Harassment - Blog Posts
IMPORTANT SA AWARENESS MESSAGE
TW: DISCUSSION OF S**UAL HARASSMENT AND R*PE
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRCD3f37/
PLEASE SPREAD AWARENESS
Some pretty obvious threats of harm & harassment going on with people over on my reddit page 5 months deep in. "Hated" what's on there.
Reddit deciding it means nothing & does nothing
“Boys will be boys”
“Their mentally I’ll so it’s not rape/SA”
“It was an accident suck it up”
This was from my own SA stay safe everyone
“Those poor boys”
“She deserves to be punished too.”
“I’m not saying I support rape, but-”
“Sorry to say - she deserved it.”
“She put herself in harm’s way”
“But if she was fingered, then that’s not rape.”
“She ruined their lives.”
every time I talk about my own abuse for the sake of justice or awareness, all the words punch the back of my throat, a heavy thumping that spills from my mouth like the ugly mess it was. it’s still so painful and emptying and numbing all at the same time. It feels like I spoil the conversation, that I’m being uncouth or impolite. my story has no place anywhere.
a glass just empty, full of unoccupied space. a head tangled with words. I’m still confused about the concept of justice. and love. and forgiveness. it just feels unfair. just feels so wrong to make my own body’s safety into a movement or a form of activism. I don’t want to be loud or strong or empowered, I just want to be safe.
this world, full of its misogyny and hatred towards women, doesn’t help. The vilification of victims in the media makes me feel even smaller. the internalisation of misogyny, undermining my own pain because of my body’s “crimes” doesn’t help either.
my voice sometimes doesn’t feel like my own. my body never feels like it belongs to me. all this activism and anger and pain and I still can’t shake the feeling.
I worry about other girls. I worry about their voices being stolen not only by their abusers, or society but also by themselves.