be if i let them stay
english class english class i hate english class!!!!!!!!!
the best thing about being trans is when people say they’ll kill themselves if they’re paired with you in class
My friend tell me about her classmate saw me in the video and was like: «Holy shit, what a cute boy, can you give me his number?»
It was like a month ago, but still makes me a bit happier
Try to walk straight because it is good for my health - ❌❌❌
Trying to walk straight because it helps with my gender dysphoria - ✅✅✅
merry t-dickmas 😍
One Month on T!!!!!!
So I hit one month on t a couple days ago and changes are thus:
more body hair everywhere especially on my stomach and arms but I'm a little more fuzzy everywhere
enough facial hair that i felt the need to shave it and did with success
deeper voice but not that much deeper and not since about two to three weeks
I'm not exhausted anymore which is nice. I'm glad that effect has worn off
maybe a little hungrier
One more thing. I would like to put forth an unforeseen effect of t-gel specifically. I have not had a stable nigh time routine in years, and the fact that I'm taking t-gel every night and it's something I can't just skip has turned it into an actual routine for me. I brush my teeth and wash my face, then shower, moisturize my face, t-gel, and pajamas. I feel so much better in the evenings and it is so much easier to fall asleep it's insane.
I started T I don’t feel like talking about it with the people in my life because I’m scared they’ll think it’s the only thing I can’t talk or care about. I know that won’t happen but I’m cautious anyway. So here internet take my one week on t changes.
I am so tired. I know everyone talks about having more energy but I will sleep for like 10 hours, wake up still tired, and then fall asleep at noon. It’s crazy. I’ve never been a person who naps but now it’s all I want to do. Other than that there hasn’t been much. I’m pretty sure my acne is worse, and I might have a bit more mustache and stomach hair but. That’s it. Not much but still more than I expected to happen in a week. I’m pumped, but also exhausted. I might make this blog into a diary of sfw changes. Idk. I don’t really post anything anyway.
T-SHOTS
a little sketchbook spread following the delay of my hrt appointment, im a little frustrated and sooo dysphoric
I will not apologize for my existence
"There is this urge inside me, I need to get it out"
sorry for not posting, my life is a mess right now
my power was cut off and I just found out my parents are in serious debt. i am so stressed and dont have time for anything, please take care of yourselves.
something that happened today
"I'll rise and become a transexual god"
the traditional ver of my previous post, i hope you guys like it. :3
<<the constant pressure to be whatever people want me to be is killing me>>
[ID: a text saying "dont be surprised when I bite" on top of a drawing of a wolf snarling biting on a star]
Did you use a refrence for your pinned work? It looks so familiar. I love it!!
I didnt use a reference, tbh I just eyeballed it with a pencil and stopped when I felt like it looked good (but I had to study how muscles worked lol)
feeling frustrated while being in the closet and living with other people who dont know im trans, having to hide my art so they dont suspect a thing is really exhausting. it prevents me from doing bigger and more explicit paintings :c
(btw my commisions are open so I can save up to start hrt)
does this count as a fursona? let me know
