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does it ever make you dysphoric that like, you understand language. I can write and read and speak it and sometimes it just feels wrong. I don't like it. speaking sometimes makes me so dysphoric I almost just dissociate to deal with it
having to do and live through the very basic parts of human society makes me feel even more dysphoric and stuck in my own body. I don't see myself like them and yet they see me as them and I'm bound by their norms and omg I hate it
Not accepted as an animal,
Not accepted as a human.
Wish the humans would pick a struggle, honestly.
Sometimes dysphoria isn’t clawing at your skin, wanting to rip it off to reveal the reptilian scales underneath, sometimes it’s just like “who tf is this ugly ahh monkey in the mirror ☠️”
I do experience species dysphoria, but not in a "I wish I was a real animal" way. Its more like a sudden hyperaware moment of "I'm not supposed to understand human language and conepts or idea, I shouldn't know these things the way I do. Because of their perception of what I am, they know me as human. I am not human, I am entirely a canine, but you don't see that. I am trapped inbetween my exsistence and their view. How miserable."
Fellow plant and spacekin!! ^_^
I hate TikTok SO much.
The video (made by foxintheunderpassage, I recommend supporting them, he posts lovely content):
VS. the comments:
“Mental health matters” until it's someone who is ““delusional”” or seems deranged according to your logic, huh? “Love thy neighbor” unless it's a therian or nonhuman? When did we as a society deem it okay to harass people on the internet? I understand that it's a social platform and free speech and all that, but did we lose all of our common decency?
I won't go on a rant about how all of these people are being extremely disrespectful and demeaning, but I am going to reiterate that physical therians are valid, no matter why they see themselves as entirely nonhuman, and delusional therians do not you to tell them that they need help.
Stop “reality checking” strangers. Just block them and move on.
P.S. There are more theriotypes than just the stereotypical “cute” ones. I know all of my plantkin, unique species, and conceptkin friends can back me up.
I think it's stupid how the seemingly default defense for "weird" identities is "it's okay if some kid identifies as [insert xenogender here] or identifies with another species, they're harmless (implicit 'and they'll get over it), leave them alone" . you also need to be kind and normal towards adults with those identities and you need to get over the idea that people with "odd" identities will surely change eventually. i know so many adult therians + people who id with xenogenders and it's rude to pretend that it's just a childish thing that people will get over eventually.
therians these days dont know how to be normal smh, all they know is experience longing for something unattainable, exist outside of both humanity and animality, eat hot chip and lie
i want to nip at my friends but my muzzle is short and their skin is fragile :(
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We are creations of ✿nature and universe✧
Each of us is unique and each of us deserves to feel good about being ourselves in this world full of roles and meaningless rules created by people who are full of hate and judgment.
society can fuck off
✿let's turn to nature♡
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I always get very agitated when anyone other than a very select few people come into the kitchen when I'm making myself food. It makes me get all growly and defensive.
Sometimes, it's made worse if they ask me what I'm making. Which is crazy! Because if the select few were to ask, I'd happily offer up half to them. But the moment someone outside of that little group tries to reach for what I'm eating, I literally have to stop myself from swatting at their hand.
sigh
i miss being able to photosynthesize. i want to feel the sun and fresh air on my leaves and know of the beautiful process taking place.
i don’t want to just sunbathe, i want the sun to become a part of me, ya know?
Okay so today's rain is really dense that the power went out for a while.
While the rest of my family kept calm, I growled, felt my (phantom) ears twitch, and grit my teeth. I thought something is after me so I became cautious and ready to bite. Yea, I look calm, but my soul feels threatened, aware of a danger that probably doesnt exist.
I probably had a mental shift for a while, but then the power just went on a few minutes later
This sounds so basic but this is the first time I genuinely acknowledge my behaviours after a while sooo
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I'm not a human, I've never been a human and probably never will be one. I've known this for as long as I knew I didn't fit in "correctly" but the annoying thing is I grew up in a human world which cared a LOT about manners
so when I try to be wild and free it just, doesn't work. my brain tells me it wants to eat with its mouth and on all fours but my muscle memory and conscience says that's wrong bc I grew up in a completely opposite way
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I want to be wild and free and feel comfortable being animalistic and sometimes I can, but sometimes due to my nurture I just can't
it's frustrating
Human standards are so wild, actually. What do you mean there’s a whole genre of what someone should look like for them to be accepted? A certain type of looks and fashion being the norm? Women shouldn’t have short hair, men shouldn’t have long hair? Men should have facial and body hair and massive shoulders, women should be hairless and have tiny waists?
They’re just bodies. To function. To breathe, to digest, to see, to hear, to walk. Why shouldn’t we decorate them the way we want to, as the owners of them? Why are some ways of decoration seen as more professional than others?
Teacher: okay so today we are gonna discuss about the next material called kingdom plantae
LETS FUCKINGG GOOOOOOOOOOO *unleashes my branches and shit* 🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳🌳
Somtimes goes howl, sometimes i growl, but mostly i heheheehehehehehehehehhehe like a foul
therians hate climate change
Why are humans so busy? Why do they have to work to justify existing? Why do they have to be productive all the time, and why are they dragging me to follow the same mentality? Why is it morally wrong to do the bare minimum? Why do we have to accumulate wealth just to be happy?
Look at dogs. Zero worries. Literally just eating, sleeping, going on walks, playing. They don't have to do anything. They just have to be. Why can't I do the same? I'm not human, and yet I'm expected to follow the same guidelines, the same life, the same way. All fighting eachother for something that should be a right.
This is not me being lazy, btw. Yes, I like working. I like having a goal to achieve. But that goal is getting money to buy something that should be a right. Food, home, necessities. Why do we have to buy food?
Dogs don't buy food. They don't buy homes. They like eachother, their way of society is different. No wars, no homework, no work. Yes, I'm aware that some animals, cats, dogs, are outside starving. But most of them? Honestly, they just have to survive. They don't have to do anything to get warmth, food, a place to stay. Why can't I do the same?
All my life I've been told that I had to fight to everything I archieve. Because I'm disabled, I'm autistic and have adhd, I'm trans, I'm neurodivergent. I have to try harder, and just keep trying, go on, go on, go on. Why? Why do I have to do that? Why am I expected to try harder than everyone else?
If I was a dog, I wouldn't have to fight. If I was a winged cat, I could hang out in a barn and live of mice. If I was a Watcher, I would have to just Watch. But I'm living a human life. In a brain that is not human, in a soul of an animal, in a body of a creature. But they still think I'm human
Hyena pics that closely resembles me
Ugshhsgs wdym I have to set my personality as an "acceptable and gentle human being" one rather than a "feral, wild and aggressive but respectful" one when I get back to school. Humans really like 2 see you from ur looks.
But I love my human companies though.. especially my bestfriend who like to pet me on my head or my back since he's so affectionate <3 i also luv to chat and laugh wildly with my close human friendgroup since they wont call me weird for it :]
Hey guys so I want to remake my spotted hyena mask and it's a wip now!! Sadly whenever I tried to add an image in this post tumblr wouldnt let me post it AGRHDGGRHRHFH
OMG REAL.
I literally got most of my physics question wrong yesterday. The dysphoria is pretty bad and still kinda affects me until now.
Im pretty surprised somebody mentioned this lol
Spacekin culture is to feel a lot dumber when you fail on physics and even worse when you fail about the planet you are a moon of!
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"friends don't look at each other like that" well okay you coward you do whatever you want however i WILL look at my friends like they're the most important thing in the world. i love them with my whole heart and i will hold their hand and stare at the stars not because i wanna fuck them but because they mean the world to me and i care about them. fuck you